w.h.y

why

why things are not getting better..

why from day to day things worsened..

why can't it be something worth at its end..

why it is always happens when we are at ease..

why

this is my unhidden confession

i've been always asking myself (sejak dr dulu n specifically sjk i was in iium)...why do guys like their own kind? what's with this 'gay' thingy? is it sumthing cool to them or is it 'ketentuan ilahi'???

tolonglah...i am so damn SICK of this 'gay' thingy!! i am so truly damn SICK of a guy who seems STRAIGHT but behind us or let me put it this way - deep down inside him, he has feeling or shud i say THE FEELING to his own kind. and at the same time, to have a FEELING which is ANOTHER FEELING to a gurl/woman.

i'd rather see or look at the 'gay' people with their 'gay' personality. at least they are not that HYPOCRITE! oh gosh!!! how i HATE that!

God, i am so sorry for being too emotional but seriously i can't take this anymore. it actually hurts me more than anything could in this world.

and people, have u ever heard of the word 'repugnance'???? well, this is an expression of my repugnance of this disgusting fact(S)!!! and yeah..i am proudly announcing to the people out there that i've been beaten by this guy towards that another guy or i cud say 'gay' guy.

so, anyone who thinks that HE fits the shoe, i am sorry for being so daring but i do apologize for this coz i cant hide it anymore. my patience has its limit n i think i am being patient too long since we were in school. people've been hinting IT to me but i just closed my ears but now i HAD IT ENUF!!

-enuf said-

tak tahu lah

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i'm glad

alhamdulillah..my mum selamat sampai ke malaysia n home sweet home from mengerjakan umrah. she looks fine and healthy - that is the most important thing to me and the rest. she really looks fine but a lil bit tired because of the long hour flight and transit from karachi. glad and happy to have her back home.

meanwhile, cik khom telah kembali ke pangkal jalan iaitu ke rumah cik timah(umah mak dia ler). tadi cik khom telah mengambil segala2 harta pusaka dia dari rumahku. kira kalau u all look at her departure, kira ala-ala dia ni pelajar yang tersingkir dari akademi fantasia la.. siap tarik bag tuh..tu yg tak tahan tuh... hahaha...

itu je la. malas nak menulis panjang karena dia.

p/s: nasi kerabu pasar malam sek 7 shah alam sangat sedap! ~nyum-nyum~

thanx a mil, bil and tril!

mummy's coming back home tomorrow!
yeay! yeay! yeay!
no more makan luar kan cik khom!
thanx for the company...
need to thanx cik timah as well for allowing me in kidnapping you...
what weeks were it aight!?
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thanx a millionsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

kisah lempar ayam

Pagi tadi dalam lebih kurang pukul 3/4 pagi, ketika aku tidur (of course) di bilik tingkat atas, aku terkejut dengan bunyi pergaduhan dua ekor kucing. You know how it sounded when they fight kan!? Kalau siang, bunyi itu biasa aje...to one extent aku akan join diorang gaduh and terlupa sekejap hakikat bahawasanya aku ini manusia dan buka species mereka. Tapi pergaduhan ini berlaku ketika pagi2 buta di mana semua orang sedang diulit mimpi. It sounded so scary coz I've been awaken by its sounds. Dahsyat gak la diorg gaduh. I thought si cik khom akan sedar bunyi tuh..tp bila aku pandang dia....dia sah2 tak heran lansung ngan bunyi tuh (tido mati minah tuh!) Agak nyampah juge lah ketika itu kerana aku disalut perasaan ketakutan seorang diri. Tapi, as usual, aku buat2 tak tahu and terus tido-n I've made it. Esok siangnya aku tak kuar umah lansung coz I was really not feeling well (khom knew it). Then, masa petang skit when it was time to go the clinic (routine for almost 3 weeks), cik khom realized that there was something on my car bonet. Nak tau apa? Seketul daging ayam bahagian isi- ala2 fillet ayam la. And aku terus teringat kat kucing2 bengap yang bergaduh pagi tadi. Tapi mana diorg cekau daging ayam pagi2 buta kan? Scary gak bila fikir balik... Dahlah diorg gaduh susah payah, pastu diorg tinggal atas kete aku lak. Lagi la aku confused... (maklumla..aku kan suka critical thinking nih) hehehhee...

