laalaa lalalalaa laa lalalaa.. (smurfs' lullaby)

yeehhaaaa!!!

sila refer kepada link ini --> rezeki untukku

entry yang lepas ini aku menceritakan bahawa aku dah pun mem'buat' rumah di tepi pantai.
just would like to share that i am already 'moved' in to the new beach house...
=(

why sad icon??

ohh...it is soooo challenging. to one extent i feel like running away to the farthest place that i could.
but where to? will i be free then? maybe for a while but not for long....

see! entry ni pun aku tulis separuh jalan.. and bersambung now. it eventually took me nearly 2 weeks to complete it.

oh. saya agak penat. tapi saya tetap berpegang kepada pepatah nan satu ini:

bersusah-susah dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian.

sekian.

rezeki untukku...

~~saya baru sahaja menempah rumah dia tepi pantai~~ taken and revised from

-->kalau tidak mau dilambung ombak, jangan berumah di tepi pantai

ingat lagi aku post this pepatah kat fb a while ago... masa tu aku found out yang aku kena ajar program lain jugak. masa tu core person english dept tanya, bleh@nak ke ajar prog nih? it will starts on october. aku macam tak tau nak cakap apa. why not kan? kalau aku tak nak, aku nak buat apa pun...lagi2 la skang ni, total number of sponsored students are not that high anymore. our governments are not that rich like we used to. so, it means loading will not be that much compared to before. tapi, bila aku say yes to her, aku kena aware that aku takkan dapat cuti end of the year nih....sebabnye, blum pun habis prog australian aku, aku akan start ngan prog jepun. kiranya these two programs will be berselisih at one particular moment. that is why aku post pepatah tu. maknanya aku dah bersedia dengan segala kemungkinan yang aku akan occupied end of this year and chances untuk aku amik cuti agak nipis ye kawan-kawan ~~

sebab tu la aku post pepatah tu....tapi bila kawan2 aku baca, diorang ingat memang aku baru menempah rumah di tepi pantai. riak sungguh kalau aku buat post macam tu...hahhaa...aku lupa yang contextually diaorang tak faham..hanya aku jek la yang faham...

tapi nampaknya, aku tak lagi menempah rumah di tepi pantai....malah aku dah pun beli rumah di dalam laut! believe it or not....lolss..... ;))

secara rasminya, loading and jadual aku dah agak penuh dari end of this may 2o11 till march 2012. what the!!? hahhaha.... this is because, end of may ni lak start lah class untuk prog middle east. bape prog da aku mengajar....tambah lagi bulan september start balik semester utk master.huhuhu...poning den dibueknya....

takpe, aku bersyukur dengan loading aku ni. sekurang-kurangnya aku masih hidup dan mampu untuk laksanakan tanggungjawab aku selepas ini. allah maha mengetahui segala2nya...

syukran jazilan...insyaallah....allah knows the best ^_^

^_^

dear Miss Farrah Ahmad,, thanks for your time,, i greatly appreciate it,, u're the bomb,, drop dead gorgeous,, cute,, fun and all things good a lecturer could become,, just noe that those tears are for your understanding,, definately not because of her,, THANKS AGAIN!~~~ moral value;; be careful when choosing ur friends,, but be even more careful when adding people to ur fren list~~

[khairul izzat: 18/4/2011]

pengalaman baru -best!

oh penatnye hidup di kala ini....

sebenarnya, aku ada banyak benda nak share....tapi aku sangat takde masa nak menulis.
nantilah aku cari waktu yang seswei untuk mengarang karangan...

by the way, petang tadi aku pi pearson longman... ala, publisher buku yang dikenali ramai tu..
last week, elt sales manager dia called aku. dia invite aku join focus group discussion yang diorang organize...lebih tepat, diorang ni nak publish new book about ielts. so, during the focus group discussion tu, a prototype will be given, and kitorang akan comment and highlight lah benda2 yang relevant dengan prototype tu mainly on its contents, layout, structure, appropriacy in terms of language and level and macam2 lagi lah...

