Monday, April 13, 2009

this is my unhidden confession

i've been always asking myself (sejak dr dulu n specifically sjk i was in iium)...why do guys like their own kind? what's with this 'gay' thingy? is it sumthing cool to them or is it 'ketentuan ilahi'???

tolonglah...i am so damn SICK of this 'gay' thingy!! i am so truly damn SICK of a guy who seems STRAIGHT but behind us or let me put it this way - deep down inside him, he has feeling or shud i say THE FEELING to his own kind. and at the same time, to have a FEELING which is ANOTHER FEELING to a gurl/woman.

i'd rather see or look at the 'gay' people with their 'gay' personality. at least they are not that HYPOCRITE! oh gosh!!! how i HATE that!

God, i am so sorry for being too emotional but seriously i can't take this anymore. it actually hurts me more than anything could in this world.

and people, have u ever heard of the word 'repugnance'???? well, this is an expression of my repugnance of this disgusting fact(S)!!! and yeah..i am proudly announcing to the people out there that i've been beaten by this guy towards that another guy or i cud say 'gay' guy.

so, anyone who thinks that HE fits the shoe, i am sorry for being so daring but i do apologize for this coz i cant hide it anymore. my patience has its limit n i think i am being patient too long since we were in school. people've been hinting IT to me but i just closed my ears but now i HAD IT ENUF!!

-enuf said-

5 comments:

:RokstaLuNa: said...

huhuuh.....
so ko tatau aa dia gay ehh?
god that sucks...
being a gay is a problem ok...
let him with his problem...
find a real man...

katakukata said...

susah seh...takkan tiap2 laki aku kenal aku kena tanya soklan kat dia: "are u gay?"
aku tak kisah diorg nak jadi gay ke apa...tapi aku tak suka org2 yg rapat ngan aku nih yg gay..
aku tak menghina tp aku tak leh nak hypocrite jgk..and org2 yg rapat ngan aku tahu betapa aku bencinya subject 'gay' tuh..

aku rasa sgt berdosa to have this feeling but allah knows the best.

all the best to that fella!!!

Anonymous said...

A sensitivie issue.

Yet, Allah knows best.

Perhaps, guiding, motivating or helping (in any means) the person to elevate himself to the right path is much better and sweeter than a simple hatredness.

Anyway, byk lagi lelaki dlm dunia ni...

if it is not meant for you, meaning that Allah has something better for u in the future.

Jika Allah beri ujian berada dlm keadaan seperti ini, ianya kerana Allah sedang menguji kamu sebagai hambanya.

If u take it out from ur mind, and move ahead live ur life to the fullest enoying other things and love from ur families...then, this is not even a problem to u.

bunag masa utk fikir perkara sebegini. jgn bazir tenaga.

Regards,
Hamba Allah yg hina disisiNya

Nafastari said...

Sian ko.. Harap byk2 bersabar. Smoga nanti Tuhan temukan dengan orang yg paling tepat!

katakukata said...

thanx to anonymous n nafastari.

neway, he's not someone that i wished to live with as a life partner but rather a very good friend of mine. that why i said: "it hurts me more than anything could".

i just hope that allah will give me the guts to guide him to the right path. i myself am not the perfect individual.

neway, he doesn't know yet that i knew the fact. n actually he himself doesn't know that he is actually behaving like one.

still, allah knows the best! (",)