current state of mind

i have a confession.

i never feel jealous (as far as i am concern). not the extreme one. but now, i am jealous. i never thought that i would and could be jealous.

i am envy. i envy them. but, i am happy for them. i wish i could be them. how i desire and dream to be just like what they are now.

it is true indeed. if you are a person that always remember HIM, HE'll definitely show you the path. the happiest, the most blessed, the righteous and the best.

but, we can't have what we really want. we won't have the same path even so we chose the exactly same path.

we can't we won't we cudn't we wouldn't

and

we will never have the exactly dream that we really dreamt of.

*krik krik*

Last 2 days was among the happiest day in my life. it was because of 2 things. I was and am thanking Allah for the great news I've heard. There was nothing than the two surprising and memorable news that could overtaken its joy.

i am indeed happy for both (",)

tag dari cik parin

#this post was actually done on 8th march but i did not get the chance to click on the 'publish' button.#

saya telah di tag oleh puan wan farin nazeli wan yaacob =p


1) Adakah anda rasa anda hot?

-> ye, saya hot.
pertamanya, saya memang hot kerana cuaca sekarang yang agak hot.
keduanya, saya memang boleh jadi hot sebab cuaca yang hot. jadi berhati2lah.
ketiganya dan terakhirnya, saya bolehlah jugak dikatakan hot dari segi personaliti kerana saya memang mempunyai potensi dari segi meng'hot'kan suasana di mana-mana saya berada.
konklusinye, saya hot.

2) Upload gambar kegemaran anda.

-> laptop saya rosak n gambar dlm laptop. so, tak leh nak upload.

3) Bila kali terakhir anda makan pizza?

-> soalan yang sangat tepat kerana baru jek 15 mins tadi saya makan pizza (specifically domino's).

p/s: kesh belanja tp 1 slice jek... (supporting his student's activities) thanx en kesh! ^_^

4) Lagu terakhir anda dengar?

-> Tajuk "yang terbaik" dari Marsha. Sangat amat yang sangat terkesan pada diri ini. terima kasih cik khom...

5) Apa anda buat selain menyelesaikan tag ini?

-> Cuba-cuba untuk menanda exercises/practices students... (cuba aje tp tak buat pun lagi).


6) Selain nama sendiri anda dipanggil nama ape?

-> a) adik b) maksu@ acu c) far d) cik farrah chantek e) cik farrah chomel (smua ni for real okay..kan arief? hehhee )

7) Tag lagi 8 orang

-> i'm trying though!

1. nana
2. khome
3. arief
4. syazana
5. syarif hakim
6. shafiq
7. zaini
8. sapa2 yang berminat



8) Siapakah orang no 1 kepada anda?

-> sepupuku...eh, ke dua pupu yek nana? maybe three pupu? but of coz not kupu-kupa kan?hehehe

9) Kata sesuatu kepada orang no 5

-> hey syarif hakim! jgn nakal-nakal di sana. senang sangat terpengaruh ngan mat2 n minah2 saleh nnt...balik rambut dah colour blonde dah...

10) No. 3 ada hubungan dengan siapa?

-> hahaha...soklan yang hanya boleh dijawab oleh tuan empunya badan. tapi saya yakin dia memang ada berhubungan dengan seseorg...tp kalo berhubungan dengan sesuatu..jwpnnye laptop dia lah..hehe...


11) Bagaimana pula dengan no 4?

-> hhmm...tak sure. coz she's mysterious... dulu n always..(",)


12) Pesanan kepada org no 6?

-> pesananku padamu: live life to the most! chances are everywhere..grab it as much as u can! chayok2!!


13) Kata-kata cinta untuk no 2?

-> erk??? khome, cpt kawen! mak ko dah bising! hehe


14) Adakah no 7 & 8 punye persamaan?

-> hahaha...in some ways they have. they are both kind and berseni. i loikkee!


15) Berikan 5 yang anda tahu tentang orang yg men`tag anda?

hehehe..farin, are u ready?

1. farin ni dulu ala2 tomboy..tp skang tak lagi...

2. dulu dia penah pakai rantai CD cam 4U2C..hehee...

3. now, she's soon to be mommy! can't wait that...

4. seorg yang slamber (ejaan baku)... dari dulu sampai skang dia mmg sempoi!

5. isteri yang sah kepada en. din ^_^


16) persamaan antara kambing dan lembu?

-> dua-dua binatang daratan.


17) Adakah anda tahu si Razman itu sengal?