discussion started at 5.30pm and it was facilitated by the regional sales manager/director - Steve King from the Japan headquarter. it lasts till 7pm and all i could say, it was fun and fruitful. best btul bila ada professional academic sharing and discussion moment. tup tup, dah pukul 7pm. participants ada 8 orang semuanya. 3 including me from the same place. and another 5 from other 4 institutions. steve said our group is so far the best focus group he has ever had. it went well and steve managed to finish it up on the dot.

the best part was.....as a token of appreciation, pearson longman gave us approx USD50 that is RM150. yeah...just for 1hour and a half. well...our contributions in ideas and thoughts are really much appreciated. yeehaa!! ^_^

so, based on our opinion, the writer for that particular book will consider our sharing thoughts of experiences and knowledge to actually improvising the books. from it, they will be able to market the book and suits the market very very well....

alhamdulillah....rezeki datang tanpa kita perasan. amin

ausmat 21's farewell dinner 2010

Semalam was AWESOME! Actually, it was a collection of unexpected moods n feeling's. Yesterday's night was a Grand Dinner Ausmat 21 at Empire Hotel. The theme of the night was Glam Grammy Night (if i'm not mistaken la).

Why unexpected? Mula-mula tu macam takde sangat perasaan emosi sebab this is merely a dinner and i've been to quite a number of dinners. But then, being in my career especially at this particular institution, we are already accustomed to farewell. And being a normal lady, emotions do take part..hehe...Mana taknya, to one extend there are students who i've taught the whole 3 semesters i.e. 1 and 1/2 years. So, worth it la kot untuk aku sedih2 bila nak berpisah. Lagi-lagi lah if aku went well with the class that i taught.

And yes, the great part was last night's achievements. The event's committees had prepared some awards to be given out and of coz to their friends la. At the same time, ada jugaklah awards for their lecturers. Guess what? Aku dapatlah jugak antara awards yang dipertandingkan... heheh... Dahla theme Grammy, terasa akak macam artis... ^_^ Basically, i won two awards and a lucky draw. What an achievement! The categories that i won were Ms Popular & Best Dress. So, semalam kemenangan aku adalah kemenangan hatrik la... Tak menang tangan akak bawak balik trophy. Berbaloi akak beli baju on that Saturday...all the way from Ipoh...hahaha Ipoh mali ;D

Dan dinner tu semestinya ends with photography session. They were all having fun as they've finished what they were working their ass off for the whole 3 sems. Saying goodbye to each other and hopefully will be flying together next Feb. But before that, results will be coming out this December.

All in all, everybody were enjoying the night and Ausmat 21 Forever~

Siapa kata anak En ahmad tak multi-tasking?

Hoorraayy!! I'm totally DONE with minggu yang azab last week. Alhamdulillah it all went well smoothly without any major disaster. Aku berjaya met the due dates for both important things. The first one was on monday where i have to key-in the seniors' trial marks in the system. Basically the act of key'ing'-in the marks was not a problem at all but to finish and finalize the markings were the hardest ever... ;(( In fact, to make it more and more and more harder was when I had two codes of subjects to look after : ESLS and also Malay Studies. Totally two different languages but the ESSAYS are always killing me. In ESLS, there were 2 parts of written tasks - an argumentative essay and a letter (not to forget 2 parts of Listening Comprehension). Where else, in Malay Studies there were 3 written tasks with different topics/issues and depending on the questions chosen - there were different format as well. And of course, there were listening and reading comprehension. So, it was a success and i DID it! ;) Good Job Leogurl!

The second one was then on last friday. We the lecturers need to fill in Pink & Blue Forms to be sent to SACE Australia. These two forms are really needed to be filled in with extra and 101% cautious. These forms too are the students' future lucks. One of the forms is to be filled in with their School Assessments or generally known as Internal Marks or to make it more simple, their carried marks. So, these marks will be added with their marks from the real SACE Exam which they are going to be seated beginning this November 1st. And the other form is their predicted marks. It is very important for us to meet this due date because the forms will be made photocopied for documenting purposes and it need to be AT the Australia by this friday the 29th. And again, i've made it smoothly unlike last year where it was quite a disaster process.

