Mengimbas kenangan lalu Part 1

Disebabkan aku bosan + line tenet semakin mengancam + laptop baru serba canggih + teringat kenangan lama sebab gi tengok balik gambar2 lama = maka, aku decide untuk menulis entry tentang perkara2 yang aku tak sempat share dulu.

So, today i would like to share about my trip to Sydney last May 2013. 

It was quite a sudden decision to have my holiday there. I went there with my mom, my 3rd sis, my 5th sis and his chubby son. Decided to go to several OZ states but i didn't feel confident to do so coz my mom was not really well (though she said she is okay - na ah i don't buy her words ;D).

I would say it was a bless to have my students all over OZ states. Anyway, I am a lecturer teaching students (mostly sponsored) who will be flying to Australia & New Zealand. So, last year was my 6th year teaching students who are going to further their studies abroad. I have students who are going to fly to US, UK, Russia, Japan, Korea, Middle East, India, Ireland, German and that's it I guess. But I have been teaching students for OZ/NZ for almost 5 years last year. So, basically I have plenty students there. 

Went to Sydney for a week and stayed at my students' house. I have my cousin there too but then decided not to stay there coz it was quite a small house. Rented a car the whole week. I had too coz mom was not fit to walk or travel by public transport. Luckily since we rented the car for a week, it got cheaper. 

It was such a relieve coz the morning before my flight, I was still fighting to finish up marking my students' end of semester exam papers and not to mention..... I have LOADS of BUNDLES to do so! It was because I taught two codes and believe me I was like committing suicide jek! (expression saje tak berniat betul pun. hehehe).

Went for jalan-jalan, to Blue Mountain and many places (not to mention shopping!). Met my ex students - couple of batches too and had makan-makan. They are really good cooks! Superb!

All in all, it was such an escapism! Here are some of the photos that I could grab from this laptop.

it's a final countdowwwwwnnnn!!!

salam everyone and my dear! It is not just 2013, but already February. What a zasss!

You know what!? It has already been 5 years of me working at my workplace now. Just could not believe it. I just felt that yesterday was my first week of lecture to my US bound students. And today, i am with Aussie bound students and the funny part is i am not just an English lecturer, but also a Malay Studies' lecturer. Don't ask me what and how i ended up there. =D

Last Monday & Tuesday which was 4th & 5th Feb, I sat for a Comprehensive Examination(CE) - it's my master's thingy. Initially, my master's degree is M.ed (master in education) TESL without thesis. Though there is no thesis, we do still have one part of project paper. It's kinda like the mini-thesis la konon. I was planning to finish my master by this year so that I could finish my semester by September and have my convocation on October. But suddenly, my faculty announced that we could no more do project paper because of there is short of supervisors to monitor our paper. It's kinda disappointing in one way but it's a YEAY! on the other hand. And because of that too, I will end my studies on January instead. In return to no project paper, we are advised to sit for CE. Basically CE is also one of the options offered to students like us. Like in my case, I was offered M.ed TESL without thesis (project paper is understood to be the path). Some others (very few of them) are I don't know offered or requested CE. I have no idea of the CE's existence up to the day I entered the uni. How does this CE works? It is just as simple as you will be asked about all the selected subjects that you have taken during your studies. This CE is usually done at the end of your last semester after your final exam. Isn't it sounds creepy and nonsense too!!!??

To shorten, me and my other friends whose this semester is the final semester have to sit for CE. So, last mon & tues was like s***! It was a tough 3 hours' exam...damn tough. On the 4th I sat for Research Methodology & Statistics papers. Just imagined that there were 10 questions worth 200 marks and you need to complete it in 3 hours! Oh no no no.... I just do not want to write it here coz it will be totally ignored and mentally challenged to be remembered. hahaha.... then on the 5th, I sat for 2 sets of exam - 3 hours & 200 marks each. All the 3 hours consisted of 2 subjects and equal to 200 marks. The examiner was expecting us to write at least 3-page for each questions in the paper. We had to answer 3 questions so basically it made us to write 9 pages for that particular paper. Can you please make your own calculation if the same thing happen for the afternoon's paper? 18 pages of my writing using my only right hand with loads of pens that i regularly changed and threw off. That was for the second day. On Monday, I can say that I have written for at least 5 pages. Please do your math. And because of that toooooo, I can't really be holding pen or pencil as my hand felt like a cramp. Thus, I am planning not to hold a pen and/or write more than 15 seconds for these next three days. Today is the first day and I managed to do so. Holding a pen for less than 15 seconds. hahaha...we'll see how for tomorrow and the next day....

oh yeah.... the reason i pursued in my master's degree, one of it was because i want to go away from him and perkara2 yang sewaktu dengannya. yes, it did help and i did go away and forget him too.. but now, i have finished with my masters, will i think of him back..or what?!? Or should i go for PhD? hahaha.... khelass ko peah! apa2 pun terima kasih lah yek kepada orang yang telah tanpa dia sedar memberi aku motivasi utk belajar lebih tinggi semata-mata nak lupakan dia. sangat menguntungkan perkara ni. lalalala~~~

so, i shall wait for another two weeks for my CE results. ada jek harapan tak lulus tapi aku ni optimist la..(konon...). buat masa ni nak lupakan dulu psl results la apa la...aku just nak focus kat workplace. aku dah tak leh abaikan students aku...aku tak nak jadi cam colleague aku...jatuh prestasi students dia...she was quite busy executing few matters and without her realization, she kind of not to have the focus that she should. plus with my admin post, tak pernah nye every semester, dates yg aku dah booking tak perlu di tunda2... 

apa2 pun aku doakan yang terbaik utk diri aku. insyaallah aku pass... dan kena pass. so, nak usha2 vacancies kat tmpt lain nak?

hahahahhahahaha..... 

