it made me ME

ok...it's another more or less 2 hours before it begins with year 2011. a fact that we have to face - we are a year older. goshh...time flies soo fast!

Macam-macam yang telah terjadi tahun 2010 nih. Daripada yang best kepada yang tak best...Yang sakit hati, yang bengong, yang surprise!, yang menyayat hati, yang riang ria, yang takut, yang gerun, yang tak percaya, yang sangat tak bleh blah dan yang sebagainya.

Ingat lagi bila it was early this year, the forecast said that this year would be a downturn compared before. Economically, it would not be a good one for most of the people. And macam-macam lagi lah. Tapi, tu semua predictions jek. Ntah sapa ntah yang rajin predict-mengpredict ni. Satu kerjaya yang amat jaya lah jugak. Aku pun kadang-kadang suka gak baca tentang forecast nih...Saje gatal-gatal..takdelah sampai percaya giler2. Yang aku suka ialah horoscope nye predictions nih. Suka-suka jek untuk suka-suka baca. I am not really believing in whatever it says but kalau yang best-best tu, aku buat sebagai motivations la.

Honestly, this year is soo happening!! Daripada perkara yang aku nak elak, ia terjadi juga. Personally, it is a year that is full of emotions. On behalf of my career, it is turning out really well. I've learned a lot and I grew up with it along the journey. Financially, i am blessed with loads of rezeki. Rezeki aku sungguh murah. Alhamdulillah...Walaupun kadang kala aku diuji, tapi thank god la aku dapat menapisnye.

Basically, this year had started with quite bad scenes. But, towards the middle of the year, it turned out good. Reaaally good instead. hhmm... Thank you Allah for all your blessings and fate that you've set for me. It taught me a lot actually. It made me stronger, it made me to think twice. It made to accept what it is said to be fated. It made me happier. It made me better. It made me ME.

Tak lupa juga, tahun depan tanggungjawab aku lebih berat. I'll be back to school and i do really hope that i could do better in both teaching and learning. Hopefully, in another 2 years time....i'll be granted with my masters' degree. insyallah..... ^_*

Tapi, dalam banyak-banyak benda yang terjadi....ada satu package lagi yang aku owe to ALLAH. and i hope i could accomplish it throughout next yearsss.... ^_^

So, farewell to 2010 and be ready for 2011. Forget the past but take along whatever valuable to the next year. Tatititutu......

bye-bye n hi

lols~ tak pasal2 malaysia dapat public holiday esok i.e. 31st December 2010. Semuanya gara-gara Malaysia menang AFF Suzuki Cup semalam. haha..just can't believe it. btw, i'm totally will be enjoying the public holiday at home.

sigh~ the last weekend to be rested, fully.

Negaraku~~~

hhuuuuuuuhh....just finished watching a football/soccer match- Malaysia vs Indonesia. Quite an emotional game it was. Mulanya aku macam tak nak tengok and i did not when it was in Malaysia...but then, ntahlah...ada geng kot nak tengok malam ni, so aku pun tengoklah. Yang nyata suara aku dah mula serak-serak. hahaha...inilah akibatnya menjerit..^_^ Dah la mak aku takde umah balik kampung, and kebetulan cousins aku stay kat umah, maka kami pun sama-samalah berganding bahu menjerit. hehe..best jugak...dah lama tak buat perangai macam ni. oh btw, Malaysia won with aggregate 4-2. It is Suzuki Cup championship.

Seperti biasa, aku terkenang zaman sekolah menengah dulu2. Kenapa? Kerana, setiap (tak silap aku la) rabu and sabtu, aku akan pi tengok football match. And of course team Selangor la... ~Merah kuning lambang kebanggaan.... ~ hehe...Aku 'mampu' menonton setiap perlawanan kerana jeng jeng jeng...

Dijadikan citer, kakak aku yang sorang ni is a stewardess. Masa tu dia still buat flight domestic. And passengers yang agak loyal are the football teams of most of the states. So, there she met with the players. And dalam ramai-ramai tu, adalah jugak players yang sangkut kat kakak aku. One of them yang aku memang ingat was Kedah's player (nama dirahsiakan). Dia syok kat kakak aku. Selalu lah dok call rumah. Masa tu handphone was still not-the-famous yet. hehe.. And kalau ada pun, rupa handphone tu sangat buroks. Dan aku, sebagai adik bongsu yang sangat nakal - yang menjadi operator setia di rumah, selalu membuli beliau.

"Hello"
"Hello. Ye nak cakap dengan sapa?"
"Rozleen ada? "
"Ada. Ni sapa?"
"Ni kawan dia"
"Kawan dia sapa?"
"Erk....."
"Yela, kawan dia nama apa?"
"Oh...saya ..............."
"Hmm...ingat takde nama.."
> Kak leen....call. Dia kata kawan.

hahaha....itu memang hobby aku kalau answered house phone call. Suke jawab- kawan dia la apa la. Sebut jek la nama...macam susah jek. Dan haruslah mamat bola tu ngadu kat kakak aku. Dia kata aku ni cam pegawai polis..

Hello!! Kalau nak tackle kakak aku...korang tu semua kena rasuah aku. Barangsiapa yang berjaya merasuah aku, nescaya perjalanan aktiviti tackle menackle ni dengan izinnya berjalan lancar...hehhee...

Tapi, kakak aku tak jadi ngan dia tu. After that, kakak aku ngan player selangor lak. Mamat ni dok kat area2 yang berdekatan ngan rumah aku. Sekolah pun kat klang...and dapat main kat selangor. Kenal ngan kakak aku dari zaman sekolah lagi. Tapi, bila dah jadi footballer ni, barulah nak try mengayat. Masa ni memang lawak habis. Asal nak keluar jek, mesti bawak aku. Tension pun ada gak. Sebabnya aku lak kena ngekor mana2. Masa ni kakak aku takde kete lagi. Nak gi mana2 kitorang naik commuter. Then bila si dia ni tahu jek kitorang nak kuar, member sanggup jadi driver kitorang. Dan yang paling best sekali ialah bila aku dapat special autograph dari semua player team Selangor. Masa tu Selangor di ambang ke'glamer'an. Player yang mantop masa tu were Azman Adnan, Azlisham and pemain import Mehmet Durokovich. Tak lupa jugak, aku dapat autograph dari phisiotherapist dia. hhahaa..boleh la..

Dan kerana si dia ni la, aku dapat tiket untuk 2 musim untuk home games. Jadi, aku akan pegi ngan 2 abang ipar aku and abang angkat aku for every games. Masa tuh la aku giler bola. Aku hafal semua players termasuk referees and lines men. Dahsyat tak? Skang ni, kalau aku jumpa kat mana2 pun, aku tak kenal diorang. That time had passed. But i did enjoy and treasure every moment i've had before. (walaupun aku dirasuah untuk kakak aku).hahahha...

Dan akhirnya, kakak aku tak jadi ngan mana2 players demikian. Jodohnya bersama leading steward juge....

haish...terkenang-kenang zaman remaja dulu. Alangkah bahagia aku 'dirasuah' untuk approval.. haha... ^_^

p/s: Malaysia, i am proud of you! Rio Ferdinand just twittered and congratulate Malaysia for winning the Suzuki Cup. yeeehaaaa!!!

ehem ehem ^_^

Weekend lepas aku terkenang kat anuar zain. haha... tiba2 jek kan? Biasalah peminat umum macam aku ni. Lagi pun hari tu aku tengok anugerah skrin, dia ada buat show. Simpan misai la pulak. Aku rasa kalau dia simpan janggut pun, hensem jugak. Tuhan cipta dia serba elok. Bertuah badan... Alhamdulillah lah dia dikurniakan sebegitu.

Yes. Aku memang minat dia. Tapikan....aku tak tau macam mana nak describe minat tu. In fact. aku pun tak tau apa maksud minat. Ok, people would said that they admire him for his look, which is true. Tanpa ragu-ragu aku pun sama. Tapi, his talents in singing are unavoidable to be admired as well. Like people in entertainment business would say, he has THE package. Aku ni pun minat dia macam-macam tu jek. Nak kata aku tahu birth date dia bila.... i don't know. How many album he has, pun aku tak tahu. Lagu-lagu dia yang terkenal, aku tau lah. Kalo ada pertandingan kuiz pasal all about him, sebelum bertanding aku dah angkat bendera putih. Punyalah nak kata yang aku ni peminat yang sebenarnya tidak minat sangat kecuali dua perkara yang disebut di atas. In contrast, wujud sebenarnya peminat yang fanatik. Nama pun fanatik, segala benda diorang tahu. Kiranya, kalau kita suruh mereka buat biodata artis tu, mesti diorang boleh buat. Kira memang minat habis lah!

