it's a final countdowwwwwnnnn!!!

salam everyone and my dear! It is not just 2013, but already February. What a zasss!

You know what!? It has already been 5 years of me working at my workplace now. Just could not believe it. I just felt that yesterday was my first week of lecture to my US bound students. And today, i am with Aussie bound students and the funny part is i am not just an English lecturer, but also a Malay Studies' lecturer. Don't ask me what and how i ended up there. =D

Last Monday & Tuesday which was 4th & 5th Feb, I sat for a Comprehensive Examination(CE) - it's my master's thingy. Initially, my master's degree is M.ed (master in education) TESL without thesis. Though there is no thesis, we do still have one part of project paper. It's kinda like the mini-thesis la konon. I was planning to finish my master by this year so that I could finish my semester by September and have my convocation on October. But suddenly, my faculty announced that we could no more do project paper because of there is short of supervisors to monitor our paper. It's kinda disappointing in one way but it's a YEAY! on the other hand. And because of that too, I will end my studies on January instead. In return to no project paper, we are advised to sit for CE. Basically CE is also one of the options offered to students like us. Like in my case, I was offered M.ed TESL without thesis (project paper is understood to be the path). Some others (very few of them) are I don't know offered or requested CE. I have no idea of the CE's existence up to the day I entered the uni. How does this CE works? It is just as simple as you will be asked about all the selected subjects that you have taken during your studies. This CE is usually done at the end of your last semester after your final exam. Isn't it sounds creepy and nonsense too!!!??

To shorten, me and my other friends whose this semester is the final semester have to sit for CE. So, last mon & tues was like s***! It was a tough 3 hours' exam...damn tough. On the 4th I sat for Research Methodology & Statistics papers. Just imagined that there were 10 questions worth 200 marks and you need to complete it in 3 hours! Oh no no no.... I just do not want to write it here coz it will be totally ignored and mentally challenged to be remembered. hahaha.... then on the 5th, I sat for 2 sets of exam - 3 hours & 200 marks each. All the 3 hours consisted of 2 subjects and equal to 200 marks. The examiner was expecting us to write at least 3-page for each questions in the paper. We had to answer 3 questions so basically it made us to write 9 pages for that particular paper. Can you please make your own calculation if the same thing happen for the afternoon's paper? 18 pages of my writing using my only right hand with loads of pens that i regularly changed and threw off. That was for the second day. On Monday, I can say that I have written for at least 5 pages. Please do your math. And because of that toooooo, I can't really be holding pen or pencil as my hand felt like a cramp. Thus, I am planning not to hold a pen and/or write more than 15 seconds for these next three days. Today is the first day and I managed to do so. Holding a pen for less than 15 seconds. hahaha...we'll see how for tomorrow and the next day....

oh yeah.... the reason i pursued in my master's degree, one of it was because i want to go away from him and perkara2 yang sewaktu dengannya. yes, it did help and i did go away and forget him too.. but now, i have finished with my masters, will i think of him back..or what?!? Or should i go for PhD? hahaha.... khelass ko peah! apa2 pun terima kasih lah yek kepada orang yang telah tanpa dia sedar memberi aku motivasi utk belajar lebih tinggi semata-mata nak lupakan dia. sangat menguntungkan perkara ni. lalalala~~~

so, i shall wait for another two weeks for my CE results. ada jek harapan tak lulus tapi aku ni optimist la..(konon...). buat masa ni nak lupakan dulu psl results la apa la...aku just nak focus kat workplace. aku dah tak leh abaikan students aku...aku tak nak jadi cam colleague aku...jatuh prestasi students dia...she was quite busy executing few matters and without her realization, she kind of not to have the focus that she should. plus with my admin post, tak pernah nye every semester, dates yg aku dah booking tak perlu di tunda2... 

apa2 pun aku doakan yang terbaik utk diri aku. insyaallah aku pass... dan kena pass. so, nak usha2 vacancies kat tmpt lain nak?

hahahahhahahaha..... 

^_^

laalaa lalalalaa laa lalalaa.. (smurfs' lullaby)

yeehhaaaa!!!

sila refer kepada link ini --> rezeki untukku

entry yang lepas ini aku menceritakan bahawa aku dah pun mem'buat' rumah di tepi pantai.
just would like to share that i am already 'moved' in to the new beach house...
=(

why sad icon??

ohh...it is soooo challenging. to one extent i feel like running away to the farthest place that i could.
but where to? will i be free then? maybe for a while but not for long....

see! entry ni pun aku tulis separuh jalan.. and bersambung now. it eventually took me nearly 2 weeks to complete it.

oh. saya agak penat. tapi saya tetap berpegang kepada pepatah nan satu ini:

bersusah-susah dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian.

sekian.

syukran ya allah!

yeay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

alhamdulillah...... 4 flat in the hand babeh!!

thanx Allah ;)

p/s: it is all worth it.

you've done a good job, mizleo! ^_^

ALHAMDULILLAH....