-> tiba2 nama razman..ntah sapa ntah dia nih..sah2 org yg cipta tag ni kot..nak cari publisiti murahan..kalo ye, mmg dia tu sengal!


18) Gay or less?

-> saya gay and more!!

tiba-tiba

dah lama dah tak jenguk internet rasanya. kalau online pun, hanya lotus e-mail n yahoo e-mail semata. aku dah mula bosan dengan teknologi. kalau boleh, handphone pun aku rasa cam rimas jek. tapi tak leh nak emo-emo sangat sbb bondaku balik kampung n hanya handphone lah pengikat jarak. and i have to think of my students as well. nowadays, students can easily sms@call their lecturers through hp if they ever have anything to ask. back then during my time, we never had the guts to even think of sending any sms or making any calls to the lecturers. sekarang ni, students boleh sms cikgu diorang anytime they want. bagi aku, ia sangat senang. if aku rasa aku tak nak layan or masa diorg sms/call tak sesuai, aku tak reply. tapi yang menjadi masalahnye kalau diorg sms beriya2 semata2 nak tanya soklan yang aku rasa tak patut such as-

"miss, esok ada class tak?"

or yang paling teruk n aku menyampah is

"miss, esok mr X postponed class sbb dia ada meeting. boleh tak kita awalkan class kita n fill in slot mr X? boleh lah kitorg balik awal".

apa korang rasa gamaknya??? sengal tak? ggrrr..... well..time does change..same goes to the people...therefore, life has to go on... (",)

~hereby~

I have another 15 mins before i SHOULD begin with my workssss. This sem, tuesday is one of the days that i am free in the afternoon onwards. tapi, selalunya ia akan penuh dengan agenda. makanya, waktu yang free ini jadi macam tak free.

* oh yeah...sementara tgh tulis nih...ada jek students yang datang menjenguk di kantor ku yang wangi dgn scented candles.. ^_^

And hereby, it is already 2.13pm. I guess I shall continue doing what I am supposed to do rite now...

till entry meets another entries...adios!

for better or worse?

i had just completed the first step. i have 2 more to complete. i hope i cud make it coz i really need so. no more procrastination missleo!!! u gotta be strong and u have to look and move forward. no turning back and never.

full-stop!

pelajaran hari ini

i just found out something - a fact. i just dont understand kenapa kita perlu dengki mendengki di antara satu sama lain??? if the word dengki-mendengki is too much, then the nearest suitable vocab to have slightly the same meaning is j.e.a.l.o.u.s. nape kita perlu cemburu? orang yang cemburu ini tidak akan sedar ttg hal ini tetapi orang di sekitarnya boleh identify whether dia dengki, cemburu or whatever. tak boleh ke kita tengok org senang n kita tumpang bahagia jek? perlu ke kita ada satu perasaan jauh di sudut hati dan decide untuk bersaing ngan orang tu?

oklah..cth paling senang giler...katalah aku ada duit and aku did some shopping...tak boleh ker korang dok diam n tengok jek aku shop? perlu ker korang menyimpan perasaan (jauh di sudut hati) and korang bertekad korang pun nak macam apa yang aku ada? why did i give this simple example? jwpn nye sgt senang. sbbnya org tu akan dengki n jealous sbb perkara yang remeh temeh mcm ni. korang kena sedar yang allah dah atur perjalanan kita nih. tak yah la korang nak mempertikaikan benda2 yang tak berfaedah lagi2 kepada korang.

satu lagi cth aku nak kasik ialah a real story that had had happened to my friend wayyy back during uni time. ada satu group females nih...diorg agak rapat between each other..always hang out together n they shared almost everything, i.e. taste, hobbies, preference, fashion etc. The thing happened when they went for window shopping. tgh merayau-rayau tu, they came across this shop n one of them said - 'how i wish i cud buy and have this handbag.' all of them agreed that it is indeed a beautiful bag but the price is quite not helping the girl at that moment. so, there it goes... masalahnye, one of the friends secara diam and berhati apa ntah...pergi balik kedai tu esoknye and beli for herself that bag. n dia tak bgtau sapa2 pun dlm clique dia yg she went to buy that bag already. until, at one moment, kawan2 dia ternampak.

i dont really understand what is that friend's intention in doing so. one of it yang aku dapat tau for sure is...this gurl mmg slalu nak benda2 yang org puji and dia nak tunjuk she can afford it as well as deserve it. lagi2 if that barang kawan2 dia suka n puji tapi tak mampu. aku pun tak tau nape ada manusia macam nih. i guess ada jek orang2 di sekeliling aku macam ni..cuma aku tak amik port. manusia tu patut sedar la apa yang dia buat kat diri dia sendiri. aku sikit pun tak rugi...ni la perempuan...dengki mendengki sgt tinggi and sangat suka buat benda2 yang tak menguntungkan.