Aku ni kan, minat anuar zain ikut musim jek. Cuba teka musim apa? hhehehe... sah-sah musim raya jek. Sebab?? First, of course lagu raya dia yang agak glam itu selalu berkumandang di radio. Tapi, yang pasti aku dapat kirim salam dan kirim ucapan selamat hari raya pada dia...usually on the first day of raya. But then, kalau tanya dia, mesti dia tak tau or tak ingat apa-apa la kan...? hahaha... loser tul aku nih... ^_^

Macam mana aku leh buat sedemikian? Well...it's quite a long story to tell but in sum, my bro-in-law's brother n his wife kinda a good friend of him. So, every raya on the first day, they will visit his house. So there goes my regards and raya wishes. hehehe...Kirim salam pun jadi lah....

Adalah sekali tahun bila ntah... anuar kasik kat aku kad raya. Mula-mula, aku memang takkan percayalah kan? Walaupun ada signature dia. Mana taknya... abang ipar aku ni tak leh caya sangat. Nak tahu kenapa? Begini: terjadilah satu kisah di mana abang ipar aku ada buat event and artis jemputan nye was Mawi. Masa tu memang zaman mawi glamer habis. So, anak kawan abg ipar aku ni mintak ayah dia dapatkan signature mawi. Nak dijadikan citer, ayahnye sorang ni lupa nak mintak coz sibuk as the organizer's committees. Nasi dah jadi bubur...coz mawi dah balik. Oleh kerana si ayah ni tak sampai hati nak kecewakan anak nye, maka si ayah ni tadi bersama abg iparku telah membuat pakatan? Apa dia? Both of them FORGED mawi's signature! And, the daughter had believed (of coz she did coz the father met mawi) and showed the whole kampung (when they did balik kg after the event) that mawi had signed an autograph to her. Oh my..... pity isn't it? Poor lil girl. I could not blame both coz both of them had their own acceptable reasons.

Maka, apabila aku terima kad raya dari anuar...aku control macho. Malas lah kan nak lompat-lompat ker apa ker.. Ye lah, artis bagi i kad raya (even he is a human). Sebabnye, aku takut kalau abg ipar aku ngan adik dia main2kan aku. Nanti aku jugak yang malu. Walaupun at that time abg ipar aku pun dapat kad raya macam aku. Then, i dont remember weeks or days after that, i saw anuar's kad raya in the newspaper as he had given to some of the reporters and they had photo of it. I guess the one that i've gotten is yes, truly from him. Signature sama banget and barulah aku syok sendiri. hahaha... again, mizleo loser ^_^Bukan saje kad raya tau.... Ada satu raya tu, aku dapat had a conversation with him through phone. Tapi kelakar giler kot.... tak tau nak cakap apa. "Selamat hari raya" and that's basically it! Pastu, terkeluar lah ayat bodoh seperti :- " abang, saya minat sangat kat abang" WHAT THE!!!!??? lols ;D Actually it had happened without kesedaran yang logikal.

Itulah citer-citer bodoh aku bersama jejaka impian malaya...yang walaupun umurnya i believe dah 40, but he's damn good looking. His skin...still tegang...hehhe... Muka bersih dan berseri... and also fit. He is so fresh! I like fresh man.. Rasa macam suci jek diorang nih...and hygenic too.
And the best experience i've ever had was last october. It was a memorable surprise indeed! I attended a vvip's birthday party@dinner. I was seated membelakangkan stage. My table was on the right side of the stage and basically i have to move my chair a lil bit and i would have a good sight of it. I was with my sisters, bro-in-law n my nephew. We were quite late for the party and my BIL drove like hell...to one extent i had to inform him that 'I'm not married YET'. But, as usual he ignored it. His brother had been calling him for like ten times and he kept on lying about our minutes-to-arrived. So, once we arrived like 5 minutes after that, the party started. The emcee were blablabla...and it's time for the 1st performance. And guess what??? It was anuar zain!!! My jantung dah luruh dah kot once I looked at him. Though the performance was to the birthday 'girl' but it was indeed a surprise for me. Rupa-rupanya, ni semua kerja abg ipar ku, adik dan wifenye! Cis!!! Patutlah aku macam ok jek malam tu, sanggup ikut diorang. Bayangkan kalau aku tak ikut..(which takkan lah kan..diorang mesti paksa punya). And lepas anuar nyanyi dalam 3 lagu macam tuh, terus adik abg ipar aku tarik anuar datang jumpa aku...hahaha...tak terkata apa-apa kot. Statement diorang kat anuar:- "bang, ni lah dia yang suka kat abang n selalu kem salam tu". Jahat kot statement tu...dan sekali lagi, untuk membuktikan yang aku ni loser...aku pun berkata pada anuar zain:- "abang, saya minat sangat kat abang. abang hensem la". Hahahaha... mizleo is a loser...mizleo is a loser... i am a loser!!! ;D

Dan minit-minit pada malam itu berlalu dengan gembira yang tak terkata. Perutku yang pada hakikatnya lapar, terus jadi kenyang. hahaha...Thanx la to my BIL and his brother. They did make my day! Rasa penat aku siang hari tu terbalas sangat. Siang tu aku pi rumah anak2 yatim kat sabak bernam and gotong royong. Rasa berbaloilah. Dan seharusnya aku tak melepaskan peluang tangkap gambar dengan jejaka itu. ^_^

These are the photos taken that nite.

an inspiring meeting

saya selsema dan saya tidak gemarkan situasi selsema ini.
what a day today....

btw, hari ni saya pergi bertemu dengan penasihat akademik master saya. betapa agak sukarnya saya hendak menemui beliau. dengan jarak perjalanan yang agak mencabar dari rumah atau pun pejabat, saya gagahkan jua, saya usahakan jua. beliau pulak bercuti selama 2 hari. saya pula tak sabar nak daftar subjek pelajaran. maklumlah...hampir 4 tahun saya meninggalkan alam universitas. tapi masalahnye, saya rindukan zaman pembelajaran ketika di iiu. with all the non-academic activities...yang berupa academic tu tak payah nak citer la kan. and akhirnya tadi, saya dapat bertemu dengannya, itu pun setelah dipostponed untuk ketiga kalinya.

he was a knowledgeable person indeed. from the very first impression, i could sense that. anyway, before i went and meet him, i googled him in the university's website. ternyata ia agak mengajaibkan (ada ke perkataan tu?)!! penasihat akademik saya ini merupakan seorang academician yang mengarah kepada pemikiran kritikal, kritis, kreatif dan sewaktu dengannya. saya pula seorang yang kritis dan kritikal. masakan tidak, kalau anda berikan saya satu masalah, saya akan menyediakan kembali kepada anda solutions, results, resorts, options, choices, possibilites, probabilites dan lain-lain. katakan saje, anda mahu yang positive atau negative. dan ternyata ketika saya memberitahu colleagues yang rapat dengan saya, mereka semua tertawakan saya dengan ungkapan - "elok sangatlah tu"!. dan saya hanya mampu ketawa dan gembira. di dalam hati, saya berdoa pada Allah, moga beliau dapat membimbing saya ke arah kejayaan berdasarkan pengalaman dan keluasan ilmu yang ada pada beliau. amin.

maka, saya pun bertemulah dengan beliau pada pukul 2 petang tadi. ternyata beliau looked much better than the photo in the website. hehehe.. we had a lively conversation. but i have to admit that from 100% he talked, i could only captured 70%. why? because his sayings were full of infos and of course i could not catch it up from the 1st meeting. it is too mouthful to be said and understood. tapi saya amat mengkagumi beliau. ntahlah bagaimana boleh terbit perasaan sedemikian. barangkali kerana beliau ada mengatakan pada saya yang beliau bakal bersara pada tahun 2012. kata beliau, sudah cukuplah aktiviti beliau untuk duniawi. sudah masanya beliau ingin menumpukan pada bekalan yang bakal dibawa selepas kematian. terpancar keikhlasan beliau pada bidang akademik. saya cuba memprovok beliau dengan memberi kenyataan bahawa academician yang sejati mempunyai passion yang amat mendalam tentang ilmu pengetahuan. beliau dengan tenang memberitahu saya bahawa apa yang saya katakan adalah benar sama sekali. tetapi, pada beliau sebagai seorang islam kita seharusnya memberi perhatian pada spiritual. he had worked hard before, said he. and he had felt the thick n thin, all the pain n vain. pada saya, he just know his limit. and i salute him for his alertness.