In the mean time that I was supposed to do and get settled with all these marking and filling in forms, I was contacted by the Main Campus Corporate Office. They would like me to attend an audition for the Istiadat Konvokesyen's emcee post as well as the voice-over post. I did go to the audition and it was exciting! Emcee tu macam biasa je la kan cuma this kind of emcee is more formal and well-managed. As for the voice-over, this is truly exciting. Rasa cam nak ketawa and golek2 kat lantai bila aku kena baca this one particular individual's profile. Mana tak nye, I was already in the English mode. So, basically my slang, accent and style were already tuned accordingly. Tiba-tiba tengah read out loud tu (and of coz they were recording my voice), aku kena sebut "nasi berlauk and nasi kerabu hitam".. Makanya, bunyi benda dua alah tu sudah berbunyi macam minah saleh pelat bercakap bahasa melayu. Aku rasa sangat murtad bahasa and sapa-sapa cam yang tak faham tu mesti kata aku ni perasan bagus cakap english. hehehe... Kelakar pun ada gak. Nak kata suara aku ni sodap, takde la pun..Kalo nyanyi sumbang gak. Tapi tu la...semenjak kerja kat sini, post emcee dah macam melekat dengan aku. Apa jek events kat sini, mesti aku jadi emcee. Rasanya, staffs kat sini mesti dah bosan kot dengar suara aku and tengok muka. Tapi best jege dapat peluang macam ni. Aku dapat kerja ngan pelbagai orang from different departments. And of coz, I gained a lot of experiences throughout my involvements. So far, aku dah dapat untuk jadi pengacara majlis kepada 2 events yang paling penting kat sini yang melibatkan kedua-dua VC. It was indeed a precious experience. But, I have a confession. I was damn horrible in being an informal emcee. Sangat buroks...

p/s: Tu lah, sapa kata aku tak multi-tasking? Terlebih ada lah. On the week itself, I had involved in students's event and was a jury for the night. Siang lak, class full 24hrs credit. Sapa kata anak En Ahmad tidak multi-tasking? (",)

~penat tapi bosan~

Akhirnya, dapat juga aku bercuti. Penat betul rasanya 2-3 menjak ni. As in my profession ni, hanya cuti semester yang boleh diharapkan. Tak macam orang2 yang kerja di office. They can apply leave(s) whenever they want except for no tasks at the moment la. Kalau macam aku ni, aku rasa dah sesak2 nafas punya penat pun, harapkan mc jek. Tapi masalahnya, susah untuk gambarkan pada panel clinic yang some of us ni ironically sesak2 nafas penat bekerja. Hahaha...mesti doc pelik kan? Apa punya jenis penyakit la ni...hehehe... honestly, aku pernah bersusah payah berfikir macam mana tak nak pergi kerja on one certain day tu. Sebabnya, aku restless sangat2. Kalau aku pi kerja pun, aku lagi sakit otak. Why? Because definitely I need to lecture my students on that day. And I can’t simply lecture them on anything by any ways. Sesenang-senang topic and seterer-terer (apa punya word daa) kita pun, if nak lecture our students, we certainly need to be prepared. We might need teaching aids – these are the most important element in teaching, trust me! A lesson without teaching aids would be boring. Ditambah lagi dengan adanya students zaman sekarang ni, you 100%-ly need a fun and interesting method of teaching. Just to attract them...hhmm...

Yup, back to the efforts done on thinking the solution of not wanting to go to work, it was really a headache activity. You just couldn’t simply give your employer your honest reason(s). And of course you can’t simply go to the doctor and tell him/her that you just don’t have the feeling to go to work. You need REASON! Uuwwaa...pressure seh....

