my feelings

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my FEELINGS for you is like a Boomerang :

When I try to get rid of it by throwing it away - it just keeps coming back!

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TRUST

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TRUST is like a paper : Once crumpled, it won't be perfect again

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kehidupan yang sebenar.

omg! it's been a month and more since i last wrote here. alasan aku agak cliche tapi memang itu yang sebenarnya. i am soo busy. macam-macam la yang berlaku dalam sebulan dua bulan ni. naik pening aku tengok planner aku sendiri untuk bulan-bulan ni. penuh dengan agenda yang seharusnya out of my tugas hakiki which is lecturing. sampaikan hari ahad pun ada gak agenda kerja rasmi yang tidak hakiki. huhuhu....

Cumanya hari ini, aku dah boleh bernafas skit. lagi seminggu, cuti semester + cuti raya ... masa ni la yang aku nanti2kan. tahun ni aku and kakak2 aku berkecimpung dalam bisnes kecil2an untuk raya. kakak aku yang sorang tu buat kuih raya home-made. tapi kuih raya dia ada bape jenis jek..konon limited n special la...hahhaa...aku lak ngan kakak aku yang sorang lagi buat hamper raya untuk korporat. nak dijadikan citer, last week on friday kitorg dapat tempahan 100 hampers. kalo ikutkan jadual....tempahan ni dah agak lambat. mana taknye, kitorang nak gi beli basket dia lagi... itu belum kira if the baskets are available or not. and all those decorations stuffs..plus cookies lagi.. dan dalam masa 9 hari ni, kitorang mampu siapkan segalanya. actually on last thursday, we managed to settle and sent 50 hampers. and from there on, we are finishing another 50 hampers together with 7 VIP hampers. hanya Allah swt hanya yang tahu betapa penat dan seksanya nak settle kan smua ni. yang menjadi lambat adalah kerana we are waiting for my sis yang buat cookies tu to finish up baking it. just imagine, she has to bake 100 containers of 3 types of cookies which equal to 300 in total in such a short time. we did help her though but more focusing more towards our hampers' decorations. nasib i have many sisters...so yang lain tu help her out la..and thanx to my bff yang memang bidan terjun... smua skang ni fikir nak cari xtra income jek..so, ini smua dianggap rezeki allah di bulan ramadhan...alhamdulillah..

so, raya dah nak dekat. but peliknya, excitement semakin berkurangan. mungkin umur pun dah makin meningkat. agak tak heran sangat la nak beraya beriya...hehhee...

but so far, dalam pada busy ni...life has been good and aku selalu dimurahkan rezeki. thanx to allah and i am grateful for such. and seriously, i need to get a good massage and need to go beauty saloon after this hectic-like-crazy week. need something to pay off my hardworks!

^_^ ciao!

agrotek resorts ^_^

jakun tak?

hey there!

just finished the classes for the day. suddenly i felt the tiredness of having to teach for 21 hours per week. so damn demanding. thank god i have a good senior for esls class. they just need my humble guide to be better coz i believe they are in the right track. the other subject is malay studies, also a senior class. they are okay but need to work a lil harder though. the subject is not like other subjects in terms of u need to know and revise certain facts. it's more into critical thinking application in almost all the assessments. i would say it is quite subjective. and another subject is junior esls class. as sace board had change the wightage for the assessments affectively 2011, we kinda have a slight changes and differences in the syllabuses. that's the reason i need and had to re-study certain parts. and not to mention to actually prepare some new materials like powerpoint slides as well as practices. so far so good i guess...but the feeling of exhaustion is obviously felt. huhuhuhu....

tapi tadi class malay macam best jek..hahha...i was like ter-jakun coz in the lab that we are using for presentation had a touch screen computer and also internet connection. i was jakun coz having knew my place, it is not that IT-ish. who knows me would understand. and one thing for sure, the students never knew that the room has the internet connection. this is because, they usually use this room for special purpose and it is not a common classroom. only by booking or request, then u may be permitted to use. so, when they have to watch a movie for study purpose, or perhaps class presentations, they can use the room (rather than having LCD and a laptop to do so). and seriously i cannot believe it's a touch screen pc. had fun touching it though. ^_^

another thing was, when the students were doing their discussion, i took the advantage to use the internet. and what i did was to google their blogs. almost of them had one. and they are trying to find mine. hahaha..good luck guys. hopefully u guys jumpa. dont forget to leave a comment for this entry k!? ^_*

k, for kesekian kalinya, i nak balik keje awal... ddaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... xoxoxox

ana fening sudeh~~

first of all, hahaha...

today is the first day of the junior semester. however, the senior had started their semester 2 weeks ago. as usual...the first class that i entered would definitely be an ice-breaking session. but, today i did not do that. i just felt that they are so near to me. in that particular class, i have 4 malay male students and the rest are all girls - malay and chinese. so basically i just introduce myself, giving all necessary details of me and i straight away introduce and expose them to the subject as well as the subject's requirement. they were enthusiastic (of course they are) since this is the first day of their becoming 1 and a half year of studies in this institution.