the most grateful moment that i realized from our very 1st meeting was that he is so fatherly. belaiu tak macam academician berumur yang lain. he has the sense of humor which i thank god so much. and he is open to any issue or subject to have a conversation with. he said, i am like your dad and whatever i said is from behalf a father's advice. and he did not stop me or demotivate me by any means when we had or discussion. he always encourage me by saying, you are still young. and for a few times he told me just do whatever you like. dont rush..you have your time but the most importantly, manage your time and plan well. haaaa....sejuk dada ku mendengarnya.

my ex-colleague who is still pursuing her masters there said that he is a kind man. do whatever he says and be committed to his lessons and you shall be granted with an A and excellency.

so dear ALLAH, i do'a for a smooth silky journey that will be full of lessons and inspirations. may it be the reason that drives to success. amin....

entry campuran merepekan

it's been a while since i last wrote an entry here. selalu rasa nak mencoret any coretan tapi perasaan malas sangat menguasai diri. hehe... btw, lagi bape hari dah nak masuk 2011. cepatnye masa berlalu. seperti biasa, dah terpikir mengenai azam2 where i always think of it mengikut tahun baru hijrah. tapi dari 100%, yang bergerak hanyalah 0.75%. biasalah tu..anak pakcik ahmad memang macam nih.

dan bila sentuh mengenai tahun baru, one thing that i cannot ignore is my AGE. aku takdelah kisah sangat ngan nombor2 usia nih...yang aku kisah ialah...bila dah meningkat usia dan bertukar tahun, aku selalu akan fikir mengenai ajal. ntahlah, kadang2 masa duduk2 diam kat office ker, kat umah ker, kat toilet or even masa drive, aku mesti terdetik terfikir pasal ajal maut ni. sekiranya ditakdirkan Allah swt nak menarik ajal aku there n then, adakah aku bersedia? honestly aku tak bersedia lagi. teringin jek nak ada perasaan bersedia utk dijemput ajal maut. tapi aku sedar, ilmu di dada tentang dunia yang satu lagi masih kurang, n bekalan utk dibawa pun masih tak cukup. hhmm...maka, salah satu azam-azam aku merupakan memenuhi sekadar terdaya untuk mencukupkan bekalan bila ke SANA nanti. insyaallah....

dan semestinya aku tak boleh dan tak akan lupakan tentang arwah kakak, bapak n kawan baik aku. 7hb yang lepas, genap arwah bb pergi setahun. usia sebaya aku, tetapi telah diuji oleh Allah swt dengan hebatnya - leukemia. dan aku rasa Allah maha adil dan menyayanginye sebab dia telah dijemput dulu dari kami. sekarang ni, aku agak terasa and teringat2kan dia sebab aku baru jek nak mulakan masters aku. sebelum dia pergi, kitorang memang dah plan untuk apply sama2 masters. tapi atas sebab2 tertentu spt masa, kitorang postponed....hinggalah waktu dia tenat dan asyik keluar masuk hospital. sama-samalah kita sedekahkan al-fatihah buat arwah-arwah.

k, back to citer nak new year yakni zaman 'jahiliyyah' ni...(siyes teringat sek agama dulu ;p), macam2 perasaan ada. yang pastinya bulan january tak sampai lagi, tapi kerja2 untuk bulan january, february n march dah tersedia ada. maka dengan itu, aku dengan bersemangatnya pi beli planner n diary utk memuatkan agenda2 ini. dahsyatkan?? sampai dua jenis aku beli... (hahaha...ye ye jek...yang sebenar-benarnya, aku ni hantu stationeries.... ;D) dan otak aku kembali berat seperti selalu. bukan aku namanya kalau otak aku tak berat...hehe...

dan cabaran tahun ni nampaknye semakin berat. aku kembali ke sekolah!! uwwaa...to be frank, aku seorang yang tidak berfikiran jauh ke hadapan sangat. ingat lagi masa aku still sekolah menengah, where most of my friends were thinking of enrolling to the university sbg persediaan masa depan. tapi aku?? tak...aku tak terfikir lansung. bukan tu jek, nak kerja apa pun aku takde nak berat2kan otak aku nih. bagi aku, yang keadaan semasa ni pun tak settle lagi, dah sibuk2 nak fikir career. tapi aku believe that ur surroundings do influence you. masa zaman sekolah pun, bukan aku nak cakaplah...yang geng2 satu class and suke melepak kat belakang tu, aku di antara yang excel. spm agg tinggi juge...dan masuk universitas yang manthop! and since aku berkawan2 dengan mereka2 yang memang pandai academically ni...and mempunyai wawasan yang cemerlang, aku pun turut serta cemerlang spt mereka. dan kini, boleh la aku bangga dengan diri aku. agak kembang bila geng2 sekolah yang dah lama tak jumpa tahu tentang perkembangan aku ni. (ye, badan aku pun berkembang juge. terima kasih kpd bola baling). so, terlanjur aku dalam bidang education ni, aku kenalah daki setinggi yang mampu. dan ukuran kebagusan academician ni bukan sahaja terletak pada tahun pengalaman tapi, jenis gulungan ijazah apa yang kita genggam. oh, tak lupa juga apakah pangkal nama kita? dr? prof madya? prof? huhuhu...cud never imagine that.

whatever pun, i just live life to the fullest. insyaallah perbaiki diri from time to time.. wish me lucksss!

ausmat 21's farewell dinner 2010

Semalam was AWESOME! Actually, it was a collection of unexpected moods n feeling's. Yesterday's night was a Grand Dinner Ausmat 21 at Empire Hotel. The theme of the night was Glam Grammy Night (if i'm not mistaken la).

Why unexpected? Mula-mula tu macam takde sangat perasaan emosi sebab this is merely a dinner and i've been to quite a number of dinners. But then, being in my career especially at this particular institution, we are already accustomed to farewell. And being a normal lady, emotions do take part..hehe...Mana taknya, to one extend there are students who i've taught the whole 3 semesters i.e. 1 and 1/2 years. So, worth it la kot untuk aku sedih2 bila nak berpisah. Lagi-lagi lah if aku went well with the class that i taught.

And yes, the great part was last night's achievements. The event's committees had prepared some awards to be given out and of coz to their friends la. At the same time, ada jugaklah awards for their lecturers. Guess what? Aku dapatlah jugak antara awards yang dipertandingkan... heheh... Dahla theme Grammy, terasa akak macam artis... ^_^ Basically, i won two awards and a lucky draw. What an achievement! The categories that i won were Ms Popular & Best Dress. So, semalam kemenangan aku adalah kemenangan hatrik la... Tak menang tangan akak bawak balik trophy. Berbaloi akak beli baju on that Saturday...all the way from Ipoh...hahaha Ipoh mali ;D

Dan dinner tu semestinya ends with photography session. They were all having fun as they've finished what they were working their ass off for the whole 3 sems. Saying goodbye to each other and hopefully will be flying together next Feb. But before that, results will be coming out this December.

All in all, everybody were enjoying the night and Ausmat 21 Forever~

bila gembira, ingat juga pada duka

It's already mid November kan? Cepatnya masa berlalu. Rasanya baru semalam students aku fly to Oz n Nz. Tapi sebenarnya, junior diorang yang baru jek habiskan xm SACE before flying. For me, ada bagus and ada yang tak bagus when time flies so fast without notice. Yang bagusnya, we succeed in facing those days. Yang tak bagusnya pulak, rasa pendek jek umur ni semakin hari. Yes, we are getting older and therefore, ajal maut is just around the corner. And to be frank, I don't like when the time flies so fast. Tapi macam mana pun, ajal maut di tangan Allah. Kita hanya mampu bersedia bila2 sahaja Allah mahu menjemput kita.

Dan bila menyentuh bab-bab kematian dan kehidupan ni, ada sesuatu yang menganggu aku. Baru-baru ni hajat aku tercapai. Aku nye masters' application dan diterima. Aku rasa happy and excited to get back to school, tapi at the same time aku mesti teringatkan arwah bibi. Dulu masa aku nak apply, aku dengan dia la yang sibuk2 memikirkan segala-galanya. We always ym-ing each other till 4am in the morning. We discussed a lot together. She's the one with same 'kepala' with me. Both of us had never have had "mental block" when it comes to chit-chatting. That was unforgettable! So, setiap kali aku kena berfikir pasal masters' nye stuffs, wajib aku akan teringat kat dia. Lagi2 sekarang nih...sebabnya 19th ni ialah birthday dia and bulan december ni genap setahun arwah meninggal dunia.