Tapikan, bila dah cuti semester ni, bila dah apply cuti sepanjang-panjang students cuti, akan timbul satu perasaan bosan kerana kita akan cuti panjang tanpa berbuat apa2 yang berfaedah (pada tafsiran context penulis). Paling-paling aku akan pi shopping or even window shopping. Agak2 dah habis duit dilaburkan.... shopping complex pastinya di-blacklist kan. Pastu, nak gi mana aje? Duduk rumah la. Kawan2 lain lak kerja... at the end, bohsan kembali. Makanya, aku ni kalau tak sibuk giler, mesti free or bosan giler. Takde istilah yang tengah2. Haaah...life is so complicated.

So, raya tahun ni aku cuti agak 2 minggu. Dan aku dapat menganggak yang minggu depan, perasaan bosan bakal tiba. Dan minggu selepas depan itu, situasi sibuk bakal menjelma. Dengan adanya interview yang aku tak prepare lansung dari saat ini, hinggalah job-job emcee yang bakal dioffer dan diterima, aku simpulkan jua – life is so unpredictable. Apa-apa pun, life goes on. Aku selalu percaya, segalanya ada hikmah di sebaliknya. Dan, aku redha! >.<

Dengan ini, selamat hari raya aidilfitri. Maaf zahir dan batin. Doakan interview daku berjalan dengan lancar dan insyaallah, kalau ada rezeki, aku Berjaya ke peringkat satu lagi. Amin ya rabbilalamin....

jakun tak?

hey there!

just finished the classes for the day. suddenly i felt the tiredness of having to teach for 21 hours per week. so damn demanding. thank god i have a good senior for esls class. they just need my humble guide to be better coz i believe they are in the right track. the other subject is malay studies, also a senior class. they are okay but need to work a lil harder though. the subject is not like other subjects in terms of u need to know and revise certain facts. it's more into critical thinking application in almost all the assessments. i would say it is quite subjective. and another subject is junior esls class. as sace board had change the wightage for the assessments affectively 2011, we kinda have a slight changes and differences in the syllabuses. that's the reason i need and had to re-study certain parts. and not to mention to actually prepare some new materials like powerpoint slides as well as practices. so far so good i guess...but the feeling of exhaustion is obviously felt. huhuhuhu....

tapi tadi class malay macam best jek..hahha...i was like ter-jakun coz in the lab that we are using for presentation had a touch screen computer and also internet connection. i was jakun coz having knew my place, it is not that IT-ish. who knows me would understand. and one thing for sure, the students never knew that the room has the internet connection. this is because, they usually use this room for special purpose and it is not a common classroom. only by booking or request, then u may be permitted to use. so, when they have to watch a movie for study purpose, or perhaps class presentations, they can use the room (rather than having LCD and a laptop to do so). and seriously i cannot believe it's a touch screen pc. had fun touching it though. ^_^

another thing was, when the students were doing their discussion, i took the advantage to use the internet. and what i did was to google their blogs. almost of them had one. and they are trying to find mine. hahaha..good luck guys. hopefully u guys jumpa. dont forget to leave a comment for this entry k!? ^_*

k, for kesekian kalinya, i nak balik keje awal... ddaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... xoxoxox

ana fening sudeh~~

first of all, hahaha...

today is the first day of the junior semester. however, the senior had started their semester 2 weeks ago. as usual...the first class that i entered would definitely be an ice-breaking session. but, today i did not do that. i just felt that they are so near to me. in that particular class, i have 4 malay male students and the rest are all girls - malay and chinese. so basically i just introduce myself, giving all necessary details of me and i straight away introduce and expose them to the subject as well as the subject's requirement. they were enthusiastic (of course they are) since this is the first day of their becoming 1 and a half year of studies in this institution.

one thing that i always ask for is for them to write on something about themselves, their expectations towards the subject, class and etc. it is just not for the sake that they can introduce themselves informally but i found out that through that task, many things can be observed. one of the example is definitely their writing skills and not to forget their competencies in all those grammar, sentence structure etc.