^_^

prank king was being pranked

i am so seriously and damn happy!

i have just completed a mission with my students and also unexpectedly my boss,

to prank my colleague - kesh.

he is the prank king, and finally i had successfully done it..

of course with all the PMs...

it was indeed a tiring day that was full with discussions, brainstormings, plans,

phone calls, and strategies.

my brain was so tired...

my day was so full up to an extent that i did not have the time to BE in the office

and also Check my emails and other stuffs for the day...

ohh....it was indeed a full of lagha day....

whatever! i am happy!

1 malaysia

oh yeah...while doing my so-called final examination, i forgot to jot down another sad news of the month. ;(

this morning, me n my mum were shocked with a news that my ex-neighbour whom we called as mami (donno what's the correct spelling is) had just passed away. this mami is an old indian woman who is so close to our family. but then, once we have moved to new area we are not that close and still we do visit each other especially on the hari raya/deepavali.

i couldnt make it to pay for the last visit coz i am still not feeling well this morning. so my mum n sis did go to visit the family. she will be burnt this morning tho. my sis told me that her face is so calm and in peace. ;) then, my sis also told me that the daughter kept on saying that mami and aya had always love me more than the rest... aya pun dah passed away back few months..

i still remember back then, i always go to their house. like always... i have no idea what i did all day long there but i was definitely been treated like a lil princess ever. hehee.. just say out whatever i wanna...then, i will surely get punye lah.

hahahah...aku close to indian families (oh gosh! now i realize it!) not a bad thing though...but it's for real. my other sisters lak close to chinese families. before i was born n when i was still young like 3-4 years old, my family lived with chinese families. there was one time i still remember that my family lived on the upper floor of a house whereby one chinese family lived downstairs. they had a business...fishes and aquarium! hahhaa....ingat lagi, kitorang adik beradik panggil diroang cina ikan..till now..hehehe...

wow...how 1 malaysia we were back then. tapi sekarang, kureng dah...mungkin neighbourhood skrg kureng ke satuan malaysianan nye.... apa-apa pun, it is definitely a memory not to be forgotten. alhamdulillah.... (",)

kami menyayangi dan merinduimu... ;(

ya allah tuhanku...

sangat berat rasanya menanggung kesedihan dan ketakutan...

aku telah hilang dua sahabat dalam masa 20 hari..

yang terbaru ini amat sangatku rasai...

sehinggakan aku tak dapat lagi mengeringkan airmata ku ini...

dua hari aku berulang-alik ke hospital..dan dua hari itu merupakan hari-hari terakhir arwah...

allah betul2 memakbulkan doa aku...

allah telah mempermudahkan perjalanan arwah..

arwah agak terbeban dengan dugaan yang dihadapi..

hari terakhir aku, akid, mas dan afiq bersama arwah adalah pada tengahari sabtu..

arwah kelihatan sihat jika dibandingkan dengan hari-hari sebelumnya...

dlm banyak2 hari, hari itu lah satu2nya hari arwah bercakap dengan banyaknya...

malah arwah juga duduk, baring, dan stretching bergilir ganti...

tidak seperti hari2 lain di mana arwah hanya mampu baring dan menanggung kesakitan..

kami bersembang seperti waktu2 arwah sihat...cuma bezanya, arwah di katil hospital dan fizikal arwah tidak seperti dulu....

allah menghidapi cancer lymphoma...

sesuatu yang amat jarang bagi penduduk malaysia...

arwah juga telah didiagnose setahun yang lepas...tetapi berita itu berlalu pergi begitu sahaja...

tiba2 ia datang kembali dan kali ini terus merampas arwah dari dunia ini..

kesian arwah, pada 31 disember yang lepas, mamanya telah pulang ke rahmatullah....

arwah amat rapat dengan mamanya...malah amat menyayangi mamanya...

tidak pernah kami dengar tentang ahli keluarga yang lain selain mama...

pemergian mama amat mengujinya...

tak lama selepas mama pergi, arwah menanggung pula penyakitnya...

terlalu banyak kenangan kami bersama arwah...

malah hampir setiap aktiviti, arwah pasti ada bersama-sama...

apatah lagi aku ini selalu digandingkan bersama arwah untuk mengacara majlis...

selepas ini, pasti ada kerusi kosong...

pasti tiada siapa lagi yang akan menyampuk..

tiada siapa lagi yang akan datang dengan idea2 yang bernas malah tak masuk akal...

tiada siapa lagi yang akan menyanyi...

tiada siapa lagi yang datang bersama kaca mata hitam....

ya allah ya tuhanku....

terlalu perit untuk aku terima ini...

sesungguhnya Engkau maha mengetahui ya tuhanku...

hambamu yang kerdil memohon padamu...

ko tempatkanlah arwah di kalangan orang2 yang beriman...

ko sayangilah arwah dan hapuskan lah dosa-dosa arwah di atas muka bumi ini...

sesungguhnya arwah seorang yang selalu menceriakan hari-hari orang di sekelilingnya...

arwah Mohd Ishak Mustapha Kamal....kami menyayangimu....

