1 malaysia

oh yeah...while doing my so-called final examination, i forgot to jot down another sad news of the month. ;(

this morning, me n my mum were shocked with a news that my ex-neighbour whom we called as mami (donno what's the correct spelling is) had just passed away. this mami is an old indian woman who is so close to our family. but then, once we have moved to new area we are not that close and still we do visit each other especially on the hari raya/deepavali.

i couldnt make it to pay for the last visit coz i am still not feeling well this morning. so my mum n sis did go to visit the family. she will be burnt this morning tho. my sis told me that her face is so calm and in peace. ;) then, my sis also told me that the daughter kept on saying that mami and aya had always love me more than the rest... aya pun dah passed away back few months..

i still remember back then, i always go to their house. like always... i have no idea what i did all day long there but i was definitely been treated like a lil princess ever. hehee.. just say out whatever i wanna...then, i will surely get punye lah.

hahahah...aku close to indian families (oh gosh! now i realize it!) not a bad thing though...but it's for real. my other sisters lak close to chinese families. before i was born n when i was still young like 3-4 years old, my family lived with chinese families. there was one time i still remember that my family lived on the upper floor of a house whereby one chinese family lived downstairs. they had a business...fishes and aquarium! hahhaa....ingat lagi, kitorang adik beradik panggil diroang cina ikan..till now..hehehe...

wow...how 1 malaysia we were back then. tapi sekarang, kureng dah...mungkin neighbourhood skrg kureng ke satuan malaysianan nye.... apa-apa pun, it is definitely a memory not to be forgotten. alhamdulillah.... (",)

no pain ~ no gain ~

this is so funny. i guess it's a reality. my age is increasing. so does each and everything.

now i realize that working and studying at the same time is not really a definite decision. lagi-lagi lah kepada manusia macam aku ni. sebabnya, aku ni kan agak optimis. jadi, bagi aku semua itu bisa diatur.

well....undoubtedly the journey is fun. u get to be more knowledgeable and u somehow feel that u are the one who cares for the world...hahhaa...ntah apa-apa ntah explanation aku nih. ok pendek kata, ko akan rasa yang ko ni manusia yang pandai kerana ilmu datang dan pergi 24/7. ye la... you've been teaching and you are learning. what you learned, you teach it. isn't that the most pure and sincere deeds ever!? yeah...pandai is subjective but to me you sort of feel like you are worth it, berguna and responsible. full stop.

but, one thing that i am sure i am still the old mizleo. i luuuuvv last minute job. this is the "funny" part actually. as usual, we had an assignment. it was given from the very beginning of the sem but guess what!? i did it last minute show! so did my frens. i had all the materials with me but it is so hard to finish it up. yup, i've been doing it lil by lil... it's just that you dont feel the urgency to finish up asap...(byk cikadak kan?)

maka, i've been struggling like ttuutt for the past 7 days. i just feel like i need more and more references. ;D sampailah ke waktu pengakhiran nak submit assignment tu. i was not just struggling to finish the assignment there and then. it's more to struggling to juggle between work n study.

it is so irony. to get into class when i'm at work. giving lectures to students and when it comes to giving exercises to them, i fill my time doing some study for my masters. so C.U.T.E ^_^ yeah rite....

akhirnya, setelah penat lelah ku berakhir....pada petang aku submit assignment, aku dah start rasa tak sedap badan. need to fetch mum at my sis place and otw to there, i called her to get ready. my fever started to burn up... trus mlm tu aku meracau dan demam panas... my mum told me that i was just like so freaking up..hehe...thanx mummy! u always be there when i need ya (",)

tu lah...semakin berusia ni, semakin tak leh pressure diri plak..buat keje lebih jek mulalah nak sakit sini sakit sana. my mum used to tell me that she really 'hates' it if i were to fell sick. coz once i am sick, i am so gonna really sick. no play-play one. hehehe...well, allah loves me i guess. sakit itu kan mencuci dosa. alhamdulillah....

k, need to finish up another assignment. which is due tomorrow at 6pm!!

psst..btw, it is {take home final xm} lolss ^_* wish me luck ya! muah!

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i just deactivated my fb account. such a relieve!!!

aku tak tau kenapa. tp dua tiga menjak ni....aku tak sedap hati.

yang nyata, aku mahu banyak habiskan waktu dengan mendekatikan diri kepada ALLAH.

hanya DIA yang boleh membantu aku.. amin...

insyaallah...hendak seribu daya, tak mahu seribu dalih.

na'a

i just don't like the feeling of having no answer! buat aku tak keruan! arggh!!!

^_^

dear Miss Farrah Ahmad,, thanks for your time,, i greatly appreciate it,, u're the bomb,, drop dead gorgeous,, cute,, fun and all things good a lecturer could become,, just noe that those tears are for your understanding,, definately not because of her,, THANKS AGAIN!~~~ moral value;; be careful when choosing ur friends,, but be even more careful when adding people to ur fren list~~

[khairul izzat: 18/4/2011]

~ smile ~

it's been a while since i last wrote here. tried not to, coz i'll be writing about the late friend.. end of this month which is on the 30th would be his birthday AND ALSO genap 40 days he had left us and the world. -titik-

again...it's about how time flies so fast. tomorrow would be literally my last day of the first semester for my master. technically, the last day would be on the 6th May. yes, it would be the last paper that i am going to take. though tomorrow would be literally the last day, i still could not be happy, yet. still i have THREE assignments to complete. ghee ghee... ;D

but then kan...teringat hari tu bila i had a test. that was the first test ever since i graduated. O.M.G.... what a feeling! soalan was quite easy..but i had the rough time to actually be in the test-scenario. as usual...aku akan rasa cam loser. hahaha...sebabnye i was too conscious of writing the introductory paragraph with a hook...not to forget the thesis...and of coz topic sentences! what dduh! ;D that was all the thing that i had taught my students to practice and now i am in their shoes... well...it's like, what comes around, goes around.. hahaha...

tapi takpe la...yang penting, i truly had fun this time.

p/s: feels like to proceed with a PhD (master pun baru satu sem, tapi dah berangan... ^_^)

insyallah..kalau dipanjangkan umur n dimurahkan rezeki..Allah knows best! amin...