Al-Fatihah my very dear friend. Semoga Allah menempatkan mu di tempat orang-orang beriman. Amin..

^_^

usaha tangga kejayaan & kejayaan tidak datang bergolek (Firdaus 2010)

Thank you Allah ^_^

oh my... i am blessed by Him these few weeks and months. betullah pepatah melayu: sesuatu yang berlaku itu ada hikmahnya. mungkin, selama ni aku agak dalam kesusahan...so, i guess it's worth it now... ntahlah, tapi saya sangat bahagia. i can't describe it but i am really thankful to Allah swt. Hanya kepada DIA yang layak menerima kesyukuran aku ni. kerana restu dan izinNYA lah aku gembira seadanya. Thanx Allah. I owe you... ^_*

Siapa kata anak En ahmad tak multi-tasking?

Hoorraayy!! I'm totally DONE with minggu yang azab last week. Alhamdulillah it all went well smoothly without any major disaster. Aku berjaya met the due dates for both important things. The first one was on monday where i have to key-in the seniors' trial marks in the system. Basically the act of key'ing'-in the marks was not a problem at all but to finish and finalize the markings were the hardest ever... ;(( In fact, to make it more and more and more harder was when I had two codes of subjects to look after : ESLS and also Malay Studies. Totally two different languages but the ESSAYS are always killing me. In ESLS, there were 2 parts of written tasks - an argumentative essay and a letter (not to forget 2 parts of Listening Comprehension). Where else, in Malay Studies there were 3 written tasks with different topics/issues and depending on the questions chosen - there were different format as well. And of course, there were listening and reading comprehension. So, it was a success and i DID it! ;) Good Job Leogurl!

The second one was then on last friday. We the lecturers need to fill in Pink & Blue Forms to be sent to SACE Australia. These two forms are really needed to be filled in with extra and 101% cautious. These forms too are the students' future lucks. One of the forms is to be filled in with their School Assessments or generally known as Internal Marks or to make it more simple, their carried marks. So, these marks will be added with their marks from the real SACE Exam which they are going to be seated beginning this November 1st. And the other form is their predicted marks. It is very important for us to meet this due date because the forms will be made photocopied for documenting purposes and it need to be AT the Australia by this friday the 29th. And again, i've made it smoothly unlike last year where it was quite a disaster process.

In the mean time that I was supposed to do and get settled with all these marking and filling in forms, I was contacted by the Main Campus Corporate Office. They would like me to attend an audition for the Istiadat Konvokesyen's emcee post as well as the voice-over post. I did go to the audition and it was exciting! Emcee tu macam biasa je la kan cuma this kind of emcee is more formal and well-managed. As for the voice-over, this is truly exciting. Rasa cam nak ketawa and golek2 kat lantai bila aku kena baca this one particular individual's profile. Mana tak nye, I was already in the English mode. So, basically my slang, accent and style were already tuned accordingly. Tiba-tiba tengah read out loud tu (and of coz they were recording my voice), aku kena sebut "nasi berlauk and nasi kerabu hitam".. Makanya, bunyi benda dua alah tu sudah berbunyi macam minah saleh pelat bercakap bahasa melayu. Aku rasa sangat murtad bahasa and sapa-sapa cam yang tak faham tu mesti kata aku ni perasan bagus cakap english. hehehe... Kelakar pun ada gak. Nak kata suara aku ni sodap, takde la pun..Kalo nyanyi sumbang gak. Tapi tu la...semenjak kerja kat sini, post emcee dah macam melekat dengan aku. Apa jek events kat sini, mesti aku jadi emcee. Rasanya, staffs kat sini mesti dah bosan kot dengar suara aku and tengok muka. Tapi best jege dapat peluang macam ni. Aku dapat kerja ngan pelbagai orang from different departments. And of coz, I gained a lot of experiences throughout my involvements. So far, aku dah dapat untuk jadi pengacara majlis kepada 2 events yang paling penting kat sini yang melibatkan kedua-dua VC. It was indeed a precious experience. But, I have a confession. I was damn horrible in being an informal emcee. Sangat buroks...

p/s: Tu lah, sapa kata aku tak multi-tasking? Terlebih ada lah. On the week itself, I had involved in students's event and was a jury for the night. Siang lak, class full 24hrs credit. Sapa kata anak En Ahmad tidak multi-tasking? (",)

i'm gonna back to school! (",)

alhamdulillah...Allah has helped me a lot...really thanking him for the smooth journey he had prepared for me so far. I never could imagine if i were to stand and face the vice versa journey. had been though, but never want to face it again.

i guess i'm back to school. i am so excited! coz i'm sort of missing the school days especially the uni days..i miss the theatrical works with frens...not sleeping the whole week in making our program a success...then, missing the nights in colleges as well..never sleep early n squatting nearly the whole semester....had been in 'suka duka' together...had my era of scooter n my lovely bee-kelisa car...oh my.....missing that sooo much!

but one thing that i'm afraid of...juggling both work n study at the same time. i always claim myself not to be a good multi-tasking person but all this while, i am multi-tasking things...a lot!

hahaha...i am so in denials. ^_^

still remember when i had the interview for this application. i was the first person to be called- lucky number 1 i guess...huhuhu... Initially, i thought there was like more than 1 interviewer. but then, it was only 1 person- a woman indeed. i could say that my interview session was not really an interview session but rather a sharing discussion slot between educaters (cheewaahh). ahahhaa... so damn poyo okay!! i can't believe myself in that position. but honestly, it was indeed a mature q&a session between me and the interviewer. now i can see the relevancies of having experiences in the field we are in to our judgement/maturity/openess and etc. for me, i should thank my current position coz without 'who i am now', i might not be able to handle myself well in the interview. you would somehow rather assuming things/conditions than knowing it truthfully. ok, lemme give an example. let say that u r going for a job interview. u would be asked questions like: "what if your students did this n that...and how would you tackle the situation?" So, for the new-comers, they would certainly assume that they could do this n that and etc. but for the person who had the experiences in handling the situation would definitely answer the question more practical and sounds believing. but then, it's ok. small matter lah tu! after all, siapa-siapa yang ada experiences akan memulakan hidup dia tanpa sekelumit experiences pun. that is why we said that experiences are a good reality teacher.

so insyaallah, my school life begins in december. wish me lucks and lucks...

Al-Fatihah

People all around the world are waiting for this once-in-a-life-time date -> 10/10/10. Yup! We have triple 10s. In Malaysia itself, there will be many couples who intended to get married at this particular date. So the-very expected. Even for the very first Malaysian so-called astronaut (a visitor indeed) will be getting married on the 10th mainly because he was up there on this particular date before. Hhhmmm...okla...ada la jugak significant dia. Maybe for other believes/religions, the date means something..maybe according to their horoscopes and universe calculation etc. we never know..


but for me personally. back 6 years ago, my dad had gone forever. on the 10/10/04 and coincidently at 10.10pm. Al-Fatihah....


p/s: al-fatihah to my sis, my uncle and my very best friend. may their soul rest in peace. amin.

loooove hating people

i am starting to loooove hating people. i don't know why but people around me are simultaneously annoying me: directly and/or indirectly. i am not pretty sure why am i so freaking easily irritated by all of them... from the closest till the one who aren't. hopefully, no one messes up with me at this particular moment. or else, something baaaad, really baaad will happen. if you think you are IN the category, then tell it STRAIGHT to your face.

p/s: btw, this is not because of PMS. mind that!

my bff - khom's engagement

hey there! hari tu i did mention that i'll post some pics of our very own made and decorated mini pelamin and hantarans. here they are...! (",)




oh ya... dan ini adalah gambar orang yang bertunang iteww.... my bff



dan ini adalah kami kanak-kanak riang ria ^_^

p/s: credit to the photographer for the last two photos.

am always happy! sadness..u go away...

hey ya'll... what a week after a long break of hari raya... right away from the break, students are having their trials since monday till the next wednesday. pity them though..definitely their breaks were used to study and i think they should. they still have a long journey and after all, i couldn't see how are they going to enjoy Hari Raya to the max. I am not sure whether I am already aging or insensible, but the best celebration and moment to enjoy is only effective on the night before raya, the first 2 or 3 days of raya..and of course on any open day's events organized by relatives and friends. but still, i have a student who did not completed his assignment on the reason of 'hari raya'....hahaha...maybe sebab dia budak sarawak kot. takpelah, itu antara dia dan lecturer dia.