30 April 1984 - 20 March 2011

dugaanmu, hikmahmu, insafku.

i pity ishak.

ya allah yang maha mengetahui maha mendengar,

aku mohon padaMU untuk mempermudahkan perjalanan ishak..

sesungguhnya berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu yang memikul..

aku redha jika ini ujian yang KAU beri padanya, maka aku kira ada hikmah di sebaliknya..

ya allah ya tuhanku,

panjangkan lah umur nya...limpahkan lah kurnia rezeki buatnya..

aku memohon padamu agar dia sembuh dari dugaanmu.

sesungguhnya dia amat tabah tapi tak tertanggung dek seksaan duniawi yang kau beri padanya..

allahu akbar..

besar sungguh petunjukmu...

luas sungguh nikmatmu...

silaturrahim antara kami lebih kuat lebih utuh..

insaf kami lebih terkesan...

kerana apa yang kau uji padanya,

membuka mata orang di sekelilingnya..

ya allah maha penyayang..

aku mohon padamu sekali lagi..

panjangkanlah umurnya dan ubati lah dia dari penyakitnya..

sesungguhnya hikmah yang diberi, harapannya biarlah yang menyinari..

amin ya rabbal alamin......

innalillahirojiun

ok.

i am seriously speechless.

i am done with crying and i can't cry anymore.

instead, i am still shocked.

my good friend - Wan Ahmad Fadzil or better known as Jay, had just passed away like 20-30 minutes ago.

thank god coz i wanna go online.

i saw his pic was tagged with condolences sentences.

i was confused.

arwah in fact had just came back to malaysia and on his way back to terengganu- his hometown.

i was told that he was just had an accident. ya allah....with his wife and two kids in the car. both of the daughters are still young and the youngest was only about 4 months.

i could not imagine what was the accident like when allah took away him from this world.

from what i asked, he was in coma but not for too long.

innalillahirojiun....ya allah, semoga roh arwah dicucuri rahmat dan al-fatihah.

p/s: he had been a great dear friend of mine and we did share a lot of thoughts together.

pengalaman baru -best!

oh penatnye hidup di kala ini....

sebenarnya, aku ada banyak benda nak share....tapi aku sangat takde masa nak menulis.
nantilah aku cari waktu yang seswei untuk mengarang karangan...

by the way, petang tadi aku pi pearson longman... ala, publisher buku yang dikenali ramai tu..
last week, elt sales manager dia called aku. dia invite aku join focus group discussion yang diorang organize...lebih tepat, diorang ni nak publish new book about ielts. so, during the focus group discussion tu, a prototype will be given, and kitorang akan comment and highlight lah benda2 yang relevant dengan prototype tu mainly on its contents, layout, structure, appropriacy in terms of language and level and macam2 lagi lah...

discussion started at 5.30pm and it was facilitated by the regional sales manager/director - Steve King from the Japan headquarter. it lasts till 7pm and all i could say, it was fun and fruitful. best btul bila ada professional academic sharing and discussion moment. tup tup, dah pukul 7pm. participants ada 8 orang semuanya. 3 including me from the same place. and another 5 from other 4 institutions. steve said our group is so far the best focus group he has ever had. it went well and steve managed to finish it up on the dot.

the best part was.....as a token of appreciation, pearson longman gave us approx USD50 that is RM150. yeah...just for 1hour and a half. well...our contributions in ideas and thoughts are really much appreciated. yeehaa!! ^_^

so, based on our opinion, the writer for that particular book will consider our sharing thoughts of experiences and knowledge to actually improvising the books. from it, they will be able to market the book and suits the market very very well....

alhamdulillah....rezeki datang tanpa kita perasan. amin

it made me ME

ok...it's another more or less 2 hours before it begins with year 2011. a fact that we have to face - we are a year older. goshh...time flies soo fast!

Macam-macam yang telah terjadi tahun 2010 nih. Daripada yang best kepada yang tak best...Yang sakit hati, yang bengong, yang surprise!, yang menyayat hati, yang riang ria, yang takut, yang gerun, yang tak percaya, yang sangat tak bleh blah dan yang sebagainya.