And di kala itu juga cik khom dengan gembiranya mengimbas kembali citer zaman muda belia I di mana seorang jejaka kampung yang tergila2kan I selama beberapa tahun ingin "melempar ayam" kepada daku. (ini cerita benar). Aku tak ingat sangat dah specific story about lempar2 ayam nih. Cuma, ironically it reminds me of old days..hahaha...Ntah apa2 ntah mamat tuh...suka kat aku tp nak lempar ayam kat aku...Kuang asam! Korang mungkin terponder n wonder why he wanted to lempar 'ayam' to me aight!? Trust me it is very long story n hanya org2 terdekat jek yang tahu (which equals to satu Kg. Raja Uda). Whatever la kan... Yang penting skang he's married with a kid. Still sekampung and dah lama tak terserempak ngan dia. Bila kenang2 balik citer2 dia...sangatlah kelakar and immatured.

-sekian-

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~random memories~ (",)

WE ARE THE DENIALS

TIME FLIES SO FAST. I AM BACK TO MY SAD, BORING AND PATHETIC MODE. I REALIZED THAT I REALLY NEED DISTRACTIONS - TO DISTRACT ME FROM THINKING, PONDERING AND ACCUSING. AFTER ALL, I AM A NORMAL HUMAN BEING - A WOMAN SPECIES - THAT FULL OF EMOTIONS BUT YET STILL RATIONAL AND MATURE IN DECIDING THE FUTURE. SEE! ONLY RATIONAL PEOPLE WOULD THINK OF THEIR 'FUTURE'. COZ IRRATIONAL PEOPLE WOULD NOT THINK OF THEIR 'FUTURE' BUT INSTEAD THEIR 'CURRENT' CONDITION & SITUATION. AND THOSE IRRATIONAL PEOPLE WOULD ONLY THINK OF THEMSELVES WITHOUT BOTHERING THE PEOPLE AROUND THEM. AND THEY THINK THAT THEY HAVE DONE AND DECIDED THE BEST OPTION THAT THEY COULD THINK BUT WHAT THE ........... .

THE CONCLUSION IS, NOTHING COULD SATISFIED US THE HUMAN BEING. AND NOTHING IS CORRECT AND PERFECT AS WELL. WE ALWAYS ASK FOR MORE WITHOUT REALIZING THAT WE 'ALREADY HAD' THE BEST. ITS TRUE THAT PEOPLE SAY, THE BEST IS IN FRONT OF OUR EYES BUT WE COULD NOT SEE IT COZ WE TEND TO FIND SOMETHING FAR AND IMPOSSIBLE.

THE FACT IS THAT WE ARE THE 'DENIALS'.

COOL PLACE TO CHECK OUT!

Few days ago, me, bb, khom n thiiah went to NZX sumwhere in PJ to have our 'so-called' lunch. Why 'so-called' lunch? Coz at that time, it was already 4pm nearly to 5pm. After all, we all tak peduli dah...coz sgt lapar n we didn't have our lunch yet. So, that day's lunch location was at NZX at Ara Damansara. Nama restaurant tu ialah FULLHOUSE. Concept restaurant tu ala2 Korean coz sama lah ngan citer korean yg Fullhouse tuh. Location restaurant tu agak terpencil coz NZX tu tak terkenal sgt lagi area tuh.

FOOD REVIEW: Makanan kat situ sedap n affordable. The quantity justifies the taste. Tak yah ckp pjg2 la..memang sedap n satisfied.

ENVIRONMENT: Peaceful, so purely divine (hahaha - suci daa) coz everything in white...Suitable for family and of coz very romantic for couples n partners... Sangat suci! (",)

So, just view the photos coz we were totally tiba2 jadi cam giler camera n giler bergmbr. So, if u guys ada peluang, do visit n try the food there - guarantee best!

And lupa nak beritahu, it's not just a cafe/restaurant, but ada gak sell various things yang cool n cun. As a result, me n thiiah dah ter'shop' skit kat situ..Agak bahaya untuk kaum perempuan la yek.. hehehe...

life

life is chaotic and hectic!!!

masa...cepatlah berlalu...