even though exam week is supposed to be the most awaited week for us the lecturers...but it does not work on me.. had few things to settle...then had an interview yesterday...plus with cik khom's engagement tomorrow...kelam kabut semua. but then, everything has back to normal coz i have settled in completing the interview. gosshhh...i was so damn relieved! As some poeple who knows my 'weird' advantage which is i don't feel nervous when it comes to an interview...or back then in campus life, i am completely in control with any class presentations. bagi aku ini adalah satu keadaan di mana aku boleh klasifikasikan sebagai 'kecacatan'. most of the people would feel damn nervous. i have had a friend who nearly "committed suicide" (it is a metaphor by the way) when she had to do her presentation in one of the classes. the thing that had made her to do so was the class's lecturer who would never make any student finishes their slides. let say u have 10 slides to be presented in 7 mins. in his class, u would be very proud and lucky if you could present 4 slides. in some cases, you hanya akan sempat present 1 slide of the content jek. he would ask questions by questions until time's up! sebab tu la kawan aku ni sampai tak tidur malam and nak bunuh diri lompat hostel 4 tingkat. hehehe... macam aku ni plak, memanglah jarang giler feel nervous but that doesn't mean when i had presentations, i did excellently...biasa2 aje...cuma kadang2 teringin rasa berdebar...haha...leogurl cacat! lolss.. by the way, the interview went well i guess. never had fun in any other interviews before, it was such a motivating session i had.

apart from that, my best buddy is going to get engaged tomorrow. we had did our own pelamin from scratch. it was fun in planning the looks, the materials and definitely the colour! not to forget, so many ammendments too...hahhaa...and of coz the hantarans will be self-made and decorated..you know us...^_* furthermore, am really looking forward to decaorate the hantarans tonight..it's a fresh flowers decoration...! i'll post some pics in the next entry ya!?

with that, till entry meets an entry! (",)

;(

it's been a week of hari raya... selamat hari raya korang!

tahun ni my raya was quite dull... for people macam aku yang kurang ada kampung ni, memang akan experience kekurangan kemeriahan of hari raya. lagi-lagi lah dah tua ni kan, raya is not that exciting anymore...cuti dkt 2 minggu pun tak membawa makna apa2...hhmm....

life is dullllllll..... i desperately need something new, fresh and classy!

god, help me!

*wink*wink*

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anuar zain kirim salam kat aku and of course he still, do remember me. @_@

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~penat tapi bosan~

Akhirnya, dapat juga aku bercuti. Penat betul rasanya 2-3 menjak ni. As in my profession ni, hanya cuti semester yang boleh diharapkan. Tak macam orang2 yang kerja di office. They can apply leave(s) whenever they want except for no tasks at the moment la. Kalau macam aku ni, aku rasa dah sesak2 nafas punya penat pun, harapkan mc jek. Tapi masalahnya, susah untuk gambarkan pada panel clinic yang some of us ni ironically sesak2 nafas penat bekerja. Hahaha...mesti doc pelik kan? Apa punya jenis penyakit la ni...hehehe... honestly, aku pernah bersusah payah berfikir macam mana tak nak pergi kerja on one certain day tu. Sebabnya, aku restless sangat2. Kalau aku pi kerja pun, aku lagi sakit otak. Why? Because definitely I need to lecture my students on that day. And I can’t simply lecture them on anything by any ways. Sesenang-senang topic and seterer-terer (apa punya word daa) kita pun, if nak lecture our students, we certainly need to be prepared. We might need teaching aids – these are the most important element in teaching, trust me! A lesson without teaching aids would be boring. Ditambah lagi dengan adanya students zaman sekarang ni, you 100%-ly need a fun and interesting method of teaching. Just to attract them...hhmm...

Yup, back to the efforts done on thinking the solution of not wanting to go to work, it was really a headache activity. You just couldn’t simply give your employer your honest reason(s). And of course you can’t simply go to the doctor and tell him/her that you just don’t have the feeling to go to work. You need REASON! Uuwwaa...pressure seh....

Tapikan, bila dah cuti semester ni, bila dah apply cuti sepanjang-panjang students cuti, akan timbul satu perasaan bosan kerana kita akan cuti panjang tanpa berbuat apa2 yang berfaedah (pada tafsiran context penulis). Paling-paling aku akan pi shopping or even window shopping. Agak2 dah habis duit dilaburkan.... shopping complex pastinya di-blacklist kan. Pastu, nak gi mana aje? Duduk rumah la. Kawan2 lain lak kerja... at the end, bohsan kembali. Makanya, aku ni kalau tak sibuk giler, mesti free or bosan giler. Takde istilah yang tengah2. Haaah...life is so complicated.

So, raya tahun ni aku cuti agak 2 minggu. Dan aku dapat menganggak yang minggu depan, perasaan bosan bakal tiba. Dan minggu selepas depan itu, situasi sibuk bakal menjelma. Dengan adanya interview yang aku tak prepare lansung dari saat ini, hinggalah job-job emcee yang bakal dioffer dan diterima, aku simpulkan jua – life is so unpredictable. Apa-apa pun, life goes on. Aku selalu percaya, segalanya ada hikmah di sebaliknya. Dan, aku redha! >.<

Dengan ini, selamat hari raya aidilfitri. Maaf zahir dan batin. Doakan interview daku berjalan dengan lancar dan insyaallah, kalau ada rezeki, aku Berjaya ke peringkat satu lagi. Amin ya rabbilalamin....

my feelings

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my FEELINGS for you is like a Boomerang :

When I try to get rid of it by throwing it away - it just keeps coming back!

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TRUST

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TRUST is like a paper : Once crumpled, it won't be perfect again

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kehidupan yang sebenar.

omg! it's been a month and more since i last wrote here. alasan aku agak cliche tapi memang itu yang sebenarnya. i am soo busy. macam-macam la yang berlaku dalam sebulan dua bulan ni. naik pening aku tengok planner aku sendiri untuk bulan-bulan ni. penuh dengan agenda yang seharusnya out of my tugas hakiki which is lecturing. sampaikan hari ahad pun ada gak agenda kerja rasmi yang tidak hakiki. huhuhu....

Cumanya hari ini, aku dah boleh bernafas skit. lagi seminggu, cuti semester + cuti raya ... masa ni la yang aku nanti2kan. tahun ni aku and kakak2 aku berkecimpung dalam bisnes kecil2an untuk raya. kakak aku yang sorang tu buat kuih raya home-made. tapi kuih raya dia ada bape jenis jek..konon limited n special la...hahhaa...aku lak ngan kakak aku yang sorang lagi buat hamper raya untuk korporat. nak dijadikan citer, last week on friday kitorg dapat tempahan 100 hampers. kalo ikutkan jadual....tempahan ni dah agak lambat. mana taknye, kitorang nak gi beli basket dia lagi... itu belum kira if the baskets are available or not. and all those decorations stuffs..plus cookies lagi.. dan dalam masa 9 hari ni, kitorang mampu siapkan segalanya. actually on last thursday, we managed to settle and sent 50 hampers. and from there on, we are finishing another 50 hampers together with 7 VIP hampers. hanya Allah swt hanya yang tahu betapa penat dan seksanya nak settle kan smua ni. yang menjadi lambat adalah kerana we are waiting for my sis yang buat cookies tu to finish up baking it. just imagine, she has to bake 100 containers of 3 types of cookies which equal to 300 in total in such a short time. we did help her though but more focusing more towards our hampers' decorations. nasib i have many sisters...so yang lain tu help her out la..and thanx to my bff yang memang bidan terjun... smua skang ni fikir nak cari xtra income jek..so, ini smua dianggap rezeki allah di bulan ramadhan...alhamdulillah..

so, raya dah nak dekat. but peliknya, excitement semakin berkurangan. mungkin umur pun dah makin meningkat. agak tak heran sangat la nak beraya beriya...hehhee...

but so far, dalam pada busy ni...life has been good and aku selalu dimurahkan rezeki. thanx to allah and i am grateful for such. and seriously, i need to get a good massage and need to go beauty saloon after this hectic-like-crazy week. need something to pay off my hardworks!