Ingat lagi bila it was early this year, the forecast said that this year would be a downturn compared before. Economically, it would not be a good one for most of the people. And macam-macam lagi lah. Tapi, tu semua predictions jek. Ntah sapa ntah yang rajin predict-mengpredict ni. Satu kerjaya yang amat jaya lah jugak. Aku pun kadang-kadang suka gak baca tentang forecast nih...Saje gatal-gatal..takdelah sampai percaya giler2. Yang aku suka ialah horoscope nye predictions nih. Suka-suka jek untuk suka-suka baca. I am not really believing in whatever it says but kalau yang best-best tu, aku buat sebagai motivations la.

Honestly, this year is soo happening!! Daripada perkara yang aku nak elak, ia terjadi juga. Personally, it is a year that is full of emotions. On behalf of my career, it is turning out really well. I've learned a lot and I grew up with it along the journey. Financially, i am blessed with loads of rezeki. Rezeki aku sungguh murah. Alhamdulillah...Walaupun kadang kala aku diuji, tapi thank god la aku dapat menapisnye.

Basically, this year had started with quite bad scenes. But, towards the middle of the year, it turned out good. Reaaally good instead. hhmm... Thank you Allah for all your blessings and fate that you've set for me. It taught me a lot actually. It made me stronger, it made me to think twice. It made to accept what it is said to be fated. It made me happier. It made me better. It made me ME.

Tak lupa juga, tahun depan tanggungjawab aku lebih berat. I'll be back to school and i do really hope that i could do better in both teaching and learning. Hopefully, in another 2 years time....i'll be granted with my masters' degree. insyallah..... ^_*

Tapi, dalam banyak-banyak benda yang terjadi....ada satu package lagi yang aku owe to ALLAH. and i hope i could accomplish it throughout next yearsss.... ^_^

So, farewell to 2010 and be ready for 2011. Forget the past but take along whatever valuable to the next year. Tatititutu......

bye-bye n hi

lols~ tak pasal2 malaysia dapat public holiday esok i.e. 31st December 2010. Semuanya gara-gara Malaysia menang AFF Suzuki Cup semalam. haha..just can't believe it. btw, i'm totally will be enjoying the public holiday at home.

sigh~ the last weekend to be rested, fully.

Negaraku~~~

hhuuuuuuuhh....just finished watching a football/soccer match- Malaysia vs Indonesia. Quite an emotional game it was. Mulanya aku macam tak nak tengok and i did not when it was in Malaysia...but then, ntahlah...ada geng kot nak tengok malam ni, so aku pun tengoklah. Yang nyata suara aku dah mula serak-serak. hahaha...inilah akibatnya menjerit..^_^ Dah la mak aku takde umah balik kampung, and kebetulan cousins aku stay kat umah, maka kami pun sama-samalah berganding bahu menjerit. hehe..best jugak...dah lama tak buat perangai macam ni. oh btw, Malaysia won with aggregate 4-2. It is Suzuki Cup championship.

Seperti biasa, aku terkenang zaman sekolah menengah dulu2. Kenapa? Kerana, setiap (tak silap aku la) rabu and sabtu, aku akan pi tengok football match. And of course team Selangor la... ~Merah kuning lambang kebanggaan.... ~ hehe...Aku 'mampu' menonton setiap perlawanan kerana jeng jeng jeng...

Dijadikan citer, kakak aku yang sorang ni is a stewardess. Masa tu dia still buat flight domestic. And passengers yang agak loyal are the football teams of most of the states. So, there she met with the players. And dalam ramai-ramai tu, adalah jugak players yang sangkut kat kakak aku. One of them yang aku memang ingat was Kedah's player (nama dirahsiakan). Dia syok kat kakak aku. Selalu lah dok call rumah. Masa tu handphone was still not-the-famous yet. hehe.. And kalau ada pun, rupa handphone tu sangat buroks. Dan aku, sebagai adik bongsu yang sangat nakal - yang menjadi operator setia di rumah, selalu membuli beliau.

"Hello"
"Hello. Ye nak cakap dengan sapa?"
"Rozleen ada? "
"Ada. Ni sapa?"
"Ni kawan dia"
"Kawan dia sapa?"
"Erk....."
"Yela, kawan dia nama apa?"
"Oh...saya ..............."
"Hmm...ingat takde nama.."
> Kak leen....call. Dia kata kawan.

hahaha....itu memang hobby aku kalau answered house phone call. Suke jawab- kawan dia la apa la. Sebut jek la nama...macam susah jek. Dan haruslah mamat bola tu ngadu kat kakak aku. Dia kata aku ni cam pegawai polis..

Hello!! Kalau nak tackle kakak aku...korang tu semua kena rasuah aku. Barangsiapa yang berjaya merasuah aku, nescaya perjalanan aktiviti tackle menackle ni dengan izinnya berjalan lancar...hehhee...