i just finished reading all their write-ups and i'm kinda pening already. they know what to write but lots of improvements needed. huhuhu...mizleo, their future is again in ur hands.

chayyok-chayyok!!

chill babe..~~

eeeiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii....

tiba2 ptg tadi aku hangin! sebabnye students aku dok msg sbb nak aku reply email.

memang ler aku tak kisah nak consult or whatever tru email. aku mmg galakkan smua ni.

tapi masalahnya, aku dah tetapkan before balik cuti ke kampung masing2...submit keje n consult topic ngan aku. n seperti yang dapat dijangkakan...ada jek la manusia2 yang lambat n contact aku tru email. ada jek la alasan2 yang kalo boleh aku tak nak layan n pedulik.

betapa baiknye hati aku bila aku try to put myself into their shoes....and if what they claimed of (the reason) why they submitted it late is so true. aku agak hangin and emo sebab: 1) hari ni hari ahad 2) sah2 off the due date 3) demanding me to reply it soon 4) ingat aku takde keje lain ke hari ahad ni?

tapi takpe la...demi kesian kat diorang, aku spend time (which i shudn't coz it's a family day-sunday) replying all emailsssssss there and then. n kerana ada pemikiran yang matang, maka berterima kasihlah si dia itu. sedap and sejuk skit hati aku. bila fikir balik, bukan senang nak jadi pensyarah ni. ia sangat lain dari cikgu kerana pensyarah menuntut waktu dan hari yang bila2. memang ada pensyarah yang tidak heran dengan request students when it comes to a non-working day. but for me, i think we shud try to help them anytime n anyhow that we cud. unless it is something ridiculous, then we shudn't entertain them so.

yang nyata, insyaallah dengan berkat kesabaran and keikhlasan kita, students ni smua akan berjaya. siapa lagi akan bersyukur kalau bukan kita kerana ilmu yang kita turunkan pada mereka itu datang dari niat dan hati yang ikhlas lagi suci. hanya allah swt yang maha mengetahui dan dapat membalasnya. insyaallah amin......

kerja rasmi sudah habis.

hoorayy!! kerja rasmi dah habis....!!!
just keyed in final exam's marks in the system.
well...results are not that good...quite dissappointed actually...
and i can say that i am a lil bit afraid of the coming semester...
and definitely the real exam this november.

english paper was excellent.
i am grateful to have good students and also hardworking ones...
but malay paper was the one that i am not really feel at ease...
while marking their papers these few days back...
my brain was actively thinking of loads of possible activities that i could offer them...
to actually help them to do better and better and be fully prepared...
it is "malay for background speakers" paper...
but it is not that easy though.

hhmm...
it's ok...think positive!

go leogurl~ ^_*

happy and grateful ^_*

i am sooo happy today!!! ^_^

ielts's results are out and my students excelled!
this is the first time i taught them the whole 4 components.
even so, there are few of them that i think can achieve more than what they get...
however,i am still grateful as what they had achieved so far...

this is what and how you'll feel when u r in the teaching field..
all u need is their success though they have troubled u before,
with their questions, behaviors n attitudes...

IT WAS ALL WORTH IT!

and i am truly happy with them (",)

xoxoxoxox luv.

cuak

today is the day that i feel soooooo relieved. macam banyak jek bebanan kian terurai... one thing for sure is because my students had just finished their ielts's exam. sangat lega rasanya when classes started to end (only for ielts tho). the rest of the classes still ada baki one week.

a fact that i realized being a teacher is when ur students are facing their examination, we will always hope for the best. i never knew if there is any teacher who actually doesn't care of their students' achievements and performances. contoh paling dekat is at this moment. yesterday, my students' had their speaking ielts's test. siapa yang nervous?? akuuu jugak. students aku sah2 memang nervous. aku rasa aku akan lagi nervous bila their exam paper is not done by us-the teachers. i would rather say that their exam paper is external-based. if this happening, aku adalah manusia yang paling cuak. mana tidaknya, i'll always be thinking whether they understand the questions or could they reflect and relate as well as connect whatever that have been taught to answer such questions given. hhmmm.... and obviously, to know the answer, i have to wait for their results. and masa tunggu results diorang nih adalah masa yang paling cuak giler! in fact, last year my colleagues and i sanggup balik keje lambat semata-mata nak tunggu results from australia through e-mail. hahhaha...macam apa jek kan...?