one thing that i always ask for is for them to write on something about themselves, their expectations towards the subject, class and etc. it is just not for the sake that they can introduce themselves informally but i found out that through that task, many things can be observed. one of the example is definitely their writing skills and not to forget their competencies in all those grammar, sentence structure etc.

i just finished reading all their write-ups and i'm kinda pening already. they know what to write but lots of improvements needed. huhuhu...mizleo, their future is again in ur hands.

chayyok-chayyok!!

untuk firdaus

entri ini khas ditujukan buat en mohd firdaus nasir - my besty.

last week i saw someone like you among the new students during the orientation week. he is an australian mat student. i wanna tell you before but i forgot.
however, today as i entered my very 1st junior class, i was literally shocked to see him in that class. hahaha....he really really looks like you especially when you were in matrix. cuma takde songkok and specs jek.

so, firdaus....i am gonna 'see' you everyday from now on. ^_^

chill babe..~~

eeeiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii....

tiba2 ptg tadi aku hangin! sebabnye students aku dok msg sbb nak aku reply email.

memang ler aku tak kisah nak consult or whatever tru email. aku mmg galakkan smua ni.

tapi masalahnya, aku dah tetapkan before balik cuti ke kampung masing2...submit keje n consult topic ngan aku. n seperti yang dapat dijangkakan...ada jek la manusia2 yang lambat n contact aku tru email. ada jek la alasan2 yang kalo boleh aku tak nak layan n pedulik.

betapa baiknye hati aku bila aku try to put myself into their shoes....and if what they claimed of (the reason) why they submitted it late is so true. aku agak hangin and emo sebab: 1) hari ni hari ahad 2) sah2 off the due date 3) demanding me to reply it soon 4) ingat aku takde keje lain ke hari ahad ni?

tapi takpe la...demi kesian kat diorang, aku spend time (which i shudn't coz it's a family day-sunday) replying all emailsssssss there and then. n kerana ada pemikiran yang matang, maka berterima kasihlah si dia itu. sedap and sejuk skit hati aku. bila fikir balik, bukan senang nak jadi pensyarah ni. ia sangat lain dari cikgu kerana pensyarah menuntut waktu dan hari yang bila2. memang ada pensyarah yang tidak heran dengan request students when it comes to a non-working day. but for me, i think we shud try to help them anytime n anyhow that we cud. unless it is something ridiculous, then we shudn't entertain them so.

yang nyata, insyaallah dengan berkat kesabaran and keikhlasan kita, students ni smua akan berjaya. siapa lagi akan bersyukur kalau bukan kita kerana ilmu yang kita turunkan pada mereka itu datang dari niat dan hati yang ikhlas lagi suci. hanya allah swt yang maha mengetahui dan dapat membalasnya. insyaallah amin......

politik oh politikus...

yeehhaa...minggu depan aku akan cuti. hehe..happy sangat sebab tiba2 aku masih ada 4 available hari untuk cuti..hoorayy...tak silap aku, macam dah habis jek cuti aku..tapi nasib en shafiq membawa perkhabaran yang baik. terima kasih en shafiq (off's clerk).

so skang, citer pasal lain lak. jumaat malam ari tu, aku dipaksa pergi meeting politik. hahhaa...dahla berkenaan politik, kena paksa lak tuh...ini semua sebab abang ipar aku. dia ni ahli politik n skang tiba masanya untuk diorg ni buat meeting kawasan. tapi, bila sesebuah kawasan tu nak buat meeting, ia perlulah cukup *korum*. skang ni kan musim cuti sekolah. ramai gak ler yang balik kampung. n abg ipar aku ni pun satu...salah timing nak buat meeting. tapi benda dah nak jadi kan...nak buek camno. sebagai adik yang baik sebab kakak aku mintak tolong, maka aku pun pi la meeting tuh. oh ya, the reason why the meeting kena cukup korum is because, there'll be sumone who will be inspecting the meeting. n syarat utama is meeting mesti cukup korum. what daa... aku pun pi la menganga kat meeting tuh. yang menghairankan adalah, meeting tu tak dibuat di dalam bilik mesyuarat...tetapi di sebuah restoran melayu di bawah bangunan politik itu. @apakah??@

lepas tu kan, merata2 aku tgk manusia..rupa2nya meeting tu dibuat oleh beberapa kawasan yang berkenaan. lawak giler seh. yang pasti, ada sorang pakcik ni pakai kain pelekat n kopiah (of coz with baju) bukan ke main ligatnya aku tengok dia dok makan. aku rasa, time aku perasan, adalah 5 kali kot dia dok menambah makan. bila time dia meeting pun aku tak tau. hahha...hishh..tak faham aku politik apa ni smua.

apa pun,bersyukur gak aku pi meeting pada malam tu. sebabnya,aku jumpa kawan sekolah lama aku. n the most interesting part, she is naib org besar daerah aku bagi category muda..hehe..(try to cover which party but i believe it is obvious so).... and all my bro in law nye org kuat for gurls are somehow the gurls n senior frm my previous secondary school.

however, it was not a bad attempt. but siyesly quite wasting of time too... yang nyata, meeting dlm setengah jam and the rest of jam is makan freeeeeeeeeee.... sah2 abang ipar aku yang open table tuh...huhuhu... politik oh politik....