Tapi, kakak aku tak jadi ngan dia tu. After that, kakak aku ngan player selangor lak. Mamat ni dok kat area2 yang berdekatan ngan rumah aku. Sekolah pun kat klang...and dapat main kat selangor. Kenal ngan kakak aku dari zaman sekolah lagi. Tapi, bila dah jadi footballer ni, barulah nak try mengayat. Masa ni memang lawak habis. Asal nak keluar jek, mesti bawak aku. Tension pun ada gak. Sebabnya aku lak kena ngekor mana2. Masa ni kakak aku takde kete lagi. Nak gi mana2 kitorang naik commuter. Then bila si dia ni tahu jek kitorang nak kuar, member sanggup jadi driver kitorang. Dan yang paling best sekali ialah bila aku dapat special autograph dari semua player team Selangor. Masa tu Selangor di ambang ke'glamer'an. Player yang mantop masa tu were Azman Adnan, Azlisham and pemain import Mehmet Durokovich. Tak lupa jugak, aku dapat autograph dari phisiotherapist dia. hhahaa..boleh la..

Dan kerana si dia ni la, aku dapat tiket untuk 2 musim untuk home games. Jadi, aku akan pegi ngan 2 abang ipar aku and abang angkat aku for every games. Masa tuh la aku giler bola. Aku hafal semua players termasuk referees and lines men. Dahsyat tak? Skang ni, kalau aku jumpa kat mana2 pun, aku tak kenal diorang. That time had passed. But i did enjoy and treasure every moment i've had before. (walaupun aku dirasuah untuk kakak aku).hahahha...

Dan akhirnya, kakak aku tak jadi ngan mana2 players demikian. Jodohnya bersama leading steward juge....

haish...terkenang-kenang zaman remaja dulu. Alangkah bahagia aku 'dirasuah' untuk approval.. haha... ^_^

p/s: Malaysia, i am proud of you! Rio Ferdinand just twittered and congratulate Malaysia for winning the Suzuki Cup. yeeehaaaa!!!

ausmat 21's farewell dinner 2010

Semalam was AWESOME! Actually, it was a collection of unexpected moods n feeling's. Yesterday's night was a Grand Dinner Ausmat 21 at Empire Hotel. The theme of the night was Glam Grammy Night (if i'm not mistaken la).

Why unexpected? Mula-mula tu macam takde sangat perasaan emosi sebab this is merely a dinner and i've been to quite a number of dinners. But then, being in my career especially at this particular institution, we are already accustomed to farewell. And being a normal lady, emotions do take part..hehe...Mana taknya, to one extend there are students who i've taught the whole 3 semesters i.e. 1 and 1/2 years. So, worth it la kot untuk aku sedih2 bila nak berpisah. Lagi-lagi lah if aku went well with the class that i taught.

And yes, the great part was last night's achievements. The event's committees had prepared some awards to be given out and of coz to their friends la. At the same time, ada jugaklah awards for their lecturers. Guess what? Aku dapatlah jugak antara awards yang dipertandingkan... heheh... Dahla theme Grammy, terasa akak macam artis... ^_^ Basically, i won two awards and a lucky draw. What an achievement! The categories that i won were Ms Popular & Best Dress. So, semalam kemenangan aku adalah kemenangan hatrik la... Tak menang tangan akak bawak balik trophy. Berbaloi akak beli baju on that Saturday...all the way from Ipoh...hahaha Ipoh mali ;D

Dan dinner tu semestinya ends with photography session. They were all having fun as they've finished what they were working their ass off for the whole 3 sems. Saying goodbye to each other and hopefully will be flying together next Feb. But before that, results will be coming out this December.

All in all, everybody were enjoying the night and Ausmat 21 Forever~

Siapa kata anak En ahmad tak multi-tasking?

Hoorraayy!! I'm totally DONE with minggu yang azab last week. Alhamdulillah it all went well smoothly without any major disaster. Aku berjaya met the due dates for both important things. The first one was on monday where i have to key-in the seniors' trial marks in the system. Basically the act of key'ing'-in the marks was not a problem at all but to finish and finalize the markings were the hardest ever... ;(( In fact, to make it more and more and more harder was when I had two codes of subjects to look after : ESLS and also Malay Studies. Totally two different languages but the ESSAYS are always killing me. In ESLS, there were 2 parts of written tasks - an argumentative essay and a letter (not to forget 2 parts of Listening Comprehension). Where else, in Malay Studies there were 3 written tasks with different topics/issues and depending on the questions chosen - there were different format as well. And of course, there were listening and reading comprehension. So, it was a success and i DID it! ;) Good Job Leogurl!

The second one was then on last friday. We the lecturers need to fill in Pink & Blue Forms to be sent to SACE Australia. These two forms are really needed to be filled in with extra and 101% cautious. These forms too are the students' future lucks. One of the forms is to be filled in with their School Assessments or generally known as Internal Marks or to make it more simple, their carried marks. So, these marks will be added with their marks from the real SACE Exam which they are going to be seated beginning this November 1st. And the other form is their predicted marks. It is very important for us to meet this due date because the forms will be made photocopied for documenting purposes and it need to be AT the Australia by this friday the 29th. And again, i've made it smoothly unlike last year where it was quite a disaster process.