tapi when u r into this education business especially teaching, u will somehow feel and act like parents. u nurture them, care, guide and all the things that a mother or a father does to their child/children. ekekeke...aku rasa poyo lak tulis cam nih. hahaha... ^_*

k la...till entry meets entry! have a good day!

tiba-tiba

dah lama dah tak jenguk internet rasanya. kalau online pun, hanya lotus e-mail n yahoo e-mail semata. aku dah mula bosan dengan teknologi. kalau boleh, handphone pun aku rasa cam rimas jek. tapi tak leh nak emo-emo sangat sbb bondaku balik kampung n hanya handphone lah pengikat jarak. and i have to think of my students as well. nowadays, students can easily sms@call their lecturers through hp if they ever have anything to ask. back then during my time, we never had the guts to even think of sending any sms or making any calls to the lecturers. sekarang ni, students boleh sms cikgu diorang anytime they want. bagi aku, ia sangat senang. if aku rasa aku tak nak layan or masa diorg sms/call tak sesuai, aku tak reply. tapi yang menjadi masalahnye kalau diorg sms beriya2 semata2 nak tanya soklan yang aku rasa tak patut such as-

"miss, esok ada class tak?"

or yang paling teruk n aku menyampah is

"miss, esok mr X postponed class sbb dia ada meeting. boleh tak kita awalkan class kita n fill in slot mr X? boleh lah kitorg balik awal".

apa korang rasa gamaknya??? sengal tak? ggrrr..... well..time does change..same goes to the people...therefore, life has to go on... (",)

huk huk huk :((

hehe....

just came back from two classes out of 3 classes. at the afternoon after 1pm will have remaining 1 class. so far, okaylah..too early to make judgement. but i think i can already predict the future. my esls class seems to be quite challenging. they are students of health sciences (pharmacy, dentistry etc.). therefore they are required to perform at the very best which is TER 90 and above. oh gosh!!! what a nightmare! btw, this TER is the university's requirement. if they could not attain this TER, they are not going to be accepted to any university and has to stay local. i don't want that to happen to my students. lagi-lagi la the previous batch agak ramai yang tak lepas.

btw, it is not the responsible of me alone. they have another subjects as well like maths, physics, chemistry etc. but then, teaching esls is quite challenging because ESLS is THE subject!

tapi takpe. mizleo kan seorg yang optimistic! sure she can punya la.. chayok2!! huhuhu :(

repeating the same process

new semester has just started officially today. had a staff meeting in the morning n in the afternoon, LoU took place as usual. but then, this year is a lil bit different. why? coz AUSMAT at my place particularly had received a CERTIFICATE OF COMMENDATION FROM THE LORDMAYOR OF ADELAIDE upon our (the program) excellent achievements in conducting the program. it was an honor to be proud of because we were then assessed from all the institutions that offered SAM globally. rasa cam bangga gak ar...coz i am a part of the program. and have been listened from the representative at the ceremony this afternoon, he said that this cert of commendation was actually an idea from the lordmayor himself..as he wanted to recognize our achievements all this while...therefore, it is indeed a very much well-appreciated heart that he has personally. hhmm... ^_^