SAYA HAPPY!

IT'S A GOOD START...

I AM SO EXCITED FOR TOMORROW....

COZ TODAY I HAD A GOOD NEWS....

^_^

THANK YOU ALLAH

YOU ARE THE ONE AND ONLY

sabar itu separuh drpd iman mizleo!

sakit j.i.w.a

assignment is NOT FUN at all!

never will be when it comes to campurtangan I.T

pphhbbtt... >:P

no pain ~ no gain ~

this is so funny. i guess it's a reality. my age is increasing. so does each and everything.

now i realize that working and studying at the same time is not really a definite decision. lagi-lagi lah kepada manusia macam aku ni. sebabnya, aku ni kan agak optimis. jadi, bagi aku semua itu bisa diatur.

well....undoubtedly the journey is fun. u get to be more knowledgeable and u somehow feel that u are the one who cares for the world...hahhaa...ntah apa-apa ntah explanation aku nih. ok pendek kata, ko akan rasa yang ko ni manusia yang pandai kerana ilmu datang dan pergi 24/7. ye la... you've been teaching and you are learning. what you learned, you teach it. isn't that the most pure and sincere deeds ever!? yeah...pandai is subjective but to me you sort of feel like you are worth it, berguna and responsible. full stop.

but, one thing that i am sure i am still the old mizleo. i luuuuvv last minute job. this is the "funny" part actually. as usual, we had an assignment. it was given from the very beginning of the sem but guess what!? i did it last minute show! so did my frens. i had all the materials with me but it is so hard to finish it up. yup, i've been doing it lil by lil... it's just that you dont feel the urgency to finish up asap...(byk cikadak kan?)

maka, i've been struggling like ttuutt for the past 7 days. i just feel like i need more and more references. ;D sampailah ke waktu pengakhiran nak submit assignment tu. i was not just struggling to finish the assignment there and then. it's more to struggling to juggle between work n study.

it is so irony. to get into class when i'm at work. giving lectures to students and when it comes to giving exercises to them, i fill my time doing some study for my masters. so C.U.T.E ^_^ yeah rite....

akhirnya, setelah penat lelah ku berakhir....pada petang aku submit assignment, aku dah start rasa tak sedap badan. need to fetch mum at my sis place and otw to there, i called her to get ready. my fever started to burn up... trus mlm tu aku meracau dan demam panas... my mum told me that i was just like so freaking up..hehe...thanx mummy! u always be there when i need ya (",)

tu lah...semakin berusia ni, semakin tak leh pressure diri plak..buat keje lebih jek mulalah nak sakit sini sakit sana. my mum used to tell me that she really 'hates' it if i were to fell sick. coz once i am sick, i am so gonna really sick. no play-play one. hehehe...well, allah loves me i guess. sakit itu kan mencuci dosa. alhamdulillah....

k, need to finish up another assignment. which is due tomorrow at 6pm!!

psst..btw, it is {take home final xm} lolss ^_* wish me luck ya! muah!

~ smile ~

it's been a while since i last wrote here. tried not to, coz i'll be writing about the late friend.. end of this month which is on the 30th would be his birthday AND ALSO genap 40 days he had left us and the world. -titik-

again...it's about how time flies so fast. tomorrow would be literally my last day of the first semester for my master. technically, the last day would be on the 6th May. yes, it would be the last paper that i am going to take. though tomorrow would be literally the last day, i still could not be happy, yet. still i have THREE assignments to complete. ghee ghee... ;D

but then kan...teringat hari tu bila i had a test. that was the first test ever since i graduated. O.M.G.... what a feeling! soalan was quite easy..but i had the rough time to actually be in the test-scenario. as usual...aku akan rasa cam loser. hahaha...sebabnye i was too conscious of writing the introductory paragraph with a hook...not to forget the thesis...and of coz topic sentences! what dduh! ;D that was all the thing that i had taught my students to practice and now i am in their shoes... well...it's like, what comes around, goes around.. hahaha...

tapi takpe la...yang penting, i truly had fun this time.

p/s: feels like to proceed with a PhD (master pun baru satu sem, tapi dah berangan... ^_^)

insyallah..kalau dipanjangkan umur n dimurahkan rezeki..Allah knows best! amin...

lam alif zal ya

aku dikelilingi dengan orang-orang yang sakit. ada yang sakit biasa-biasa...dan tak kurang juga dengan sakit yang luar biasa. bukan itu sahaja, malah aku pun sakit dan berpenyakit.

aku sakit M.A.L.A.S !!!!

tuhan sahaja tahu betapa malasnye aku sekarang ni. semua kerja aku tergendala. it is not good at all. n yes i know that. but still i'm not moving on.

like at this moment. i have an assignment that i should submit already. but i'm not finished with it. oh nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

missyleo. kenapa ko malas ni huh!?

wake up gurl!!!!!

gapo dio!?