In the mean time that I was supposed to do and get settled with all these marking and filling in forms, I was contacted by the Main Campus Corporate Office. They would like me to attend an audition for the Istiadat Konvokesyen's emcee post as well as the voice-over post. I did go to the audition and it was exciting! Emcee tu macam biasa je la kan cuma this kind of emcee is more formal and well-managed. As for the voice-over, this is truly exciting. Rasa cam nak ketawa and golek2 kat lantai bila aku kena baca this one particular individual's profile. Mana tak nye, I was already in the English mode. So, basically my slang, accent and style were already tuned accordingly. Tiba-tiba tengah read out loud tu (and of coz they were recording my voice), aku kena sebut "nasi berlauk and nasi kerabu hitam".. Makanya, bunyi benda dua alah tu sudah berbunyi macam minah saleh pelat bercakap bahasa melayu. Aku rasa sangat murtad bahasa and sapa-sapa cam yang tak faham tu mesti kata aku ni perasan bagus cakap english. hehehe... Kelakar pun ada gak. Nak kata suara aku ni sodap, takde la pun..Kalo nyanyi sumbang gak. Tapi tu la...semenjak kerja kat sini, post emcee dah macam melekat dengan aku. Apa jek events kat sini, mesti aku jadi emcee. Rasanya, staffs kat sini mesti dah bosan kot dengar suara aku and tengok muka. Tapi best jege dapat peluang macam ni. Aku dapat kerja ngan pelbagai orang from different departments. And of coz, I gained a lot of experiences throughout my involvements. So far, aku dah dapat untuk jadi pengacara majlis kepada 2 events yang paling penting kat sini yang melibatkan kedua-dua VC. It was indeed a precious experience. But, I have a confession. I was damn horrible in being an informal emcee. Sangat buroks...

p/s: Tu lah, sapa kata aku tak multi-tasking? Terlebih ada lah. On the week itself, I had involved in students's event and was a jury for the night. Siang lak, class full 24hrs credit. Sapa kata anak En Ahmad tidak multi-tasking? (",)

i'm gonna back to school! (",)

alhamdulillah...Allah has helped me a lot...really thanking him for the smooth journey he had prepared for me so far. I never could imagine if i were to stand and face the vice versa journey. had been though, but never want to face it again.

i guess i'm back to school. i am so excited! coz i'm sort of missing the school days especially the uni days..i miss the theatrical works with frens...not sleeping the whole week in making our program a success...then, missing the nights in colleges as well..never sleep early n squatting nearly the whole semester....had been in 'suka duka' together...had my era of scooter n my lovely bee-kelisa car...oh my.....missing that sooo much!

but one thing that i'm afraid of...juggling both work n study at the same time. i always claim myself not to be a good multi-tasking person but all this while, i am multi-tasking things...a lot!

hahaha...i am so in denials. ^_^

still remember when i had the interview for this application. i was the first person to be called- lucky number 1 i guess...huhuhu... Initially, i thought there was like more than 1 interviewer. but then, it was only 1 person- a woman indeed. i could say that my interview session was not really an interview session but rather a sharing discussion slot between educaters (cheewaahh). ahahhaa... so damn poyo okay!! i can't believe myself in that position. but honestly, it was indeed a mature q&a session between me and the interviewer. now i can see the relevancies of having experiences in the field we are in to our judgement/maturity/openess and etc. for me, i should thank my current position coz without 'who i am now', i might not be able to handle myself well in the interview. you would somehow rather assuming things/conditions than knowing it truthfully. ok, lemme give an example. let say that u r going for a job interview. u would be asked questions like: "what if your students did this n that...and how would you tackle the situation?" So, for the new-comers, they would certainly assume that they could do this n that and etc. but for the person who had the experiences in handling the situation would definitely answer the question more practical and sounds believing. but then, it's ok. small matter lah tu! after all, siapa-siapa yang ada experiences akan memulakan hidup dia tanpa sekelumit experiences pun. that is why we said that experiences are a good reality teacher.

so insyaallah, my school life begins in december. wish me lucks and lucks...

my bff - khom's engagement

hey there! hari tu i did mention that i'll post some pics of our very own made and decorated mini pelamin and hantarans. here they are...! (",)




oh ya... dan ini adalah gambar orang yang bertunang iteww.... my bff



dan ini adalah kami kanak-kanak riang ria ^_^

p/s: credit to the photographer for the last two photos.

am always happy! sadness..u go away...

hey ya'll... what a week after a long break of hari raya... right away from the break, students are having their trials since monday till the next wednesday. pity them though..definitely their breaks were used to study and i think they should. they still have a long journey and after all, i couldn't see how are they going to enjoy Hari Raya to the max. I am not sure whether I am already aging or insensible, but the best celebration and moment to enjoy is only effective on the night before raya, the first 2 or 3 days of raya..and of course on any open day's events organized by relatives and friends. but still, i have a student who did not completed his assignment on the reason of 'hari raya'....hahaha...maybe sebab dia budak sarawak kot. takpelah, itu antara dia dan lecturer dia.