oh ya..we also had a certificate presentation for the students who got merit(s) for the SACE exam in 2009. in a few last entries back, i did write about the moment my students had their real SACE exam that actually will determine whether they'll be either surely flying to aussie or nz OR not... the results had came out soon before christmas last year...for my esls, alhamdulillah everyone will be flying soon in february...(",) and my malay studies subject, 5 of the students couldn't make it a.k.a will not be able to fly. it is due to their results which is their TER that was not up to the requirement of either their sponsor or the university. it was actually sad to know that some of your students could not fly as they have worked hard ( i hope) for the past 1 year and a half. i myself did not have the guts to actually started any conversation with either of my students who will not be able to fly. they must have been frustrated, sad and it is hope that the parents could understand their situation. ye lah...sometime the parents will keep on pressuring their children..but i guess, ada hikmah di sebalik segala kejadian (",)

so basically, i'm back to the process of teaching/lecturing/facilitating tomorrow onwards. life will be busy as normal... i hope the journey goes smoothly n keep up the good work mizleo!! ^_^

chayok2 mizleo!!

what a week this week. very the bad one.... sekejap jek dah jumaat..tp keje bukan semakin kurang, tapi semakin berlambak dan naik meninggi...bilik office dh macam tempat recycle kertas jek. sini sana kertas...sini sana files assignments...sini sana pen merah, pen biru, pencils...sini sana botol air..sini sana macam-macam...nasib ada bola-bola api. ceria skit hidup dalam bilik office ku ini.

talking about work and me specifically as a lecturer, students ni kadang-kadang boleh menyakitkan hati. tapi tak kurang jugak yang boleh menyejukkan hati. but then, yang menyakitkan hati lebih banyak dari yang menyejukkan hati.huhuhhu...

however, this morning..hati aku sejuk jek tengok student aku yang sorang nih...haish...allah jadikan muka dia sangat tenang and tatkala tengok dia...tenang jek hati aku. not only me but to my other colleagues as well... hopefully, hati aku akan tenang sampai ke petang ler...tapi rasanya tak kot. sadiskan? takpe2..berkorban untuk nusa dan bangsa.

chayok2!!!

expect and accept the unexpected

topic aku kali ni still mengenai p.e.n.a.t. mungkin orang kata aku kecoh sebab macamlah aku sorang jek penat. tapi itu hakikat sekarang yang aku hadapi. bila aku penat, ia ada kena mengena dengan 'kesibukan' dan busy. mungkin again, orang kata macamlah aku sorang nih jek yg sibuk and busy. which again, itu memang hakikatnya sekarang.

i don't know why i am busy and penat. i am too restless. sometimes i feel good to be restless and penat..sebabnya it is proven that i am doing or i am into something. kalau aku tak penat, maka sangatlah obvious yang aku ni takde keje. that's one thing good about it.

tapi yang tak goodnye, when it comes to penat and busy, i'll tend to overlooked a few things around me. i overlooked myself, my mum, my family, my life, my friends. yang paling aku tak overlooked is my students la. or i cud say my job. sebabnya, kerana kerja la aku penat dan sibuk. at least takde la aku merambu and buat keje yang tak patut. and because of these all, i am rewarded. not only salary though but lots of thing too. rezeki melimpah, kesejahteraan jiwa (hahaha), keredhaan and kerahmatan, kegembiraan and macam2 la.

back to 'overlooked' issue, dh nak dekat sebulan aku tak contact one of my best fren tu. she is sick and aku tak sempat nak tanya khabar dia. tapi, setiap masa aku teringatkan dia dlm fikiran aku. cuma tak berkesempatan nak menulis message or give her a call. yang aku risau, penyakit dia kembali, right after 2 years. and i knew that she had gone thru tough times alone. though there are people around her but the pain is only felt by her.

like my previous entry, life is full of unexpected things. we have to always expect the unexpected. it is not just the matter or expecting it, but also to accept the unexpected. some things are already meant by us, allah had decided it long time ago. therefore, accept it and try to do our best out of it. nescaya, we'll see the hikmah di sebalik kejadian tersebut. (",)

students

Siang tadi ada sorang stud aku datang and say bye-bye. insyaallah august ni dia dah nak fly ke US to further his study. tiba-tiba cam agak touching lak. tak tau nape... lg pun he is one of my studs yg paling rapat and baik. very humble n ngam la ngan aku..i've met his mom n bro once..very the ramah and sweet...ntah bila la plak aku bleh jumpa diorg lagi... n ntah bila aku leh jumpa my stud tuh lagi..maybe in a year time...

