~i do miss him~

i miss him.

the funniest part is- i miss him a lot during the weekends. i can forget him during weekdays coz basically i am very the busy with works, lectures and marking. but when it comes to weekend, i really can't control it. it is due to my openness of emotions and feeling during saturday and sunday. why? coz i always let my works out of the agenda of the days of sat n sun.

after all,
i do miss him.
a lot.

*sigh*

perasaan saya ketika ini

something yang memalukan telah terjadi awal pagi tadi. saya sangat dan amat malu! tak pernah perkara sebegini terjadi pada saya dan kenapa perlu terjadi pagi ini? perkara ini sangat tidak amat sesuai jika empunya nye badan adalah perempuan. jika lelaki, tidak mengapa. dan yang lebih memburukkan keadaan adalah ia terjadi di hadapan lelaki (itu).

uuwwaaaaaaaaaaaaaa......

amat terasa ingin menangis. kulit mukaku sangatlah tebal ketika ini. tak dapat saya bayangkan sekiranya malam ini saya bersemuka dengannya. pasti kejadian pagi tadi masih segar di mindanya.

Tuhan, saya malu.

~random memories 2~ (",)

he's just not that into you

just came back from watching "he's just not that into you"...

my review is: it's totally a harsh truth!! but, it is the truth pun.
irda, i'm going to find the dvd as well. a good reference for me i think..hahhaha...

therefore, it is recommended for ya all to watch it.

p/s: my studs, u all bdk2 kecik lagi. so, my recommendation is not directly to u guys (",)

w.h.y

why

why things are not getting better..

why from day to day things worsened..

why can't it be something worth at its end..

why it is always happens when we are at ease..

why

this is my unhidden confession

i've been always asking myself (sejak dr dulu n specifically sjk i was in iium)...why do guys like their own kind? what's with this 'gay' thingy? is it sumthing cool to them or is it 'ketentuan ilahi'???

tolonglah...i am so damn SICK of this 'gay' thingy!! i am so truly damn SICK of a guy who seems STRAIGHT but behind us or let me put it this way - deep down inside him, he has feeling or shud i say THE FEELING to his own kind. and at the same time, to have a FEELING which is ANOTHER FEELING to a gurl/woman.

i'd rather see or look at the 'gay' people with their 'gay' personality. at least they are not that HYPOCRITE! oh gosh!!! how i HATE that!

God, i am so sorry for being too emotional but seriously i can't take this anymore. it actually hurts me more than anything could in this world.

and people, have u ever heard of the word 'repugnance'???? well, this is an expression of my repugnance of this disgusting fact(S)!!! and yeah..i am proudly announcing to the people out there that i've been beaten by this guy towards that another guy or i cud say 'gay' guy.

so, anyone who thinks that HE fits the shoe, i am sorry for being so daring but i do apologize for this coz i cant hide it anymore. my patience has its limit n i think i am being patient too long since we were in school. people've been hinting IT to me but i just closed my ears but now i HAD IT ENUF!!

-enuf said-

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i'm glad

alhamdulillah..my mum selamat sampai ke malaysia n home sweet home from mengerjakan umrah. she looks fine and healthy - that is the most important thing to me and the rest. she really looks fine but a lil bit tired because of the long hour flight and transit from karachi. glad and happy to have her back home.

meanwhile, cik khom telah kembali ke pangkal jalan iaitu ke rumah cik timah(umah mak dia ler). tadi cik khom telah mengambil segala2 harta pusaka dia dari rumahku. kira kalau u all look at her departure, kira ala-ala dia ni pelajar yang tersingkir dari akademi fantasia la.. siap tarik bag tuh..tu yg tak tahan tuh... hahaha...

itu je la. malas nak menulis panjang karena dia.

p/s: nasi kerabu pasar malam sek 7 shah alam sangat sedap! ~nyum-nyum~

thanx a mil, bil and tril!

mummy's coming back home tomorrow!
yeay! yeay! yeay!
no more makan luar kan cik khom!
thanx for the company...
need to thanx cik timah as well for allowing me in kidnapping you...
what weeks were it aight!?
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thanx a millionsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

kisah lempar ayam

Pagi tadi dalam lebih kurang pukul 3/4 pagi, ketika aku tidur (of course) di bilik tingkat atas, aku terkejut dengan bunyi pergaduhan dua ekor kucing. You know how it sounded when they fight kan!? Kalau siang, bunyi itu biasa aje...to one extent aku akan join diorang gaduh and terlupa sekejap hakikat bahawasanya aku ini manusia dan buka species mereka. Tapi pergaduhan ini berlaku ketika pagi2 buta di mana semua orang sedang diulit mimpi. It sounded so scary coz I've been awaken by its sounds. Dahsyat gak la diorg gaduh. I thought si cik khom akan sedar bunyi tuh..tp bila aku pandang dia....dia sah2 tak heran lansung ngan bunyi tuh (tido mati minah tuh!) Agak nyampah juge lah ketika itu kerana aku disalut perasaan ketakutan seorang diri. Tapi, as usual, aku buat2 tak tahu and terus tido-n I've made it. Esok siangnya aku tak kuar umah lansung coz I was really not feeling well (khom knew it). Then, masa petang skit when it was time to go the clinic (routine for almost 3 weeks), cik khom realized that there was something on my car bonet. Nak tau apa? Seketul daging ayam bahagian isi- ala2 fillet ayam la. And aku terus teringat kat kucing2 bengap yang bergaduh pagi tadi. Tapi mana diorg cekau daging ayam pagi2 buta kan? Scary gak bila fikir balik... Dahlah diorg gaduh susah payah, pastu diorg tinggal atas kete aku lak. Lagi la aku confused... (maklumla..aku kan suka critical thinking nih) hehehhee...

And di kala itu juga cik khom dengan gembiranya mengimbas kembali citer zaman muda belia I di mana seorang jejaka kampung yang tergila2kan I selama beberapa tahun ingin "melempar ayam" kepada daku. (ini cerita benar). Aku tak ingat sangat dah specific story about lempar2 ayam nih. Cuma, ironically it reminds me of old days..hahaha...Ntah apa2 ntah mamat tuh...suka kat aku tp nak lempar ayam kat aku...Kuang asam! Korang mungkin terponder n wonder why he wanted to lempar 'ayam' to me aight!? Trust me it is very long story n hanya org2 terdekat jek yang tahu (which equals to satu Kg. Raja Uda). Whatever la kan... Yang penting skang he's married with a kid. Still sekampung and dah lama tak terserempak ngan dia. Bila kenang2 balik citer2 dia...sangatlah kelakar and immatured.

-sekian-

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