even though exam week is supposed to be the most awaited week for us the lecturers...but it does not work on me.. had few things to settle...then had an interview yesterday...plus with cik khom's engagement tomorrow...kelam kabut semua. but then, everything has back to normal coz i have settled in completing the interview. gosshhh...i was so damn relieved! As some poeple who knows my 'weird' advantage which is i don't feel nervous when it comes to an interview...or back then in campus life, i am completely in control with any class presentations. bagi aku ini adalah satu keadaan di mana aku boleh klasifikasikan sebagai 'kecacatan'. most of the people would feel damn nervous. i have had a friend who nearly "committed suicide" (it is a metaphor by the way) when she had to do her presentation in one of the classes. the thing that had made her to do so was the class's lecturer who would never make any student finishes their slides. let say u have 10 slides to be presented in 7 mins. in his class, u would be very proud and lucky if you could present 4 slides. in some cases, you hanya akan sempat present 1 slide of the content jek. he would ask questions by questions until time's up! sebab tu la kawan aku ni sampai tak tidur malam and nak bunuh diri lompat hostel 4 tingkat. hehehe... macam aku ni plak, memanglah jarang giler feel nervous but that doesn't mean when i had presentations, i did excellently...biasa2 aje...cuma kadang2 teringin rasa berdebar...haha...leogurl cacat! lolss.. by the way, the interview went well i guess. never had fun in any other interviews before, it was such a motivating session i had.

apart from that, my best buddy is going to get engaged tomorrow. we had did our own pelamin from scratch. it was fun in planning the looks, the materials and definitely the colour! not to forget, so many ammendments too...hahhaa...and of coz the hantarans will be self-made and decorated..you know us...^_* furthermore, am really looking forward to decaorate the hantarans tonight..it's a fresh flowers decoration...! i'll post some pics in the next entry ya!?

with that, till entry meets an entry! (",)

kehidupan yang sebenar.

omg! it's been a month and more since i last wrote here. alasan aku agak cliche tapi memang itu yang sebenarnya. i am soo busy. macam-macam la yang berlaku dalam sebulan dua bulan ni. naik pening aku tengok planner aku sendiri untuk bulan-bulan ni. penuh dengan agenda yang seharusnya out of my tugas hakiki which is lecturing. sampaikan hari ahad pun ada gak agenda kerja rasmi yang tidak hakiki. huhuhu....

Cumanya hari ini, aku dah boleh bernafas skit. lagi seminggu, cuti semester + cuti raya ... masa ni la yang aku nanti2kan. tahun ni aku and kakak2 aku berkecimpung dalam bisnes kecil2an untuk raya. kakak aku yang sorang tu buat kuih raya home-made. tapi kuih raya dia ada bape jenis jek..konon limited n special la...hahhaa...aku lak ngan kakak aku yang sorang lagi buat hamper raya untuk korporat. nak dijadikan citer, last week on friday kitorg dapat tempahan 100 hampers. kalo ikutkan jadual....tempahan ni dah agak lambat. mana taknye, kitorang nak gi beli basket dia lagi... itu belum kira if the baskets are available or not. and all those decorations stuffs..plus cookies lagi.. dan dalam masa 9 hari ni, kitorang mampu siapkan segalanya. actually on last thursday, we managed to settle and sent 50 hampers. and from there on, we are finishing another 50 hampers together with 7 VIP hampers. hanya Allah swt hanya yang tahu betapa penat dan seksanya nak settle kan smua ni. yang menjadi lambat adalah kerana we are waiting for my sis yang buat cookies tu to finish up baking it. just imagine, she has to bake 100 containers of 3 types of cookies which equal to 300 in total in such a short time. we did help her though but more focusing more towards our hampers' decorations. nasib i have many sisters...so yang lain tu help her out la..and thanx to my bff yang memang bidan terjun... smua skang ni fikir nak cari xtra income jek..so, ini smua dianggap rezeki allah di bulan ramadhan...alhamdulillah..

so, raya dah nak dekat. but peliknya, excitement semakin berkurangan. mungkin umur pun dah makin meningkat. agak tak heran sangat la nak beraya beriya...hehhee...

but so far, dalam pada busy ni...life has been good and aku selalu dimurahkan rezeki. thanx to allah and i am grateful for such. and seriously, i need to get a good massage and need to go beauty saloon after this hectic-like-crazy week. need something to pay off my hardworks!

^_^ ciao!

snippets

1) tanggal 10/10/09 baru2 nih, genap 5 thn arwah bapaku meninggal..kejap jek rasanya duration 5 tahun tuh..macam2 dah jadi dalam pada masa tuh...but then, even though he wasn't physically in the world anymore, his sailors' friends still keep on visiting us the family. our bond with those sailors are still tight to each other...kadang2 me as the youngest daughter didn't even realized whether they are our relatives or just a family's friends. ye la..my gap in the family is way too wide. i confessed that i don't even know the whole history of my family and relatives due to my age. . i wasn't even exposed to, indirectly maka, aku la ahli keluarga yang kurang mengenali kaum keluarga secara umumnye...hehehe or huhuhu....