~kenangan terindah~

yyuhhuu....

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adakah saya happy? hhmm mungkin...

kenapa happy? hati senang mungkin...

hehehe...dahlah! merepek pulak..

life's been okay after all the hectic days full of works & responsibilities..

mungkin itu sebab hati senang kot...hehehe...

walaupun kerja yang sepatutnya dah siap, aku lupa yang sebenarnya aku ada lagi KERJA-KERJA yang menanti untuk disiapkan before semester baru starts. cuma ia taklah dituntut due dates..insyaallah akan dibereskan since i have another 3 weeks...

ok, nak share citer lain lak. ;-D

saya ni anak bongsu...dari 7 orang adik beradik. 6 orang di atas saya semuanya kakak saya. maknanya...family saya penuh dengan perempuan.huhuhu...kalau anda nak tahu, rumah saya bila terkumpulnya semua adik beradik, gamat jadi nya. maklumlah...bila perempuan bertemu dan bermula bersembang. haish...mak saya pun pening..tapi irony nya, dia yang lahirkan kami semua 7 beradik and dia sendiri pening dengan zuriat2nya ini. hehehe...kalau korang nak tahu macam mana gamatnya keluarga saya ni...tak payahlah korang bayangkan. saya syorkan korang datang dan merasai kegamatan keluarga saya ini. bagi mereka yang kurang adik beradik atau anak tunggal or maybe anak tunggal perempuan....sah2 mereka akan terhibur dan gembira as well as how they wish they could be in the scenario...or even vice versa. hahhaha... ;D

tapi, kumpulnya kami yang perempuan2 ni akan menjadi lebih best bila arwah bapak ada. bapak jek yang sporting dan cool melayan kitorang. paling best ialah masa makan. meja makan sah2 tak cukup ngan kitorang semua...tapi hempet juge la...and paling kelakar waktu tu was when mak takkan sesekali join kat meja makan tuh. even kalau nak amik lauk sekalipun, dia akan amik sendiri dari periuk kat dapur. pastu, mak takkan sesekali akan duduk semeja ngan kitorang. alasannya sampai bila-bila ialah - "aku boleh tercekik kalau makan dengan korang". lols.. ;)) hahahha... and satu lagi bila arwah bapak suke 'curik' lauk kitorang and sembunyi bawah nasi dia. bila korang pandang pinggan nasi korang, udang/ikan/sotong/daging etc hilang. muka korang masa tuh cam sengal jek....sebab akan terpikir whether korang dah telan lauk tu ker or memang hilang...hahhaa...sah2 la yang lain2 tuh buat muka seposen as if they dont know what's happening...haaha....rindu seh saat-saat tuh..haishhh.....

and having 6 elder sisters is also challenging. tidak ada rahsia yang boleh jadi rahsia di antara kami. paling lambat seseorang tu nak tau pun mungkin dalam seminggu. sebabnya one of my sis is a stewardess. so, she is and always the last person to know anything. now, hanya ada 5 sisters jek. i have lost my 4th sister in 1996. when she was alive, she is the one who will always be the 'secrets keeper'. dia sakit and the inactive person. in our house, she has her own area...dia akan selalu lepak kat situ...makan ubat, rehat, tidur etc.. and setiap kali kitoang ada problem or gossips or citer to share....we will always go to her...and masa tu, setiap kali mak nak tau citer...dia pun akan pi kat arwah...pastu, sah2 la arwah terpaksa bukak citer...hahhaa...then, semua kantoi... (",) bagi saya pulak, arwah kakak saya ni akan jadi penyelamat tika nak selesaikan kerja rumah subjek lukisan. lemah tul kalo kena lukis ntah apa-apa. makanya, pada arwah lah saya akan tuju. arwah pandai lukis. ALLAH itu maha adil. walaupun arwah sakit, arwah ada banyak kelebihan. dia pandai melukis n also seni thingy. her hobby back then was jahit cross-stitch. if you guys come to my house dulu, there was few frames of her works. skang pun, we maintained 1 of it. yang lain my eldest sisters took it. hhmm....all the memories came back...

k back to it. sampai sekarang pun kami macam ni lagi. rahsia memang tak leh jadi rahsia. it is because we do have close bond between each other. we care of each other and this is the main ingredient for our good relationship. the latest example is this morning. i called(phoned) my eldest sister regarding "something". and at the same time, i invited her n family to come to mom's house. saje nak belanja my niece n nephew. lepas i hung up for like 10 minutes, my 3rd sis called me and asked something. ceit...dalam masa SEPULUH MINIT, berita dah tersebar! bukan pasal belanja tu, tp pasal "something" yang i just told my eldest sister. bila aku kenang balik, ish ish ish...kakak2 aku ni...lawak giler...and believe me...it will be the next GOSSIP for all of them esok dan hari-hari esok!

haishh....what more would and could i wished for?? i have everything that not all of us had.

am grateful! am happy! ^_^

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