I kinda did something stupid n childish. Oh how i am ashamed with myself at this moment. Currently, this thing has become my enemy... THE ENEMY.. It is stronger than i have thought. Though i realized what it could do to me...but the evil is more powerful, in pulling me back n not to go forward.
O Allah.. Why am i so weak? I know it is all because of me. You have nothing to do with this.. But to you I surrender.
I am so ashamed. I am so stupid. I am so useless ;((