kalau tiada angin, masakan pokok bergoyang

i just came back to work from a very long 'holidays'. one week for cuti raya and another week for cuti sakit. i missed the whole one week with my students which i regreted so much. they'll be having their real sace exam end of this month to early of the next month. so much to be revised and so much to be motivated. that's one thing.

another thing is, when i came to work yesterday, colleagues and students had been asking the same questions - "how r you?", "miss sihat?" etc.. Some of them have been asking such question because they knew my condition and some of them who didn't knew my condition, had uttered the question because of my physical appearance. i looked tired and of course not as happy as i always am. it is just tooo awkward when people asked me - "farrah sihat?" and i answered - "tak sihat". if i were to say "farrah sihat", sure they will ask further question blablabla...and i also did received a very first greeting from a clerk in the office where i did punch my card with "selamat kembali farrah"...hahahaha...sekurang-kurangnya aku pergi dan masih kembali and not vice versa....nauzubillah....

so, the moral of the story is rasa macam loser jek bila kita sakit and orang tanya kita sihat ke tak. at one point, soalan tu agak berbunyi bodoh (tapi takleh nak salahkan orang tuh sbb dia tak tau). and perasaan yg tak dapat digambarkan bila kita nak jawab yang kita sebenarnya tak sihat. baru aku tahu perasaan dua manusia itu. dalam kes ni, aku lah orang yang bodoh yang menanyakan soalan "kau/awak sihat tak?" bengap tul farrah nih %$%(^#@(*