this is my beloved late dad

2) semalam tiba2 teringat kat nasi goreng kerabu makcik HS Cafe masa kat UIA dulu. masa zaman campus dulu, hampir tiap-tiap malam aku n zura gi order kat HS Cafe. hampir tiap-tiap malam tuh adalah malam-malam kitorang ada practice theatre. tp yg kadang-kadang 'bengkek'nye ialah bila makan kat dalam theatre hall, mesti ada 'lalat2' yang datang menghimpit kat nasi goreng kerabu kitorang.(lalat2 tu were our boyfriends plus abg2 senior yg tak malu gak ^_^) cacat tul...tapi takpe la..kata kongsi rezeki...tp tak leh bagi muka pun ngan diorg nih...tang nasi goreng kerabu kitorg, sedap ajek...tang suruh pi beli sendiri..mulalah ada alasan yang nasi diorg tak sedap lak...huhuhu..walaupun gerai makcik HS Cafe tuh ada macam2 citer keliwon, kitorg pedulikkan jek...sebab kitorang dh kena mandrem ngan penangan nasi goreng kerabu dia...hehehhee...

3) since i was like in primary school, there is one kedai makan operates nearby my kawasan rumah. so, sampai skang walaupun kitorang dah pindah to new house, we do still go to that kedai makan. tapi semenjak aku dah dewasa nih..aku lebih mengada-ngada skit in terms of demanding order. nak dijadikan citer, kat kedai makan nih ada satu mamat ni who is the son of the owner. we called him Edika coz his face is just like edika-one of the most popular hero remaja zaman kakak2 aku. dalam ramai2 pekerja kat kedai tuh, edika nih sorang jek yang buat air sedap. among fav aku adalah teh ice, nescafe ice and kadang-kadang milo ice. seriously, kalo org lain buat mmg tak sedap.hanya edika sorang jek sedap..kan kan cik khome?? sampai bapak edika nih dh tau kalo aku dtg n edika takde, aku takkan order air. but if edika ada, edika sendiri yang akan amik order aku. edika kata kat aku, dia mmg ada mandrem2 skit pun dlm air minuman buatan dia tu..hahaha...pedulik apa aku..dia punya minuman yg dibuat tu mmg cukup2 rasa lah... btw, the story is.......edika is no longer working at the father's shop! ada family prob skit and he migrates to KL. so skang, sapa nak buat teh ice n nescafe ice aku nih!!! uwwaaaaaaaaaaa....

p/s: khom, air neslo ko hari ni (14th) tak sedap la! uwek!

al-fatihah...in memories..

my day today began with a sad mode. as soon as i entered my office, i did sign in for ym. then, i saw my fren's status message- syaza. she wrote sumthing like "al-fatihah to nublan zaki norhadi". in my head, i think i know who is he but i just ignored as i never think that it wud be him. suddenly, few seconds later..blax buzzed me n straightly asked me whether have i heard bout the news? what news?? he did as well send a link tru ym n asked me to read bout it. i was totally shocked n speechless. deep inside me..i was praying that blax was talking about sumthing else that had totally no relation to what i read from syaza's status msg.

i tried to distract myself to check out new mails from official inbox. i had like 9 new mails n as i read the title of each msgs one by one...my eyes stopped at this particular msg. it was the latest mail that i've gotten sent by kak mila-my colleague.

it is about my ex-student-nublan zaki norhadi. i cudn't really recall at this moment whether had i thought him before but i am so 100% sure that he was deela's (my colleague@bestfren) student. the most significant event had happened back then between bulan (his nickname called by his frens) n deela was during last year's valentines day. the whole denver had done sumthing that made deel pissed off. bulan, the class rep at that time felt that it was his fault n responsibility of deel's anger. what he did was he bought a bouquet of flowers specially dedicated to deela to apologize for what had happened. it was valentines day and we were damn sure that the bouquet's price was damn expensive.

and today, i have found that he has passed away. innalillahirojiu'n.....COD: drowned at Abrams Falls, Great Smoky Mountains National Park in US. oh yeah...he was currently studying at Penn State Uni. August ni genap 2 thn diorg fly to US. I cried while reading the US n/paper 's online article. (i'll paste the link sumhow later). it was a tragic. he was not supposed to go there but aku percaya itulah ajal namanya. he drowned on Sunday evening but his body could only be founded the next 18 hours - more or less at 1.30pm monday. his body was found under 30 feet. walaupun berat nak terima tapi itu adalah sebuah hakikat. ada dua perkara yang sangat memedihkan. 1st- he is expectedly balik malaysia for summer this thursday. 2nd- in his FB, his current status is.. How I wish Malaysia is just near Penn State...

enuf said. nublan..allah lebih menyayangi kamu. semoga roh kamu dicucuri rahmat dan kamu ditempatkan di kalangan orang-orang yang beriman. al-fatihah...

http://www.wbir.com/news/local/story.aspx?storyid=88586&catid=2

documenting

nothing to write on.

but would like to document this moment.

wanna make it as something that could be remembered though in another 10 years.

is it a good news or bad news?

hhmm...

both i guess.

it makes me so far smile all the way to the evening

(though it's not yet in the evening but i know it will)

so mizleo, remember this moment kay!?

(",)

p/s: cik khom, bukan psl tuh okay..hehehe