^_^ ciao!

agrotek resorts ^_^

jakun tak?

hey there!

just finished the classes for the day. suddenly i felt the tiredness of having to teach for 21 hours per week. so damn demanding. thank god i have a good senior for esls class. they just need my humble guide to be better coz i believe they are in the right track. the other subject is malay studies, also a senior class. they are okay but need to work a lil harder though. the subject is not like other subjects in terms of u need to know and revise certain facts. it's more into critical thinking application in almost all the assessments. i would say it is quite subjective. and another subject is junior esls class. as sace board had change the wightage for the assessments affectively 2011, we kinda have a slight changes and differences in the syllabuses. that's the reason i need and had to re-study certain parts. and not to mention to actually prepare some new materials like powerpoint slides as well as practices. so far so good i guess...but the feeling of exhaustion is obviously felt. huhuhuhu....

tapi tadi class malay macam best jek..hahha...i was like ter-jakun coz in the lab that we are using for presentation had a touch screen computer and also internet connection. i was jakun coz having knew my place, it is not that IT-ish. who knows me would understand. and one thing for sure, the students never knew that the room has the internet connection. this is because, they usually use this room for special purpose and it is not a common classroom. only by booking or request, then u may be permitted to use. so, when they have to watch a movie for study purpose, or perhaps class presentations, they can use the room (rather than having LCD and a laptop to do so). and seriously i cannot believe it's a touch screen pc. had fun touching it though. ^_^

another thing was, when the students were doing their discussion, i took the advantage to use the internet. and what i did was to google their blogs. almost of them had one. and they are trying to find mine. hahaha..good luck guys. hopefully u guys jumpa. dont forget to leave a comment for this entry k!? ^_*

k, for kesekian kalinya, i nak balik keje awal... ddaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... xoxoxox

ana fening sudeh~~

first of all, hahaha...

today is the first day of the junior semester. however, the senior had started their semester 2 weeks ago. as usual...the first class that i entered would definitely be an ice-breaking session. but, today i did not do that. i just felt that they are so near to me. in that particular class, i have 4 malay male students and the rest are all girls - malay and chinese. so basically i just introduce myself, giving all necessary details of me and i straight away introduce and expose them to the subject as well as the subject's requirement. they were enthusiastic (of course they are) since this is the first day of their becoming 1 and a half year of studies in this institution.

one thing that i always ask for is for them to write on something about themselves, their expectations towards the subject, class and etc. it is just not for the sake that they can introduce themselves informally but i found out that through that task, many things can be observed. one of the example is definitely their writing skills and not to forget their competencies in all those grammar, sentence structure etc.

i just finished reading all their write-ups and i'm kinda pening already. they know what to write but lots of improvements needed. huhuhu...mizleo, their future is again in ur hands.

chayyok-chayyok!!

untuk firdaus

entri ini khas ditujukan buat en mohd firdaus nasir - my besty.

last week i saw someone like you among the new students during the orientation week. he is an australian mat student. i wanna tell you before but i forgot.
however, today as i entered my very 1st junior class, i was literally shocked to see him in that class. hahaha....he really really looks like you especially when you were in matrix. cuma takde songkok and specs jek.

so, firdaus....i am gonna 'see' you everyday from now on. ^_^

chill babe..~~

eeeiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii....

tiba2 ptg tadi aku hangin! sebabnye students aku dok msg sbb nak aku reply email.

memang ler aku tak kisah nak consult or whatever tru email. aku mmg galakkan smua ni.

tapi masalahnya, aku dah tetapkan before balik cuti ke kampung masing2...submit keje n consult topic ngan aku. n seperti yang dapat dijangkakan...ada jek la manusia2 yang lambat n contact aku tru email. ada jek la alasan2 yang kalo boleh aku tak nak layan n pedulik.

betapa baiknye hati aku bila aku try to put myself into their shoes....and if what they claimed of (the reason) why they submitted it late is so true. aku agak hangin and emo sebab: 1) hari ni hari ahad 2) sah2 off the due date 3) demanding me to reply it soon 4) ingat aku takde keje lain ke hari ahad ni?

tapi takpe la...demi kesian kat diorang, aku spend time (which i shudn't coz it's a family day-sunday) replying all emailsssssss there and then. n kerana ada pemikiran yang matang, maka berterima kasihlah si dia itu. sedap and sejuk skit hati aku. bila fikir balik, bukan senang nak jadi pensyarah ni. ia sangat lain dari cikgu kerana pensyarah menuntut waktu dan hari yang bila2. memang ada pensyarah yang tidak heran dengan request students when it comes to a non-working day. but for me, i think we shud try to help them anytime n anyhow that we cud. unless it is something ridiculous, then we shudn't entertain them so.

yang nyata, insyaallah dengan berkat kesabaran and keikhlasan kita, students ni smua akan berjaya. siapa lagi akan bersyukur kalau bukan kita kerana ilmu yang kita turunkan pada mereka itu datang dari niat dan hati yang ikhlas lagi suci. hanya allah swt yang maha mengetahui dan dapat membalasnya. insyaallah amin......

politik oh politikus...

yeehhaa...minggu depan aku akan cuti. hehe..happy sangat sebab tiba2 aku masih ada 4 available hari untuk cuti..hoorayy...tak silap aku, macam dah habis jek cuti aku..tapi nasib en shafiq membawa perkhabaran yang baik. terima kasih en shafiq (off's clerk).

so skang, citer pasal lain lak. jumaat malam ari tu, aku dipaksa pergi meeting politik. hahhaa...dahla berkenaan politik, kena paksa lak tuh...ini semua sebab abang ipar aku. dia ni ahli politik n skang tiba masanya untuk diorg ni buat meeting kawasan. tapi, bila sesebuah kawasan tu nak buat meeting, ia perlulah cukup *korum*. skang ni kan musim cuti sekolah. ramai gak ler yang balik kampung. n abg ipar aku ni pun satu...salah timing nak buat meeting. tapi benda dah nak jadi kan...nak buek camno. sebagai adik yang baik sebab kakak aku mintak tolong, maka aku pun pi la meeting tuh. oh ya, the reason why the meeting kena cukup korum is because, there'll be sumone who will be inspecting the meeting. n syarat utama is meeting mesti cukup korum. what daa... aku pun pi la menganga kat meeting tuh. yang menghairankan adalah, meeting tu tak dibuat di dalam bilik mesyuarat...tetapi di sebuah restoran melayu di bawah bangunan politik itu. @apakah??@

lepas tu kan, merata2 aku tgk manusia..rupa2nya meeting tu dibuat oleh beberapa kawasan yang berkenaan. lawak giler seh. yang pasti, ada sorang pakcik ni pakai kain pelekat n kopiah (of coz with baju) bukan ke main ligatnya aku tengok dia dok makan. aku rasa, time aku perasan, adalah 5 kali kot dia dok menambah makan. bila time dia meeting pun aku tak tau. hahha...hishh..tak faham aku politik apa ni smua.

apa pun,bersyukur gak aku pi meeting pada malam tu. sebabnya,aku jumpa kawan sekolah lama aku. n the most interesting part, she is naib org besar daerah aku bagi category muda..hehe..(try to cover which party but i believe it is obvious so).... and all my bro in law nye org kuat for gurls are somehow the gurls n senior frm my previous secondary school.

however, it was not a bad attempt. but siyesly quite wasting of time too... yang nyata, meeting dlm setengah jam and the rest of jam is makan freeeeeeeeeee.... sah2 abang ipar aku yang open table tuh...huhuhu... politik oh politik....

~kenangan terindah~

yyuhhuu....

(",)

adakah saya happy? hhmm mungkin...

kenapa happy? hati senang mungkin...

hehehe...dahlah! merepek pulak..

life's been okay after all the hectic days full of works & responsibilities..

mungkin itu sebab hati senang kot...hehehe...

walaupun kerja yang sepatutnya dah siap, aku lupa yang sebenarnya aku ada lagi KERJA-KERJA yang menanti untuk disiapkan before semester baru starts. cuma ia taklah dituntut due dates..insyaallah akan dibereskan since i have another 3 weeks...