and talking about bila leh jumpa..last few weeks my studs yg dh fly dtg visit..deel made a surprise for me with their presence.. agak terkejut gak la...(kata surprise kan??) huhuhuu...sekejap jek masa berlalu..tup tup..dh sethn diorg blaja kat US n mcm2 dah terjadi..one of it was the most sad incident tu la...apa2 pun..aku tetap doakan kejayaan and keselamatan diorg.. i am proud of having them as my students..may they are blessed with success and joyful (",)

me and deel (4th from left)

durian oh durian...

I have just came back from rapporteuring..it's been a fruitful and excellent 4 days attending the 17th Conference of Commonwealth Education Ministers (17CCEM) at KLCC. It was once in a lifetime experience whereby this conference is held once in a three years. Malaysia is the 17th commonwealth contry who had been given the chance to host such prestige conference. So, I wonder when would be the next chance that Malaysia will get to host CCEM. There were so many happenings that I would like to share with whomever reads the entry, but I guess I'll have it written when I am totally free.

However, this particular happening is the one that will be most remembered by most of ours the rapporteurs. We were having lunch today and fortunately we sat at the same table with the Vice Chancellor of one of the university in Tanzania and one woman who is actually has a high position in the Commonwealth organization. From all the topics that we could discussed on (most probably education), we actually did have a chat about DURIAN. Yes, the king of the fruit in Malaysia. Not surprisingly, the european people would have the perception and opinion that they really can't stand the smell of durian. My colleague-MUN shared with us that she watched a program about this guy who actually travels around the world looking for the weird food such as an exotic food. However, durian was told to be the weird food in the world. And it is all because of the smell.

So, this woman and my german colleague are the two ladies who cannot stand the smell of durian. And because of the smell, they do not get the chance or I could say they do not want to take the chance to actually taste durian for real. The smell is actually the reason for this kind of people to not wanting to have a taste of durian.

I never knew in Tanzania there is durian. And surprisingly they also called it durian. It sounds weird though but after all it is a fact. So, this VC from tanzania said that he had to hide from his wife if he ever wants to eat durian. Coz his wife doesn't like the smell of it. But this VC is really enjoying the food and its taste. At the same time, this european lady and a german colleague of mine have been wondering how this Tanzanian enjoyed his fond of durian so much in spite of the 'wonderful' smell. Both of them just couldn't accept it. This topic or issue raised is then brought us to a professional chat. Moreover, our three UM colleagues who are also rapportuers are actually scientists. And one of them is so-called master of science in plants. So, he basically knows everything about durian. Of coz scientifically. He was saying that durian has 20 types which I don't really know about it. And the best type of durian is D24 which is the most expensive of all. However, he also said that it is not easy to find the 'real' D24 type because of it limitedness and also difficult to find. The real D24 is usually being exported to abroad because of its quality. (only the best will be sent away, anyhow) hhmmm...

There was one part that actually attracted me. We were explaining and informing both european lady and german colleague of mine that durian has been commercialized. We now have ice-cream with durian flavour, durian jam , dodol durian and lots more. Both of them were actually shocked that we can have these kinds of food in durian flavour. Suddenly, the Tanzanian VC interrupted our chat and said that it never happens that somebody who actually has the courage to taste durian with his/her perception of the bad smell that durian has, will eventually says it tastes terrible. Everyone who tried despite the negative connotation will find it tasty and the tendency for them to eat durian in the future is getting high. The taste will somehow exceeds the smell. And that is for sure! hahahaha...ye ker? (",)

And how irony life is. The moment i stepped into my house back from the conference, I smelt durian. I thought that I am already cursed with it but actually my mum had just bought the durian. huhuhuhuhuhu...On top of all, I enjoyed my experiences of a 4-day conference.