"Selamat pagi cikgu!"

tapi, nampaknya sekarang - "Selamat malam cikgu!"

oh my gosh... life has been very hectic. pagi malam dengan buku. penatnya tak terkira.
dugaan betul hidup aku kali ini. baru jek seminggu mengharungi liku-liku hidup menjadi pelajar, tapi rasanya dah berat dah bahu ni memikul kerja sekolah.

allah itu maha mengetahui...syukur alhamdulillah...he has always been there helping me out. memang aku tak tau at the first place. but then, bila pikir lama-lama, barulah everything makes sense.

i do really need multivitamin. i feel restless and hopeless to think about the whole semester.

wish me loads of lucks ^_*

luv.

an inspiring meeting

saya selsema dan saya tidak gemarkan situasi selsema ini.
what a day today....

btw, hari ni saya pergi bertemu dengan penasihat akademik master saya. betapa agak sukarnya saya hendak menemui beliau. dengan jarak perjalanan yang agak mencabar dari rumah atau pun pejabat, saya gagahkan jua, saya usahakan jua. beliau pulak bercuti selama 2 hari. saya pula tak sabar nak daftar subjek pelajaran. maklumlah...hampir 4 tahun saya meninggalkan alam universitas. tapi masalahnye, saya rindukan zaman pembelajaran ketika di iiu. with all the non-academic activities...yang berupa academic tu tak payah nak citer la kan. and akhirnya tadi, saya dapat bertemu dengannya, itu pun setelah dipostponed untuk ketiga kalinya.

he was a knowledgeable person indeed. from the very first impression, i could sense that. anyway, before i went and meet him, i googled him in the university's website. ternyata ia agak mengajaibkan (ada ke perkataan tu?)!! penasihat akademik saya ini merupakan seorang academician yang mengarah kepada pemikiran kritikal, kritis, kreatif dan sewaktu dengannya. saya pula seorang yang kritis dan kritikal. masakan tidak, kalau anda berikan saya satu masalah, saya akan menyediakan kembali kepada anda solutions, results, resorts, options, choices, possibilites, probabilites dan lain-lain. katakan saje, anda mahu yang positive atau negative. dan ternyata ketika saya memberitahu colleagues yang rapat dengan saya, mereka semua tertawakan saya dengan ungkapan - "elok sangatlah tu"!. dan saya hanya mampu ketawa dan gembira. di dalam hati, saya berdoa pada Allah, moga beliau dapat membimbing saya ke arah kejayaan berdasarkan pengalaman dan keluasan ilmu yang ada pada beliau. amin.

maka, saya pun bertemulah dengan beliau pada pukul 2 petang tadi. ternyata beliau looked much better than the photo in the website. hehehe.. we had a lively conversation. but i have to admit that from 100% he talked, i could only captured 70%. why? because his sayings were full of infos and of course i could not catch it up from the 1st meeting. it is too mouthful to be said and understood. tapi saya amat mengkagumi beliau. ntahlah bagaimana boleh terbit perasaan sedemikian. barangkali kerana beliau ada mengatakan pada saya yang beliau bakal bersara pada tahun 2012. kata beliau, sudah cukuplah aktiviti beliau untuk duniawi. sudah masanya beliau ingin menumpukan pada bekalan yang bakal dibawa selepas kematian. terpancar keikhlasan beliau pada bidang akademik. saya cuba memprovok beliau dengan memberi kenyataan bahawa academician yang sejati mempunyai passion yang amat mendalam tentang ilmu pengetahuan. beliau dengan tenang memberitahu saya bahawa apa yang saya katakan adalah benar sama sekali. tetapi, pada beliau sebagai seorang islam kita seharusnya memberi perhatian pada spiritual. he had worked hard before, said he. and he had felt the thick n thin, all the pain n vain. pada saya, he just know his limit. and i salute him for his alertness.

the most grateful moment that i realized from our very 1st meeting was that he is so fatherly. belaiu tak macam academician berumur yang lain. he has the sense of humor which i thank god so much. and he is open to any issue or subject to have a conversation with. he said, i am like your dad and whatever i said is from behalf a father's advice. and he did not stop me or demotivate me by any means when we had or discussion. he always encourage me by saying, you are still young. and for a few times he told me just do whatever you like. dont rush..you have your time but the most importantly, manage your time and plan well. haaaa....sejuk dada ku mendengarnya.

my ex-colleague who is still pursuing her masters there said that he is a kind man. do whatever he says and be committed to his lessons and you shall be granted with an A and excellency.

so dear ALLAH, i do'a for a smooth silky journey that will be full of lessons and inspirations. may it be the reason that drives to success. amin....