ok, nak share citer lain lak. ;-D

saya ni anak bongsu...dari 7 orang adik beradik. 6 orang di atas saya semuanya kakak saya. maknanya...family saya penuh dengan perempuan.huhuhu...kalau anda nak tahu, rumah saya bila terkumpulnya semua adik beradik, gamat jadi nya. maklumlah...bila perempuan bertemu dan bermula bersembang. haish...mak saya pun pening..tapi irony nya, dia yang lahirkan kami semua 7 beradik and dia sendiri pening dengan zuriat2nya ini. hehehe...kalau korang nak tahu macam mana gamatnya keluarga saya ni...tak payahlah korang bayangkan. saya syorkan korang datang dan merasai kegamatan keluarga saya ini. bagi mereka yang kurang adik beradik atau anak tunggal or maybe anak tunggal perempuan....sah2 mereka akan terhibur dan gembira as well as how they wish they could be in the scenario...or even vice versa. hahhaha... ;D

tapi, kumpulnya kami yang perempuan2 ni akan menjadi lebih best bila arwah bapak ada. bapak jek yang sporting dan cool melayan kitorang. paling best ialah masa makan. meja makan sah2 tak cukup ngan kitorang semua...tapi hempet juge la...and paling kelakar waktu tu was when mak takkan sesekali join kat meja makan tuh. even kalau nak amik lauk sekalipun, dia akan amik sendiri dari periuk kat dapur. pastu, mak takkan sesekali akan duduk semeja ngan kitorang. alasannya sampai bila-bila ialah - "aku boleh tercekik kalau makan dengan korang". lols.. ;)) hahahha... and satu lagi bila arwah bapak suke 'curik' lauk kitorang and sembunyi bawah nasi dia. bila korang pandang pinggan nasi korang, udang/ikan/sotong/daging etc hilang. muka korang masa tuh cam sengal jek....sebab akan terpikir whether korang dah telan lauk tu ker or memang hilang...hahhaa...sah2 la yang lain2 tuh buat muka seposen as if they dont know what's happening...haaha....rindu seh saat-saat tuh..haishhh.....

and having 6 elder sisters is also challenging. tidak ada rahsia yang boleh jadi rahsia di antara kami. paling lambat seseorang tu nak tau pun mungkin dalam seminggu. sebabnya one of my sis is a stewardess. so, she is and always the last person to know anything. now, hanya ada 5 sisters jek. i have lost my 4th sister in 1996. when she was alive, she is the one who will always be the 'secrets keeper'. dia sakit and the inactive person. in our house, she has her own area...dia akan selalu lepak kat situ...makan ubat, rehat, tidur etc.. and setiap kali kitoang ada problem or gossips or citer to share....we will always go to her...and masa tu, setiap kali mak nak tau citer...dia pun akan pi kat arwah...pastu, sah2 la arwah terpaksa bukak citer...hahhaa...then, semua kantoi... (",) bagi saya pulak, arwah kakak saya ni akan jadi penyelamat tika nak selesaikan kerja rumah subjek lukisan. lemah tul kalo kena lukis ntah apa-apa. makanya, pada arwah lah saya akan tuju. arwah pandai lukis. ALLAH itu maha adil. walaupun arwah sakit, arwah ada banyak kelebihan. dia pandai melukis n also seni thingy. her hobby back then was jahit cross-stitch. if you guys come to my house dulu, there was few frames of her works. skang pun, we maintained 1 of it. yang lain my eldest sisters took it. hhmm....all the memories came back...

k back to it. sampai sekarang pun kami macam ni lagi. rahsia memang tak leh jadi rahsia. it is because we do have close bond between each other. we care of each other and this is the main ingredient for our good relationship. the latest example is this morning. i called(phoned) my eldest sister regarding "something". and at the same time, i invited her n family to come to mom's house. saje nak belanja my niece n nephew. lepas i hung up for like 10 minutes, my 3rd sis called me and asked something. ceit...dalam masa SEPULUH MINIT, berita dah tersebar! bukan pasal belanja tu, tp pasal "something" yang i just told my eldest sister. bila aku kenang balik, ish ish ish...kakak2 aku ni...lawak giler...and believe me...it will be the next GOSSIP for all of them esok dan hari-hari esok!

haishh....what more would and could i wished for?? i have everything that not all of us had.

am grateful! am happy! ^_^

-

perginya genap setahun...

oh yeah...dalam pada aku sibuk2 hari tu..aku baru teringat tentang sesuatu..

perginya arwah nublan zaki telah genap setahun...

semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat dan berada di kalangan orang2 yg beriman...

AL-FATIHAH...

kerja rasmi sudah habis.

hoorayy!! kerja rasmi dah habis....!!!
just keyed in final exam's marks in the system.
well...results are not that good...quite dissappointed actually...
and i can say that i am a lil bit afraid of the coming semester...
and definitely the real exam this november.

english paper was excellent.
i am grateful to have good students and also hardworking ones...
but malay paper was the one that i am not really feel at ease...
while marking their papers these few days back...
my brain was actively thinking of loads of possible activities that i could offer them...
to actually help them to do better and better and be fully prepared...
it is "malay for background speakers" paper...
but it is not that easy though.

hhmm...
it's ok...think positive!

go leogurl~ ^_*

happy and grateful ^_*

i am sooo happy today!!! ^_^

ielts's results are out and my students excelled!
this is the first time i taught them the whole 4 components.
even so, there are few of them that i think can achieve more than what they get...
however,i am still grateful as what they had achieved so far...

this is what and how you'll feel when u r in the teaching field..
all u need is their success though they have troubled u before,
with their questions, behaviors n attitudes...

IT WAS ALL WORTH IT!

and i am truly happy with them (",)

xoxoxoxox luv.

%))#%^^(^%#

ye...muka saya sudah sangat tanned..... ditambah dengan garis-garis sempadan yang berbentuk track racing motor di pipi mulus saya...

uuwwaa.... :((

macam mana nak pi keje minggu depan??? macam mana nak jaga xm dengan muka macam nih??

esok, sah bin wajib saya takkan keluar rumah...

sekian.

la la la la~~~

adoiiiiiiiii....tulonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.....

berilah saya kekuatan.... kadang2 menjadi seorg yg optimistic juga menyusahkan.

contohnya saya sekarang ini.

saya sedang berusaha untuk mempersiapkan diri untuk pembentangan kertas di satu konferens esk tetapi saya masih la la la la~~~

sudah masuk ke 77 kali saya membaca research paper kami (me n diebaa)

tetapi saya masih la la la la~~~

slides juga masih belum ditahap yang saya boleh finalize

10 kali pandang, 10 kali edit

mengapakah ini terjadi??

go leogurl!! u can do it!! maybe u need to chase away the devils around u!

wish me lucksssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss ^_*

speechless

ok. i am shocked! just entered my office after lunch. and suddenly i am stunned with a news - not a good one indeed. another friend of mine had a cancer!!!! oh god....i am damn speechless. first, my best buddy had a luekemia...then, he had a cancer, then, my friend's mother had a cancer and know....my colleague. aku sangat pening.

of coz, aku bersedih di atas everything that had happened to them. only my prays that i could offer though. but then, mostly the people yang aku rapat diuji oleh Allah swt.

damn....i am speechless again.

speechless again...

speechless...

...

cuak

today is the day that i feel soooooo relieved. macam banyak jek bebanan kian terurai... one thing for sure is because my students had just finished their ielts's exam. sangat lega rasanya when classes started to end (only for ielts tho). the rest of the classes still ada baki one week.

a fact that i realized being a teacher is when ur students are facing their examination, we will always hope for the best. i never knew if there is any teacher who actually doesn't care of their students' achievements and performances. contoh paling dekat is at this moment. yesterday, my students' had their speaking ielts's test. siapa yang nervous?? akuuu jugak. students aku sah2 memang nervous. aku rasa aku akan lagi nervous bila their exam paper is not done by us-the teachers. i would rather say that their exam paper is external-based. if this happening, aku adalah manusia yang paling cuak. mana tidaknya, i'll always be thinking whether they understand the questions or could they reflect and relate as well as connect whatever that have been taught to answer such questions given. hhmmm.... and obviously, to know the answer, i have to wait for their results. and masa tunggu results diorang nih adalah masa yang paling cuak giler! in fact, last year my colleagues and i sanggup balik keje lambat semata-mata nak tunggu results from australia through e-mail. hahhaha...macam apa jek kan...?

tapi when u r into this education business especially teaching, u will somehow feel and act like parents. u nurture them, care, guide and all the things that a mother or a father does to their child/children. ekekeke...aku rasa poyo lak tulis cam nih. hahaha... ^_*

k la...till entry meets entry! have a good day!

~ GO ASTERN -> GOSTAN ~ ^_^

GOSTAN:
"ko tolong gostan skit kete ko. aku nak parking motor aku kat depan kete ko".

Pernahkah anda mendengar atau menggunakan perkataan GOSTAN seperti yang tertera di atas? (",) You might be using the word rarely though. this is because this word is more often used by the previous (old) generation. Ini perkataan zaman parents kita dulu. And I doubt if young teenagers nowadays have ever used or even heard it before.

But before that, tahukah anda apakah maksudnya? Maksudnya - REVERSE. So, in the context above, it means "reverse your car".

