selfish?

oh my and my....

today is really a productive Monday. it is very seldom for me to have a productive Monday. coz i really hate Monday..by its nature. well..i'm a normal human being though. but this is not what i would like to talk about. i would like to talk about something else. something about, should i be a selfish person or just be as sincere as i could?

this question always come to my mind recently. it had always but currently it's more often. 

i just don't understand how people could not give a damn to something important in a particular situation.

ok, let me give 2 examples; 1 from the career perspective and another 1 from study life perspective.

1) somebody who does not bother to give attention to something that is important to him/her now or in the future. AND then, menyusahkan orang lepas tu when he/she found out that he/she needs it desperately.

2) in studies, do not bother to take any notes or slides given by the lecturers..and bila nak exam or test or whatever, terhegeh2 menyusahkan orang dgn nak meminjam bila orang nak guna.

oh benci sungguh aku bila ada orang2 macam tu di sekeliling aku. minta dijauhi lah aku untuk berkelakuan sedemikian. after all, i have learnt the lessons all this while. common la! kalau budak2 sekolah, aku bleh terima. tapi ni, dah besar panjang dah. tolonglah have some respect and responsibility to yourself. bukannya untuk orang lain, tapi untuk diri sendiri...

tapi one thing that makes me think twice is should i be selfish? i meant by not helping people in need? aku rasa it depends on the condition jugak. if let say i know that that person is not purposely neglecting his/her responsibilty, aku boleh tolong. tapi kalau obviously dia buat2 tak nak amik tahu and bila tiba-tiba benda tu diperlukan, and dia pun terhegeh2 minta tolong...aku rasa aku reluctant kot nak tolong. but still, aku boleh tolong with one condition. if he/she ask me the favor tidak pada waktu yang diperlukan dan dalam keadaan yang sangat kelam kabut and critical. 

atau, patutkah aku tidak mengendahkan itu semua dan cuba untuk seikhlas hatiku membantu sedaya yang mungkin? tanpa mengungkit? tanpa mengira? tanpa alasan? mungkin suatu ketika, aku di pihak yang memerlukan bantuan sedemikian rupa?

sigh~