aku pernah ada satu kawan n indeed still masih berkawan..cuma tak serapat dulu. aku senang berkawan ngan dia n kitorg banyak berkongsi citer etc. up to one point, my other friends tegur aku n they said they realized something. they said that my fren cuba be like what i am. cuma aku tak sedar. tp yang kawan aku ni lagi parah perangai dia. dia bukan jek ikut cara aku tp sampai ke apa yg jadi kat family aku pun dia nak ikut. apa aku buat kat rumah aku pun dia nak ikut gak. aku cat umah aku...dia pun cat...aku beli sofa, dia pun beli sofa...aku beli apa ntah..dia pun beli apa ntah...pening aku. n of coz la aku tak perasan masa tuh. cuma lepas after a while, my other friends told me...diorg siap list down lagi hasil investigation diorg pd aku. hahahhaa...korang baca pun korang leh pening kan? apa yang aku boleh kata is...ada juga manusia seperti ni..tak sangka aku. and aku tak pasti kenapa manusia tuh sanggup berbuat demikian. apa yang dia dapat pun aku tak tau.

bagi aku, kita kena terima diri kita seadanya. mungkin org itu ada kelebihan dari segi satu sudut, dan kita kurang pada sudut itu. tapi takpe...sbb pasti ada satu sudut yang kita ada kelebihan dan org lain takde. kita boleh jadikan orang tu sebagai role model kita tapi tak perlulah kita nak terikut-ikut dgn cara org tu. aku tak tau apa yang ada dalam fikiran manusia yang macam ni. hanya dia yang tahu ttg tindakan dia itu n mungkin dia ada penjelasan dia sendiri.

and sendiri mau ingatla...hari ini hari dia..esok lusa mungkin hari kita. allah itu maha adil n maha mengetahui. things happen for a reason and therefore it is not pointless. (",) we shud thank allah for what we have rite now and make use of it to the most. renung-renungkanlah....

begin

Sekarang ni aku kat the curve with my beshfren a.k.a my twin - farrah diebaa. Back then in uni, I was called as the 'original' and she was called the 'spicy'. It was because our names' similarity - farrah. Nasib la she wanted to be calleh as diebaa and I obviously have no choice since my name is consists of only one word. But then, my former lecturer - mr abdel rahman had a problem in calling us and decided to call us by the 'name' of original and spicy; that actually taken from the kfc's preference of chickens ( and do mind that we are not chickens..hhehehe).

Back to the story - I met diebaa at 2pm at the curve. We went for a lunch at Sutra. Seriously, I recommend you guys to go there. I was like craving for Tom Yum yesterday and unfortunately went to this mamak shop at Tesco Klang. Rasanya (the taste) ?? Tak sedap langsung! Tapi disebabkanaku sangat lapar untuk dinner, I ate it anyway tapi tak abis pun. So, at this Sutra Restaurant, me and diebaa ordered two different sets. In a set, there are like a rice (fried/pineapple etc.) with 3 or more options of mini meals. Once we tasted it -> nyum-nyum!! Sangat sodap! And definitely the tom yum is delicious. So, lepas we had our lunch, we started on our intended discussion. Maka bekerjalah kami... Then, we lepak at baskin robins and continued our work and tidak sah jika tidak have a taste of jamoaca almond fudge...hehe... I think it's been ages since I hang out with friends at KL. Semenjak dah 'dewasa' and kerja ni..sangat jarang if compared ngan waktu kat uni dulu.. Me and diebaa were actually distracted with the scenario of the surroundings. Having seen the nowadays teenagers...the way they acted, dressed, did, talked etc. They are so different with our time back then. Tiba2 we got the idea nak buat research yang ada kenamengena ngan those things. hahaha...itu pun bleh jadi bahan untuk research (",)

Oh ya! While we are here (baskin robins), ada these small kids pegang balloon Tony Roma's!! arrgghh...tension la plak. Skang ni makanan menjadi teman sejati. I am quite stress with works and stuffs..and always craving for food...huhuhu...

I guess till entry meets entry...time to go home! ^_^

saya

saya bengang. saya berkecil hati. saya sedih. saya tak mahu. saya terkilan. saya bingung. saya stucked. saya sangat sedih. saya cemburu.

saya emosi.

jujur

saya rindu

macam-macam

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