Tapi korang tahu tak macam mana perkataan ini wujud? dan dari mana datangnya bunyi2an tuh? GO mungkin means pergi... but STAN???

Alkisahnya, ketika zaman dahulu kala di mana negara kita ni dijajah oleh British... seorang nakhoda kapal yang berbangsa British telah mengarahkan kelasinya yakni yang berbangsa Melayu untuk ke belakang bahagian kapal. Nakhoda tersebut berkata : "GO ASTERN". Maka semenjak hari itu, perkataan tersebut selalu didengari oleh kelas-kelasi yang berbangsa Melayu ini. Akan tetapi kelasi-kelasi tersebut memahami apa yang diperkatakan oleh nakhoda tersebut. Cumanya, ketika kelasi-kelasi tersebut cuba untuk mengaplikasikan perkataan tersebut, sebutan mereka kedengaran agak janggal. Mungkin kerana 'pronunciation' mereka yang agak tidak jelas. Bak kata juri-juri AF dan sewaktunya - "Diction anda tidak jelas". Ditambah pula, kelasi-kelasi ini terbawa-bawa dengan penggunaan perkataan tersebut sehingga ke rumah.

Arakian, setelah disimpulkan, inilah hasilnya :-

GO ASTERN -> GO ES TEN -> GO STEN -> GO STAN -> GOSTAN

Tadaaa.... wujudlah perkataan GOSTAN dalam diari bahasa pasar bahasa melayu.

p/s 1: kisah ini adalah kisah benar tetapi telah dikomersialkan jalan penceritaannya mengikut tatabahasa dan style penulisan yang kreatif.

p/s 2: ASTERN means behind the boat (bahagian belakang kapal). {kalau yang bahagian depan tempat Leonardo D'Caprio n Kate Winslet dalam citer Titanic tu, kita panggil BOW.

~SEKIAN UNTUK KELAS HARI INI~

salam new day...

at the moment i am typing this entry, i heard ada burung bersiul di luar rumah. yes, it is 1.46am now. memang aku ada bela burung di luar dan memang burung aku yang bersiul...tetapi ada burung lain yang sahut menyahut siulan tersebut bagaikan sedang berkomunikasi. aku agak goosebumps juge tetapi aku seakan yakin bahawa itu adalah si uda. for ya guys info, recently uda telah melarikan diri dan meninggalkan si dara.. sungguh tak bertanggugjawab uda nan satu itu. kesian pada si dara. masa tu, bondaku sedang membersihkan sangkar mereka. ntah bgmana keadaan masa itu, si uda berjaya melarikan diri. si dara pula memang sudah keluar dari sangkar, tetapi menurut bonda...si dara seperti tidak pandai terbang..maka tinggallah dara keseorangan tatkala ini. tetapi aku ada juga mendengar si dara berkomunikasi dengan burung2 lain. kesian dara. insyaallah satu hari nanti akan aku bebaskan jua si dara. cuma aku menunggu waktu dan tika itu.

menyentuh tentang waktu dan tika itu...masa di kala ini berlalu dengan begitu pantas. pejam celik pejam celik...sudah mau masuk 3 tahun aku menjadi pensyarah. hmm...dan sebentar tadi jua, aku baru sahaja menghantar online application untuk pengajian masters...insyaallah kalo ada rezeki, aku bakal bergelar pelajar kembali bulan julai ini. apa2 pun, aku harus menunggu keputusannya. dan tentang masa jua, banyak benar yang telah berlaku dalam pada waktu ini. ada yang sedih, ada yang gembira, ada yang sekadar rutin n macam-macam lagi lah. dan yang paling mendapat perhatian kala ini adalah tentang perkara2 yang berbangkit di mana jika kita ulasannya...ia tetap akan berbunyi: segala2 ada hikmah di sebaliknya. dan pada entri yang akan datang, akan aku terangkan mengenai 'segala2nya ada hikmah di sebaliknya".

current state of mind

i have a confession.

i never feel jealous (as far as i am concern). not the extreme one. but now, i am jealous. i never thought that i would and could be jealous.

i am envy. i envy them. but, i am happy for them. i wish i could be them. how i desire and dream to be just like what they are now.

it is true indeed. if you are a person that always remember HIM, HE'll definitely show you the path. the happiest, the most blessed, the righteous and the best.

but, we can't have what we really want. we won't have the same path even so we chose the exactly same path.

we can't we won't we cudn't we wouldn't

and

we will never have the exactly dream that we really dreamt of.

*krik krik*

Last 2 days was among the happiest day in my life. it was because of 2 things. I was and am thanking Allah for the great news I've heard. There was nothing than the two surprising and memorable news that could overtaken its joy.

i am indeed happy for both (",)

tag dari cik parin

#this post was actually done on 8th march but i did not get the chance to click on the 'publish' button.#

saya telah di tag oleh puan wan farin nazeli wan yaacob =p


1) Adakah anda rasa anda hot?

-> ye, saya hot.
pertamanya, saya memang hot kerana cuaca sekarang yang agak hot.
keduanya, saya memang boleh jadi hot sebab cuaca yang hot. jadi berhati2lah.
ketiganya dan terakhirnya, saya bolehlah jugak dikatakan hot dari segi personaliti kerana saya memang mempunyai potensi dari segi meng'hot'kan suasana di mana-mana saya berada.
konklusinye, saya hot.

2) Upload gambar kegemaran anda.

-> laptop saya rosak n gambar dlm laptop. so, tak leh nak upload.

3) Bila kali terakhir anda makan pizza?

-> soalan yang sangat tepat kerana baru jek 15 mins tadi saya makan pizza (specifically domino's).

p/s: kesh belanja tp 1 slice jek... (supporting his student's activities) thanx en kesh! ^_^

4) Lagu terakhir anda dengar?

-> Tajuk "yang terbaik" dari Marsha. Sangat amat yang sangat terkesan pada diri ini. terima kasih cik khom...

5) Apa anda buat selain menyelesaikan tag ini?

-> Cuba-cuba untuk menanda exercises/practices students... (cuba aje tp tak buat pun lagi).


6) Selain nama sendiri anda dipanggil nama ape?

-> a) adik b) maksu@ acu c) far d) cik farrah chantek e) cik farrah chomel (smua ni for real okay..kan arief? hehhee )

7) Tag lagi 8 orang

-> i'm trying though!

1. nana
2. khome
3. arief
4. syazana
5. syarif hakim
6. shafiq
7. zaini
8. sapa2 yang berminat



8) Siapakah orang no 1 kepada anda?

-> sepupuku...eh, ke dua pupu yek nana? maybe three pupu? but of coz not kupu-kupa kan?hehehe

9) Kata sesuatu kepada orang no 5

-> hey syarif hakim! jgn nakal-nakal di sana. senang sangat terpengaruh ngan mat2 n minah2 saleh nnt...balik rambut dah colour blonde dah...

10) No. 3 ada hubungan dengan siapa?

-> hahaha...soklan yang hanya boleh dijawab oleh tuan empunya badan. tapi saya yakin dia memang ada berhubungan dengan seseorg...tp kalo berhubungan dengan sesuatu..jwpnnye laptop dia lah..hehe...


11) Bagaimana pula dengan no 4?

-> hhmm...tak sure. coz she's mysterious... dulu n always..(",)


12) Pesanan kepada org no 6?

-> pesananku padamu: live life to the most! chances are everywhere..grab it as much as u can! chayok2!!


13) Kata-kata cinta untuk no 2?

-> erk??? khome, cpt kawen! mak ko dah bising! hehe


14) Adakah no 7 & 8 punye persamaan?

-> hahaha...in some ways they have. they are both kind and berseni. i loikkee!


15) Berikan 5 yang anda tahu tentang orang yg men`tag anda?

hehehe..farin, are u ready?

1. farin ni dulu ala2 tomboy..tp skang tak lagi...

2. dulu dia penah pakai rantai CD cam 4U2C..hehee...

3. now, she's soon to be mommy! can't wait that...

4. seorg yang slamber (ejaan baku)... dari dulu sampai skang dia mmg sempoi!

5. isteri yang sah kepada en. din ^_^


16) persamaan antara kambing dan lembu?

-> dua-dua binatang daratan.


17) Adakah anda tahu si Razman itu sengal?

-> tiba2 nama razman..ntah sapa ntah dia nih..sah2 org yg cipta tag ni kot..nak cari publisiti murahan..kalo ye, mmg dia tu sengal!


18) Gay or less?

-> saya gay and more!!